HereTomorrow
Eternally atoning
- Feb 1, 2024
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I'm recovering from suicidial thoughts, but nobody around me in real life cares. I'm normal to them.
When I'm passively or actively suicidial, suddenly there's the "Hey HereTomorrow how are you doing?" or "Do you want to talk about it?"
I'm well aware of the attention seeking world and I'm far from the center of it, but it seems that unless I put a gun under my chin I'm invisible to everyone I know and love. And it's not like I want them to freak out, nor do I ever intentionally do that to get their eyes. But whenever I'm okay, I'm invisible. I don't want to CTB, I have my own traumas and overwhelms I keep fighting through. And when I successfully do, nobody cares.
Loneliness hurts.
When I'm passively or actively suicidial, suddenly there's the "Hey HereTomorrow how are you doing?" or "Do you want to talk about it?"
I'm well aware of the attention seeking world and I'm far from the center of it, but it seems that unless I put a gun under my chin I'm invisible to everyone I know and love. And it's not like I want them to freak out, nor do I ever intentionally do that to get their eyes. But whenever I'm okay, I'm invisible. I don't want to CTB, I have my own traumas and overwhelms I keep fighting through. And when I successfully do, nobody cares.
Loneliness hurts.