Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[BaconCheeseburger]

Feeling dread and a sinking feeling in my stomach

 

[GoBack]

Sick scared and sorry

 

[PartingGlass]

I'm nervous. Very nervous. I met someone a week ago while I was in the psych ward. We got very close and traded numbers. She's still in there, I left a few days ago. I hope I hear from her. I hope I'm good enough for her.

 

[madbananas]

Oppressed, stigmatised, hopeful, unsure, trapped, lost, heartbroken.

 

[Reiraku]

I just want it to end.

 

[GoBack]

Exhausted hopeless despair

 

[diyCTB]

Bored, sad, worried

 

[Arrow]

interestingly enough i don't feel so bad atm

 

[GoBack]

Bored, regretful, sad

 

[SpareWheel]

Bored, fed up, trapped. I keep just wandering round my house aimlessly, I try to play a game on PS4, or watch something on Netflix or YouTube but I lose interest in ten minutes. The only two things I do everyday that kind of pass time are working out, and getting a bath. The other 18 hours a day there's nothing. Been in lockdown since the middle of March, in that time the only place I've been is the shop, once a week. If I wasn't desperately unhappy before C19, I sure as shit am now.

I'd kill just to be able to book a hotel and bugger off, spend a few days on the beach and in the pub, or in the pub on the beach. I haven't said more than 10 words to a human being in 7 weeks, and those words will have been please, thank you and goodbye etc. Spoke to mates on WhatsApp but as for actually using my voice, I could have lost it and I wouldn't know lol.

It's not that I'm even bothered about catching the damn thing, I couldn't care less, it's just there's nowhere to go, everything barring essential shops are closed so I can't even be a rebel unless I just wander around aimlessly.

 

[TheSoulless]

I want spring to last forever, I don't want winter to come.

 

[Klee]

Sad, mad, bad.

 

[RileyTanaka]

Just tired of being punished for being myself. Sad that I'm going to be dealing with a lot of chaos, distrust, and contempt for the rest of my shortlived life, even though I just want peace and to be left alone. No gives fuck all about what I have to go through everyday.

 

[willitpass]

i'm stupid. i'm tired. i don't think i make healthy relationships bc i'm just too depressed and that can make me come off as manipulative bc i talk about killing myself so much. i make people worried until the day they decide they can't handle me anymore. i want to ctb. it's almost time. that's how i'm feeling

 

[pete_x]

Everybody hate me. what am i waiting for. seriously i don't know myself anymore, i had a thought on walking into the road a few minutes ago. it had a strong pull. i tried hanging out with some people at my nephews house and had a silent freak-out and just walked away. i sitting here now listening to i put a spell on you for the past 2 hours or sso, i feel sorcerous tonight, i want to see thing sburn and people twist and come apart in flakes that disintegrate into the night, i can think of a few yes indeedy, of a-wailing they are needy and if i had the cash i'd have a great deal more time....
duh duh duh
I put a spell on you
cuz you're miiiiiiine............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... .

 

[LastFlowers]

My jaw is killing me, I need to sleep, I'm sick of all these egotistical whining asshats that surround me even from a distance. If the whole world came to an end tomorrow, if society burned to the ground-all the people with it, I would let out a sigh of relief, as I awaited my own end. Also, I hope my mother is happy putting all her focus on people who don't matter and don't need it, because when I'm dead, that's all she will have.

 

[madgod]

god wants me in his teeth. religion bleeds all over me. despite my escape i still carry the guilt of a thousand catholic sons yet i was never born a brother. the world around me burns and the heart inside me yerns for a touch of contact or sympathy. cruelty was always a joke to me, i was raised by cruel parents, abused by cruel men, punished by a cruel religion, spit out into a cruel world. sometimes i think humanity died with me when i swallowed all my pills in 2012 and woke up in a hospital with an angry father and a mother who decided to stop caring. maybe the world did end then, maybe this is all a cosmic joke from a dead god killed by the creatures he made. my dog is nice though, and i love my brother and sisters, and i love when i can walk barefooted in mud and feel the earth move when i hold my breath. someday i think we will all find freedom but maybe the hole in the ozon and drone strikes from the sky above with burn us alive and have death be our only freedom. talk about god blessing america. hell fires and all.

i'm stupid. i'm tired. i don't think i make healthy relationships bc i'm just too depressed and that can make me come off as manipulative bc i talk about killing myself so much. i make people worried until the day they decide they can't handle me anymore. i want to ctb. it's almost time. that's how i'm feeling

it's not easy to find someone to care about when you can't even care about yourself. there's always a guilt with it, especially if they feel they need to fix your feelings about death. i wish more people would be okay with understanding everyone is temporary and just enjoy the time as it is, no matter how brief.

I'm nervous. Very nervous. I met someone a week ago while I was in the psych ward. We got very close and traded numbers. She's still in there, I left a few days ago. I hope I hear from her. I hope I'm good enough for her.

i hope you find her too. like minded people are too far and few apart

 

[The Dark Chaos]

Just struggling to get up from myy bed (its past noon here). Andd feelingg emptyy as alwayys.

 

[GoBack]

Too hot. If I could get to the sea I'd go in and never come back out

 

[Lost.]

Numb (as usual) :(

 

[HelensNepenthe]

Dysphoric. Suicidal. Manic episode.

 

[sadghost]

I feel nostalgic, numb.

The world is so depressing to me now. I think back on life and back to my childhood and I remember how adventurous I used to be in a world full of colour.

Now everything just looks lifeless and bleak. I look around and just see everything in shades of grey. I feel chained to my house, where I cannot wander too far - but I want to. I want to go far, far away from this world.

 

[madbananas]

Stuck, sad, worthless.

 

[BlackPoppet]

Full of trepidation about the day ahead.

 

[hakku]

I applied for a position that I thought I was a shoe-in to get, and then I got rejected. I've lost all the confidence I've ever had, which was not much, to be honest. This leaves me with not much time to stay in the country I want to stay in. I'll have to go back to live with my overbearing and disappointed parents. I'd rather die than do that. I'm still torn between to methods of ctb, NN and SN. NN would be preferred but for the life of me I can't find my carotid and induce passing out (fucking can't even kill myself). With SN, there's no way I can get access to the drugs required for 100% success rate. All I have is a bunch of Hydrocodone that won't even kill me. Why is it so fucking hard to just fucking die?

 

[GoBack]

Lost

 

[Woodnote]

I don't know how much more of this I can take..

 

[Lorntroubles]

So fuckin stressed out, got-fuckin-dammit!!!

 

[Broken Chimera]

Overwhelmed. When it rains, it pours.

 

[Lost.]

I feel nostalgic, numb.

The world is so depressing to me now. I think back on life and back to my childhood and I remember how adventurous I used to be in a world full of colour.

Now everything just looks lifeless and bleak. I look around and just see everything in shades of grey. I feel chained to my house, where I cannot wander too far - but I want to. I want to go far, far away from this world.

I can relate :/