
landmine
lovesickness
- Mar 12, 2023
- 99
deep love, to the point of obsession
Congratulations. I'm working 50 hour weeks, caring for a sick person in my life, and doing grad school. I'm also pretty old. And obviously since I'm here I want to CTB. I think if I can do it you can too. I also feel like a total imposter despite working in the same field I'm getting the degree in for over 15 years. Just take it one assignment at a time and schedule in time to do some fun things.I got into graduate school. I should be over the moon with joy: but I'm terrified of how I'm going to handle it. People who are perfectly healthy and well adjusted enter grad school, and leave with horrific mental health problems. The statistics look grim as all fuck for that demographic. I already have awful mental health problems- what the hell is it going to do to me? My older brother reassures me that he believes in me, that I'll have him to lean on if I get scared or overwhelmed, but I can't help but stew in anxiety about whether I'm going to be good enough to do this. I feel like I've just pulled the world's wildest con of all time, and I'm going to be found out as a fraud, as ridiculous as it sounds.