You know when you sit too much you leg feels numb, right? It feels like my whole body is like that right now. As if I spent too much time doing something repeatedly, that everything feels numb. Not in a physical sense, it's a more... metaphorical version of my mental state.
Right. And now you changed your position but you still feel numb. nothing changes. Blood should've been running through your ankles and heart and arms and whole body already. It just doesn't. And here you are. Sitting here. Staring at something inexistent as if it will help you regain your feelings. You try different stuff, you try to imitate the feelings of pain or comfort or anything, really. But you just can't. You're stuck.
And you go to sleep in hopes that it will change tomorrow... Until it doesn't. As well as it doesn't change the day after tomorrow. And the next day. And the next day. And the next week, month, year. And this numbness will continue. Occasionally you will feel, – or, well, think that you feel, – your arms getting burned from something or the feeling of soft carpet on you feet. But it's so quick, so unnoticeable, that you can't even comprehend it before it's gone.
