Username: It seems pretty self-explanatory. I'm unsure with many things—whether I should CTB, how I should respond to people, how I should go on with my life—and I consider myself to be extremely useless. Personally, uselessness is a defining trait of mine, followed by "emotionally unstable" and "dangerously clumsy."
Profile Picture: I didn't want to have a pfp too "out of place" here since I was nervous I'd be criticized for it, so I went with something simple, a flower commonly associated with death. While doing research, a couple of flowers that fit this criteria were black roses, withered white roses, carnations, lilies, marigolds, and chrysanthemums. Though only three of them, the roses and the marigolds, have something to do with literal death instead of metaphorical death.
I found that having a rose as a pfp was a bit too cliché, so I stuck with the marigolds. Plus, I thought it was a nice touch since marigolds, despite their warm colors (yellow being associated with joy and orange being an offshoot of that), represent something typically depicted as sad. It sort of resonated with me a bit. Until they see me fall into a depressive episode, people wouldn't consider me depressed because I'm always laughing or acting happy, but internally, I struggle with maintaining a genuine will to live.
Additionally, it kinda explains my situation in a metaphorical way. If you think of people like flowers, most "normal" people are able to stay sane and happy because they have roots anchoring them down, making them more resilient in depressing and stressful situations. However, I don't have these same roots, so these same situations uproot me and sweep me up in depression, anxiety, and stress.
Sorry if this sounded cringe, I just get unnecessarily deep about these things.
