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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Behind the guilt was compassion
Jan 26, 2021
5,754
Slight headache, went to a job interview and saw functional people everywhere ofc (worsened mental state), couldn't eat anything due to the stress of an interview so low on calories and also dehydrated. Feel very lonely like always ofc, heh. Shitty day, I hate it when anything happens or I choose to take on a task such as this. I prefer stability and sameness, even if it means never imitating the well-adjusted by "earning my keep" or "experiencing love".
 
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makingsure4

Student
Jan 6, 2021
152
When asked about what my gifts are on one of these threads I said basically that because of the way I experience music I've been told I'm a great dancer. The part I didn't want to add because I didn't want to add another depressing thing, at least to that thread, is that I used to really enjoy dancing. Then I was in an accident that hurt my spine. No longer. I feel bloated and stiff. Not the same me before the accident.
 
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cupples1979@hotmail.

Member
Jan 25, 2021
23
Ready to ctb right now. So glad this is an anonymous forum of like minded people. The level of stress in my life is insurmountable and I can't see a way out... there is nothing left :(
Im in the same boat. I wish i would just keep over and be done or just get enough will power to do it myself
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,164
I feel like kissing a girl.
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
1,632
I feel like I just can't face another day.
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
I wish I could just be left the hell alone, so that I can retreat into my imaginary world and just spend time writing.
 
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http-410

nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,043
I feel absolutely nothing. My brain is completely numb.
 
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goodgrief

goodgrief

Member
Jan 27, 2021
13
I just feel trapped and terrified of everything. :(
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
Fried
 
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wannago

wannago

Relief
Dec 4, 2020
90
No depression - I've been through that. But I'm done. And I've done what I've wanted to do. I feel as though I've reached a conclusion, but I don't have the funds to finish it yet. I'm looking forward to it though, it feels as though I've finally come to terms with who I am, and I've been treating people much better after making this choice.
I'm not even sad, but I hate the fact that my choice will potentially govern how others are feeling, and I'm not even talking to them about it. I do however feel much more resolved and it is a blessing.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,214
The new Wandavision episode actually kinda scared me haha... Fellow viewers would probably know which moment I'm talking about. I don't think I can sleep tonight...
 
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http-410

nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,043
Still numb. As if I or my thoughts were non-existent. Also very tired/exhausted.
 
DocNo

DocNo

whatever
Oct 30, 2020
1,750
empty. lonely. tired.
 
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Deleted member 22624

Deleted member 22624

One foot in the grave
Oct 7, 2020
1,085
It would be foolish to think any other medication will be any different. It's just as likely to be even worse than any better. It's insanity. I can't let myself be talked into any more
 
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L I F E T O L O S E

L I F E T O L O S E

only you can stop the evil
Sep 18, 2020
465
Angry inside
 
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stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
nothing...as if I didn't even exist

wish I knew how to utilize my time on this planet...

everything's a continuous circle of meaninglessness...
 
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http-410

nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,043
I feel numb - there's perhaps a bit of despair, because I know there's no (other) way out. I was even so numb, when I crossed that bridge I often walk across, I didn't have the strong impulse to jump like always (which I would never do).

I'm tired, stuck, but mostly numb. Also my jaw hurts.
 
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rhonda

Member
Mar 8, 2020
35
Im in the same boat. I wish i would just keep over and be done or just get enough will power to do it myself
Right? Then you manage to push on another day....idk...then I beat myself up over pissing and moaning about my first world problems...wtf is wrong with me...I should be grateful I have a roof, clean water, food...I can pay for the alcohol that medicates me...I seem to hate people I push them all out, then, walk the path alone
Im in the same boat. I wish i would just keep over and be done or just get enough will power to do

Im in the same boat. I wish i would just keep over and be done or just get enough will power to do it myself
Right? Fml...we'll get it right someday...one way or the other
 
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foxdie

Got my ticket
Aug 18, 2020
1,011
I thought my laptop cable broke and tonight was going to be my last night using it ever. It turns out the light switch controling the outlet was switched off and the cable was fine.

I find myself becoming increasingly fatalistic and despairing recently, even over the littlest things. My life is so lonely and empty now, I have little to focus in generally. I'm falling fast into my end...
 
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http-410

nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,043
I was jogging and suddenly I felt so dizzy/dissociative that I thought I was going to faint. Still kinda wobbly and dizzy. My brain is a wreck.
 
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restforeternity

restforeternity

Student
Feb 17, 2019
170
Somewhat sombre today.
 
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Lmd

Lmd

Elementalist
Jul 12, 2020
812
Bored. I wish something excitind would happend soon
 
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Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
I used to be a nice trusting person. Never again after the past few years.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,164
Hungry. This new diet sucks!
 
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http-410

nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,043
I'm tired and it's cold. I'd like to eat something, but I'm not hungry and I'm too tired anyway.
 
LastResort

LastResort

Member
Oct 1, 2020
7
I'm feeling so tired, mentally but also psychically
 
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