Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[http-410]

Exhausted.

 

[Sherri]

Was feeling great until got some unpleasant news. Trying to turn anger into love is hard sometimes. The saying love one another like brothers and sisters is hard to do sometimes. I keep trying, but some situations are harder to deal with and it hurts, it's unfair and breaks my heart in q pieces or more.

 

[DocNo]

done sad destroyed shattered - choose one

 

[Sherri]

done sad destroyed shattered - choose one

Sorry to hear that my fellow song player. Sending you a hug, really enjoy our interactions. You're not alone.

 

[DocNo]

Sorry to hear that my fellow song player. Sending you a hug, really enjoy our interactions. You're not alone.

nice words - but yeah just words - words don't do it for me anymore i guess - but maybe nothing does it for me anymore - whatever - i also enjoy our interactions ...

 

[Sherri]

nice words - but yeah just words - words don't do it for me anymore i guess - but maybe nothing does it for me anymore - whatever - i also enjoy our interactions ...

I know it's just words, sigh.... but there's a real person typing those words. And because we interact so much, we kinda feel closer to the op in some way.

 

[DocNo]

I know it's just words, sigh.... but there's a real person typing those words. And because we interact so much, we kinda feel closer to the op in some way.

yeah - sometimes more sometimes less i guess - part of what i did write also means that my own words often feel just like empty hulls - don't know - this state where everything is upside down like a room without any orientation points.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Anger. So much anger that I may well refrain from drinking so that i can channel it accordingly.

 

[Sherri]

yeah - sometimes more sometimes less i guess - part of what i did write also means that my own words often feel just like empty hulls - don't know - this state where everything is upside down like a room without any orientation points.

I know what you mean...

 

[Going Home]

For the first time in a while I've been thinking why should I kill myself when certain other people are the problem. I hate this disrespectful lying motherfucker. He might be worth a trip to jail. I'll probably get killed there anyway. So it kinda works out. He keeps saying "fuck her". No FUCK YOU.

 

[greebo6]

lost

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I just don't get it. Here I am, willing to work on making things better, but I have no damn idea how. I am so exhausted and I feel like all my efforts are for nothing. I am being told I am not good enough, even when I am putting my all into making things right and doing the very exact things the very same person told me to do to improve. Am I inherently not good enough? Should I just give up?
I wish I had someone to talk to, someone to go to for advice, who isn't going to just shrug it off or say something unnecessarily mean.

 

[L951788]

Meh. Just don't care. Don't even know why I'm here on off-topic. Wonder what the point of my existence has been so far up to this point besides making someone else money. I'm bored, apathetic, depressed, and angry. Feel like a zombie I guess. Just truly wondering what the point is. I think some people get lucky while others aren't so lucky and get hurt. These stupid meds I'm on mess with my brain. It's all so stupid. I'm so sick of all this. Being alive. Do this. Do that. Don't do that. Do this instead. No. Just go to sleep. The game is stupid.

 

[Ender]

Tired, suffering, agony, physical and mental pain. Exhausted. I could go on.

 

[Wrennie]

Cheated, betrayed, and backed into a corner. I could've had a nice life and a healthy body if my parents hadn't drugged me. It's hard not to resent them for my current predicament. I just yearn to be free from the pain but I'm too scared of the nausea aspect of CTBing with SN. I really want the R2D Debreather to be a viable option but as of now it's seeming more and more like a scam. I feel so trapped.

 

[greebo6]

depressed

 

[GrumpyFrog]

Doubt whether to CTB now, or later

 

[http-410]

nonexistent

 

[http-410]

Terrible. I had a nightmare and since then I feel dazed, confused and like I'm made of jello.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

My metformin medicine is literally supposed to reduce my appetite except sometimes I tend to feel even hungrier like right now I'm so hungry I mean I could go downstairs and get my snacks but my mom could be awake and if she hears me then I'm gonna get chewed out which would be really lame ugh.

 

[Deleted member 22624]

Disgusted. People are sick. Some a lot more than others. So train or jump? Maybe I can take the train to jump again but that's a pain, quite a walk to the cliff. I could drive there, but that leaves the car in an awkward spot, but someone just needs to go and pick it up, worse happens in life to be honest. I'm SO fed up of thinking about suicide, it's about time I gave it a other *really* good go. So, train or jumping? Hmmm. I feel like I'm close

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Restless Saturdays tbh. Tired of being here abd constantly being asked how im doing.

I feel like I almost flawlessly avoided major social interactions this week and somehow... today... ugh

I dunno they are an empath it feels different like they steal my energy. They're able to feel more and I feel that.

I end up talking but its meaningless words and Im mot tryna be genuine like that.

I feel too monitored here. Then when I talk to them I feel exposed.

Being honest doesn't make a difference for me... I kinda feel miserable now. I didn't talk about anything heavy but the energy exchange was a lot.

Haaa aside from that I'm bored. I wanted to pick up but won't happen till tmrw if it even does.

Needa go buy smokes but ate my life like 2 hrs ago and still stomach heavy. Getting sleepy....

I really don't enjoy talking to that staff anymore. It hurts too much like. For a lot of reasons.

Ive been elusive for a reason like damn sis. Ima nap now without much trouble but still...


I've been thinking about a story i started writing like 5 yrs ago.... i wish that and my other wants could be the highlights of my day but eh.

 

[suicidal-raven]

Heartbroken

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Like I'm going to scream at the kid in the corridor who won't stop screaming and running up and down! Grrrrr

 

[greebo6]

Bored and lonely as usual. Its always worse at weekends.

 

[http-410]

tired and defeated.

 

[greebo6]

How hopeless and horrible everything is.

 

[Mentalmick]

Drained

 

[Aeathelina]

I'm feeling Every thing! Luke an exposed nerve held to a fire. My whole body is on fire from the anxiety and the crushing reality is making my blood run cold.
It fucking sucks. And given my current circumstance I'll probably be dead by the end of the year

 

[GoneGirl]

Like I want to die but I'm scared do t know whether I'm meant to makemylife mean something. I feellike God might be angry if I just throw it all away after coming through so much!