What addictions do you have?

[venin]

Coffee, junk food, porn including spending money on porn (so like OF and some subreddits), chess (only half joking on that). The first 3 are large contributors as to why I feel so disgusting all the time and why I am here. If hating yourself counts as well it's fair to say that's up there...

I feel you

 

[Borderline]

My addiction is self harm for 8 years.

 

[venin]

I don't really, I'm not into self harm as I don't desire to suffer and I'm just not that interested in existence in general, existing doesn't appeal to me and my existence will always be very empty, I only wish for permanent, dreamless sleep, existence was just something I was burdened with.

But something must've happened that got you to this point, right?

If you don't wanna share it's perfectly fine but I am curious what made your life be this hollow

 

[Ruma]

Cigarettes and alcohol,they'll eventually kill me if I don't kill myself first! :D

 

[venin]

The addiction to continue to be stupid enough to care about people who don't give a shit about me. But I'm learning - just slowly. Oh and wine, coffee, tea.

I also am tortured by that addiction

 

[lebrodude]

Regret.

The worst addiction of them all.

 

[venin]

Cigarettes and alcohol,they'll eventually kill me if I don't kill myself first! :D

They're too slow… at least in my humble opinion

Regret.

The worst addiction of them all.

Good one

 

[squareminus1]

I feel you

It's a vicous cycle, you feel sad, so you cave to your habits, you immediately feel even more disgusting, so you feel even more sad, so you cave again, again, again. And I feel like with porn especially it's so hard to seek help for that since it can seem quite taboo. Anyways sorry for venting on you dude, I wish you luck in your endevours, if you want to try get out of a porn addiction the app Remojo worked alright for me, I did slide back due to my recent moods though, I am sure there are other sources if you try look for them. As for the otherstuff idk, but good luck!

 

[venin]

It's a vicous cycle, you feel sad, so you cave to your habits, you immediately feel even more disgusting, so you feel even more sad, so you cave again, again, again. And I feel like with porn especially it's so hard to seek help for that since it can seem quite taboo. Anyways sorry for venting on you dude, I wish you luck in your endevours, if you want to try get out of a porn addiction the app Remojo worked alright for me, I am sure there are other sources if you try look for them. As for the otherstuff idk, but good luck!

Np man. That's why we're here. Vent, connect & make our lives a little bit more bearable. I quit porn but ty anyways

 

[Unattainable666]

I also am tortured by that addiction

I am so sorry. I know how painful it is to care about someone and get nothing in response. The human race is worthless.

 

[venin]

I am so sorry. I know how painful it is to care about someone and get nothing in response. The human race is worthless.

Fuck the human race

 

[Unattainable666]

Fuck the human race

I'm behind you 100%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[FuneralCry]

But something must've happened that got you to this point, right?

If you don't wanna share it's perfectly fine but I am curious what made your life be this hollow

I was born which is what unfortunately happened. Existence was never something good or desirable in the first place, it's the source of all harm and suffering after all and I'm just not meant for existing. Honestly I don't understand why anyone would want to exist, I think that existence was such a horrific mistake in the first place, it's perfectly logical wishing for permanent peace, existing in general is just so pointless and unappealing, only non-existence is acceptable for me.

 

[squareminus1]

The addiction to continue to be stupid enough to care about people who don't give a shit about me. But I'm learning - just slowly. Oh and wine, coffee, tea.

Gotta say though beinf addicted to wine and coffee makes you a very cool person in my book, stay strong, I wish you luck in your endeavors.

 

[Unattainable666]

Gotta say though beinf addicted to wine and coffee makes you a very cool person in my book, stay strong, I wish you luck in your endeavors.

Thanks for your support I appreciate it.

 

[doneforlife]

I am not addicted to anything. In fact it is one of the reasons I don't have a strong attachment to life. It may sound weird but I have never touched alcohol , cigarettes , or any kind of drugs. I don't play video games. I am not a sports fan either. I have never watched porn. The maximum stuff I have been subjected to is in series like Game of Thrones. May be I am asexual. I don't like those stuff. As far as food is concerned, I have many dietary restrictions due to weak stomach and other diseases. Hence I don't eat junk food either as I have to endure pain the next day.

 

[venin]

I am not addicted to anything. In fact it is one of the reasons I don't have a strong attachment to life. It may sound weird but I have never touched alcohol , cigarettes , or any kind of drugs. I don't play video games. I am not a sports fan either. I have never watched porn. The maximum stuff I have been subjected to is in series like Game of Thrones. May be I am asexual. I don't like those stuff. As far as food is concerned, I have many dietary restrictions due to weak stomach and other diseases. Hence I don't eat junk food either as I have to endure pain the next day.

Interesting usually when you're going through a lot of shit as we have you tend to have all sorts of addictions. That's why I asked in the first place.

But what do you do then when to aleviate the pain on a daily basis? Or even more, when you feel like CTB-ing?

 

[020x]

My addictions as hobbies are gaming, porn and cycling. As for medications: just Xanax (Alprazolam) currently 0.5mg a day.

 

[doneforlife]

Interesting usually when you're going through a lot of shit as we have you tend to have all sorts of addictions. That's why I asked in the first place.

But what do you do then when to aleviate the pain on a daily basis? Or even more, when you feel like CTB-ing?

I mostly listen to hour long music videos on YouTube. I listen to philosophical debates about existence vs non existence, God vs atheism and other such topics. I browse about similar topics in other social platforms like reddit, qoura.

 

[venin]

I mostly listen to hour long music videos on YouTube. I listen to philosophical debates about existence vs non existence, God vs atheism and other such topics. I browse about similar topics in other social platforms like reddit, qoura.

You're ethereal

 

[Takamagahara]

In terms of substances, cigarettes, benzos, opioids, painkillers in general. I had a brief stint with cocaine but it ended up being too difficult and expensive to procure; didn't seem worth it.

Fun fact, my addictions are purely psychosomatic; I generally don't feel any withdrawal symptoms. I've quit opioids and cigarettes cold turkey with barely any ill effects twice despite both nicotine and painkillers having well-documented withdrawal hells. It's no coincidence that I only managed to do so once it seemed like life was getting better, and also no coincidence that I fell right back in as soon as things started getting shitty.

In terms of interests and behaviors, video games, sleeping (good practice for being dead), and as of late, hanging out here. I dunno, I just like y'all.

 

[doneforlife]

I mostly listen to hour long music videos on YouTube. I listen to philosophical debates about existence vs non existence, God vs atheism and other such topics. I browse about similar topics in other social platforms like reddit, qoura.

You're ethereal

He he. No. May be loosing 3 of my family members to death has pushed me to some kind of rabbit hole. ..

 

[venin]

He he. No. May be loosing 3 of my family members to death has pushed me to some kind of rabbit hole. ..

Sorry to hear that…

 

[doneforlife]

Sorry to hear that…

No issues. It has been decades now. I am more stabilized.

 

[venin]

In terms of substances, cigarettes, benzos, opioids, painkillers in general. I had a brief stint with cocaine but it ended up being too difficult and expensive to procure; didn't seem worth it.

Fun fact, my addictions are purely psychosomatic; I generally don't feel any withdrawal symptoms. I've quit opioids and cigarettes cold turkey with barely any ill effects twice despite both nicotine and painkillers having well-documented withdrawal hells. It's no coincidence that I only managed to do so once it seemed like life was getting better, and also no coincidence that I fell right back in as soon as things started getting shitty.

In terms of interests and behaviors, video games, sleeping (good practice for being dead), and as of late, hanging out here. I dunno, I just like y'all.

Liking the practice

We like you too, mydude

Suicidal people are the absolute best
Apparently

 

[Griffith_NPD]

I'm only addicted to one thing, it's called Love, it's what has killed me...

 

[who doesn't matter]

Does sleeping count?

 

[venin]

I'm only addicted to one thing, it's called Love, it's what has killed me...

Oh, I'm also addicted to that. Or more like being in a relationship

Does sleeping count?

Sure it does

 

[Maeve]

Sh (nicotine and alcohol * not really addicted but i was drinking and smoking a lot) but i am working on stopping i got rid of my need to smoke almost entirely i just get the urge if someone is smoking around me. Alcohol is something i try to not do anymore when i don't feel good because last time i drank to much and lost a lot of friends because i told how bad i am doing. Sh is an addiction tho i am working on skills but it is really hard to notice the urge fast enough and to be able to do something bevor it is realy bad:(

 

[Dark Moon]

Video games, porn and internet.