Well, it is time for me to stop hurting.

[Girobatol]

Hasta la vista Ark. Thank you for your smart contributions. You will be missed. Are you drinking the 200 ml of vet N?

 

[TAW122]

Thanks for your sincere thoughts and post. I wish you a peaceful journey to the other side.

 

[Fractured]

I hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[Ark]

I will be ingesting 120ml for about 6.7gm of N. I will be chasing it with a shot of Jefferson's Ocean Cask strength.

 

[Mizzmini45]

I'm happy for your peace and a bit jealous(but in a good way !!) you have been nothing but nice to me. Have a great trip to the other side

 

[Grandexit]

Heartbreaking. Journey well my friend. You are one of the good ones.

 

[Ark]

Thank you to everyone that has responded since my last post. Well thank you to everyone but hopefully you all know what I mean. Decided to watch Endgame again. Kind of surprised that is one of the last things I want to watch but since it popped in my head I am going for it.

 

[Jean4]

Bump

 

[Ark]

LOL Jean. I have a feeling your going to be looking out for me for a while. You definitely made my time here better.

 

[Jean4]

LOL Jean. I have a feeling your going to be looking out for me for a while. You definitely made my time here better.

Who me? Little ol me?

 

[awfullife]

Be well, Ark. So long and I wish you peace and strength during your transition. Thanks for all your thoughtful contributions.

 

[Soul]

(((Hug)))

 

[realjunes]

@Ark

I was, of course, sad to read your goodbye notice / thread: "Well, it is time for me to Stop Hurting."

But at the same time want you to be rid of pain.

I know and noted that despite your own terrible pain, you postponed this moment for some time now, to undertake the mission of gathering disparate facts from members' efforts to gain N for their final exit, sorting through them, and publishing them in a detailed way that made it very easy to read and contemplate. Not an easy task at all.

You are clearly a most unselfish and disciplined person, evidenced by your comprehensive post detailing your findings regarding N, and the careful planning of your own exit, all actions which you accomplished for others.

I don't think we will completely know for a while the full impact of your work, on our behalf, to collect and post your N findings. But I do know that even since you published, so many people were and will be benefitted by your work, as you provided to us "facts" we can use to make the most serious decisions of our lives.

Your post of facts, "Getting N" will live on, and is now the starting place, a real guide, for anyone to learn about this subject.

It will live on as a Memoriam to you, my friend.

I had to take a break from the forum for a while, but when I saw your announcement about tonight, I wanted to log on long enough to tell you how fond I am of you and to say I will be virtually with you in your final hour(s), and I thank you for being you.

 

[voyager]

Take care, Ark. Only found about your situation the other day and I'm sorry it has come to this. Will miss your soothing comments around here. A peaceful transition to you and may you find the peace you seek.

 

[LonelyLight]

Best of luck, sorry to see you go I hope your journey is peaceful

 

[Holacanthus]

I have no words to express the sadness I feel. Being new, I'm not used to this. I wish you a peaceful journey.

 

[jgm63]

Sending you a top up wish for a safe voyage to somewhere wonderful

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I have a lot to say but will do my best to condense it.

First, thank you to all who created and keep this forum running. I have created and ran forums in the past and know first hand the challenges involved. And especially in this context I am sure there are many more challenges than normal. Thank you to all of you.

I have gotten to know a lot of people my time here, and many of those people helped me greatly. Some of them are gone now and I miss them. I don't think I can name people as if I miss someone then I would not want that person to think I ignored mentioning them for some reason. But, if I talked to you, I care about you. And I appreciate you all more than I can express. I got to know some better than others of course and you know who you are. Thank you to all of you.

It is just the nature of things that this post will be buried and forgotten in time. But, if anyone reads this please heed my advice. Life itself is amazing and precious. If you are here you are hurting and I am sorry for your pain. But, never act hastily, most times there is a way for your situation to get better. Especially if you are young. You owe it to yourself to consider every single possibility to try to make your situation better and continue to experience the wonders that life has to offer. Also know though that if you do all in your power to try to find any possible way to make your life livable, but find there truly is no way, you would have my support for what it is worth.

I will be CTBing tonight about 1 am EST. My method is N. I will be using a stat dose of Meto one hour before. I have prepared my loved ones as best I can. I put my after life wishes into effect as best I could also.

I am feeling relieved that my pain will finally be ended. So far anyway, I am not afraid. I know in my heart I tried with all I am to find a way to live without pain. My only regret is that someone that meant everything to me always promised to be here holding my hand when I passed. And she won't be.

I will self ban before I take my drink. I will then reset my phone to factory.

Thank you all for everything and I hope my words will help some people in their journeys no matter where it leads them.

I will be around here until I go tonight. But I needed to get this written now.

@Ark You are a very nice and helfpul person. I hope everything goes the way you wish it to go for you.

Although i'll miss you and some of the others that have gone recently I'm in awe at the bravery in the face of death that you all showed to go through with ctb. I hope i can acquire the same bravery soon.

Sadly i would have liked to have chatted or PM'd with you @Ark and @Stan, @MeltingHeart, @bigj75 and others more but sadly i don't have the time nor energy for even that.

How i wish these and many others gone and those still active here could have hung out more here or even irl for some.

@Ark Your bravery and courage in the face of these horrible problems you are facing and in the face of death, your ability to focus and get things done, and your willingness to help others is really motivating me to fight for my own peace. Because of your story i now know i will get the deciveness ,focus and dedication for my own fight.

 

[LMLN]

Ark, I hope you are finding peace in your last hours. I'm thinking of you and hoping you have a peaceful passing. ❤❤❤

 

[Skyview]

Peace my friend , enjoy the movie . Tranquility awaits and you're in for a big surprise !

 

[passenger27]

Good luck and golden slumbers to you.

 

[nitrogen]

Ohh great. The funny one is gone (BPD_LE), the helpful one is gone (Stan), now you're @Ark leaving too.

All the coolest people on this site just go one by one.

 

[Jean4]

 

[Meant2Die]

Dear Ark,
It was a pleasure getting to know you and I'm grateful I had a friend to vent to during the last few very stressful weeks that we've had, but it all turned out okay in the end, didn't it? I know you didn't want to see the holidays, but I hope the wait was worth it. It was wonderful having you here, despite the circumstances. As others have expressed, thank you for all your well thought out and supportive posts. Thank you for all the research. I am so glad you were able to obtain some real N because you deserve to go out in serene and gentle peace. I won't be too far behind :)

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I wish you peace. Thank you so much for your research and the great threads that you wrote!

 

[marcusuk63]

Safe passage

 

[Jean4]

I am here with you as promised if you need me. I am not leaving.

 

[realjunes]

Ditto

 

[Time]

Sorry to see you go, Ark. I've read & appreciated so many of your posts & I'm going to miss your input. I'm sure that you've put a lot of thought & planning into this decision so I'll just say that I hope everything goes as smoothly as possible & you find peace.

Safe travels, Ark.

 

[Jean4]

You know I had to post it, and say again. I will be perfectly happy if you stay, but understand if Stan wins out. Arguing with Stan never worked anyway. ;)

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/