Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[violetforever]

im just going to lay down and accept failure in my schoolwork because i cant function enough to do it. im so burnt out. ive been trying to push myself to get by since february but i cant do it anymore.

 

[violetforever]

i dont know how to behave like a woman, just a ditzy and clumsy young girl. maybe its because my own mother and father arent so mature themselves.

 

[darksouls]

my nightmares are exhausting me

 

[violetforever]

i cant even care that my grade dropped from an A to a C right now. nothing matters and ill never be able to function properly in this world or with other people anyway.

 

[Manaaja]

In a lot of species, neither sex will tolerate each other outside of mating season.

A biologically healthy marriage is all females being gay with each other and raising kids together away from males, breeding with males once a year, and then spending a year gaying with other females and raising kids.

Biologically, only birds have healthy monogamous heterosexual "marriages" and even they have sidepieces often, and they often nest in groups.

 

[Bad Mojo]

I want to do it over the weekend, but I know I probably won't.
I think it's as good timing as ever though.

 

[Tenir bon]

Tired. I just wanna sleep and not have to wake up

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

Torn. I feel like my suicide fantasies are slowly destroying me. I tell myself I have no legit reason to feel this way, I'm blessed in so many ways, etc. As if i can "talk" myself out of depression. Then, I start feeling guilty about it, and then the guilt tells me I'm a worthless human being that doesn't deserve to live anyway. And back to square one.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

No language in the world could provide for me the necessary words to express the absolute despise and anger that the idea of the existence of an 'illness' (depression) capable of distorting one's thought patterns generates in me. I hope psychology and neurology fields won't take much time from now to tear down and reconstruct from the foundations the concept of mental health.
Each time I encounter someone spewing the fucking ridiculous mantra of "you're not thinking clearly, depression is meddling with your ability to reason", a significant percentage of my neurons decide they're done with this shitshow and switch off forever.

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

No language in the world could provide for me the necessary words to express the absolute despise and anger that the idea of the existence of an 'illness' (depression) capable of distorting one's thought patterns generates in me. I hope psychology and neurology fields won't take much time from now to tear down and reconstruct from the foundations the concept of mental health.
Each time I encounter someone spewing the fucking ridiculous mantra of "you're not thinking clearly, depression is meddling with your ability to reason", a significant percentage of my neurons decide they're done with this shitshow and switch off forever.

I know right! It's like, okay I know something isn't firing properly. That doesn't tell me how to fix it!

 

[CTB Dream]

rly awfl lif this trap no psblany

 

[scordatura]

Ah, just busy bullshitting my own happiness...

 

[Spite]

Enraged. Words cannot describe the scorn I have towards my co-workers, it makes my job unbearable and I want to die. I hate all of them.

 

[freezerbr1d3]

i don't think i ever truly believed in god and it scares and grosses me out to say it. perhaps i didn't try enough and that's why i'll never be saved but i don't really see the point anymore

 

[violetforever]

my life is so sad that i prefer mondays over fridays and the weekend because my classes and internship during the week are the only times im productive and around people other than my family who drives me mad .-.

 

[yume_]

I also don't know what I am feeling.
Is it emptyness? I think that's the closest I can describe it.
It doesn't feel good neither bad. It just feels.

 

[aurevoir]

Desperate for relief, scared, hopeless, exhausted, angry at myself and the way I fit in this world. I wish I could disappear, from existence and my loved ones memories. Or at the very least, they think of me how you would a positive interaction with a stranger or a distant friend you remember fondly. I hate that my pain has hurt and will hurt others. But i just don't belong here.

 

[Manaaja]

Planet Earth sounds so ugly.

...ear-th...

who the hell makes these names

I want to planet Titth

Honestly, a planet doen't need a name.

...plan-et...

who the hell makes these names

I want to triumph-et

 

[itsgone2]

Just wish I'd do it already
My life is over
It stopped in September
SI keeps me here but also I'm a failure
My life is over. I made bad choices
I didn't know

 

[foreverandever]

Overwhelmed, worthless, incompetent. I don't know what to do, where to go, who to turn to. I'm hopeless, and a burden to everyone around me. I just wish the illness I'd had as an infant had killed me so I never would have had the opportunity to contaminate other people's lives. But, I'm also too much of a coward to go through with it, even though that would be the best thing for everyone. I hate myself more than anything.

 

[i_am_done]

anxiety guilt dread shame

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

Overwhelmed, worthless, incompetent. I don't know what to do, where to go, who to turn to. I'm hopeless, and a burden to everyone around me. I just wish the illness I'd had as an infant had killed me so I never would have had the opportunity to contaminate other people's lives. But, I'm also too much of a coward to go through with it, even though that would be the best thing for everyone. I hate myself more than anything.

I'm so sorry you feel this way, and I can equate.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

I despise the game of life on itself, not only the cards that I've been dealt. I don't assign any value to the fact of being alive, I don't take our species in high regard (we're just another animal, one that has developed language and culture), all interest in contributing and belonging to my society is long gone. All of this make me feel out of place even in a site like this. Not that I'm affected by it, because I'm here primarily to collect information about methods, but sometimes is tiresome not reading anything I can relate to not even in a pro-choice suicide forum...

 

[foreverandever]

I'm so sorry you feel this way, and I can equate.

Thank you. I'm sick of feeling this way, but there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it. I'm really sorry that you're feeling similarly.

 

[suicide_grrl]

I'm upset that my friend has become out going like how I used to be. And now I'm shy. I don't post myself anymore but I used to a lot. I feel like if I post myself I don't hate myself enough but if I don't post I feel like a loser. I'm so upset and pissed. Idk why.

 

[violetforever]

a guy in my class gave me his number i was really social today

 

[Anthropos]

It's very strange how I dont feel sad, depressed or anxious but still want to die.

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

It's very strange how I dont feel sad, depressed or anxious but still want to die.

Oh yes, that happens to me, too. I think suicidality is a part of my being at this point.

 

[pax420]

Physically. Pain always pain
Emotionally. Absolutely nothing
Mentally. Inside out

 

[Anthropos]

Oh yes, that happens to me, too. I think suicidality is a part of my being at this point.

Perhaps our suicidal aspect stoped being from emotions and begun to become part of our world's view or a rational conclusion after observing the world.