My sister ctb with SN two months ago and I plan to do the same.

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

It will be unfortunate to leave my family with another death but I'm so tired of everything and always have been. People always say it gets better but the cons outweigh any highlights. I can at least say I'm happy my sister didn't suffer and I'm glad she is no longer suffering by living. I miss the hell out of her, but you can't be selfish and hold someone here against their will when they are so obviously sad.

I don't know if anyone wonders but yes, I found out about SN through her suicide and I feel guilty in a way about it. I have always wanted to leave since middle school, but never knew a way that wouldn't leave me in a possible vegetable state. SN seems to be pretty good way out and I most likely will find out tonight. I already have everything I need and a hotel room for tonight.

I am scared of family viewing it as she led to it in a way and I don't want that to be the case, but someone would probably try to connect the two regardless of how I go.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

It will be unfortunate to leave my family with another death but I'm so tired of everything and always have been. People always say it gets better but the cons outweigh any highlights. I can at least say I'm happy my sister didn't suffer and I'm glad she is no longer suffering by living. I miss the hell out of her, but you can't be selfish and hold someone here against their will when they are so obviously sad.

I don't know if anyone wonders but yes, I found out about SN through her suicide and I feel guilty in a way about it. I have always wanted to leave since middle school, but never knew a way that wouldn't leave me in a possible vegetable state. SN seems to be pretty good way out and I most likely will find out tonight. I already have everything I need and a hotel room for tonight.

I am scared of family viewing it as she led to it in a way and I don't want that to be the case, but someone would probably try to connect the two regardless of how I go.

It's always a good thing to delete web history and this forum from history as it will less the probability to get it closed when you do the thing, but yes me too my mom did die from recently in 2024, another death on the family would weigh a lot.

It will be unfortunate to leave my family with another death but I'm so tired of everything and always have been. People always say it gets better but the cons outweigh any highlights. I can at least say I'm happy my sister didn't suffer and I'm glad she is no longer suffering by living. I miss the hell out of her, but you can't be selfish and hold someone here against their will when they are so obviously sad.

I don't know if anyone wonders but yes, I found out about SN through her suicide and I feel guilty in a way about it. I have always wanted to leave since middle school, but never knew a way that wouldn't leave me in a possible vegetable state. SN seems to be pretty good way out and I most likely will find out tonight. I already have everything I need and a hotel room for tonight.

I am scared of family viewing it as she led to it in a way and I don't want that to be the case, but someone would probably try to connect the two regardless of how I go.

Always drink SN with distillated water because water mineral and tap water contains electrolytes which lead to reducing its solubility and adsorption capacity.

 

[Aflame5926]

please do write something for your parents. for them this just sucks losing both of you.

but just leave something behind instead of a freaking mystery.

somebody told me it wont help at all but somehow i still believe in it.

leave SN out of it but for you and you family its just messed up

 

[ZeroRedz02]

please do write something for your parents. for them this just sucks losing both of you.

but just leave something behind instead of a freaking mystery.

somebody told me it wont help at all but somehow i still believe in it.

leave SN out of it but for you and you family its just messed up

Man, i miss my mom alot and it's another reason that would make me CTB but that is just hoping, it's not guaranteed but still nice to know i could do something to see she again, also for my own family i think it would hurt more to leave a writing.

Man, i miss my mom alot and it's another reason that would make me CTB but that is just hoping, it's not guaranteed but still nice to know i could do something to see she again, also for my own family i think it would hurt more to leave a writing.

Would be more probable to CTB after seeing a GTA 6 gameplay or after it get released, but then i should change my description and that wouldn't be right

And it will take certainly alot of years before i will definitely CTB.

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

It's always a good thing to delete web history and this forum from history as it will less the probability to get it closed when you do the thing, but yes me too my mom did die from recently in 2024, another death on the family would weigh a lot.

Always drink SN with distillated water because water mineral and tap water contains electrolytes which lead to reducing its solubility and adsorption capacity.

how much does distilled water matter if I haven't really drank much today regardless and haven't eaten in 16 hours? I was just gonna use tap water at hotel.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

how much does distilled water matter if I haven't really drank much today regardless and haven't eaten in 16 hours? I was just gonna use tap water at hotel.

Significantly..

Mentioned by: Suicide Wiki.

how much does distilled water matter if I haven't really drank much today regardless and haven't eaten in 16 hours? I was just gonna use tap water at hotel.

Fasting for a long time can increase stomach acid which also lead to transform sodium nitrite to regular salt, so it would lessen the lethality for kill yourself more faster.

It's just better that you eat again and wait for atleast 8-10 hours this time to ensure a better peaceful death.

This is written and mentioned on Vizzy's SN Bible megathread too.

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

Significantly..

Fasting for a long time can increase stomach acid which also lead to transform sodium nitrite to regular salt, so it would lessen the lethality for kill yourself more faster.

It's just better that you eat again and wait for atleast 8-10 hours this time to ensure a better peaceful death.

This is written and mentioned on Vizzy's SN Bible megathread too.

That is pretty useful information to have, I have read it quite a few times but glossed over quite a bit as well. Maybe I should be less impatient, but say I don't do any of those things and do use tap water, it would just take longer or make me vomit or more? I'm stressed because I need to do it sooner than later in my current situation. Are you also expected to drink all of it? I see a lot of sips posts causing a lot of symptoms.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

That is pretty useful information to have, I have read it quite a few times but glossed over quite a bit as well. Maybe I should be less impatient, but say I don't do any of those things and do use tap water, it would just take longer or make me vomit or more? I'm stressed because I need to do it sooner than later in my current situation.

I was stressed and impatient myself to CTB too and maybe i will be more, so yeah it could take longer and make you vomit too, but vomiting is obvious and normal because your body need to throw up poison, so commiting suicide without having that annoying i think is impossible, but it can lead to have a most painless possible death.

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

I was stressed and impatient myself to CTB too and maybe i will be more, so yeah it could take longer and make you vomit too, but vomiting is obvious and normal because your body need to throw up poison, so commiting suicide without having that annoying i think is impossible, but it can lead to have a most painless possible death.

I mean I do know my sister didn't have all that or anything to take with it so I'm gonna hope we will be ight. I do however very much so appreciate the insight, it's incredibly useful if I do chicken out here shortly

 

[ZeroRedz02]

I mean I do know my sister didn't have all that or anything to take with it so I'm gonna hope we will be ight. I do however very much so appreciate the insight, it's incredibly useful if I do chicken out here shortly

She was so fucking lucky, but if you both did get your mum/dad genes/DNA it's probably you won't feel nothing like her, I wasn't even aware that not having a sense of vomiting was possible or either she was really resilient to not vomit until the very end.

I mean I do know my sister didn't have all that or anything to take with it so I'm gonna hope we will be ight. I do however very much so appreciate the insight, it's incredibly useful if I do chicken out here shortly

But it's literally better to die by SN than Overdose from drugs that could take several days and it will be hella pain.

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

She was so fucking lucky, but if you both did get your mum/dad genes/DNA it's probably you won't feel nothing like her, I wasn't even aware that not having a sense of vomiting was possible or either she was really resilient to not vomit until the very end.

But it's literally better to die by SN than Overdose from drugs that could take several days and it will be hella pain.

wait I'm sorry, the only evidence was vomit, my bad for miswording. I meant she didn't take any anti nausea or anything like that, that we know of and I absolutely went over that room every inch.

There was a bloodied napkin but could've been from cutting as she did that or from the blood test SN

 

[ZeroRedz02]

wait I'm sorry, the only evidence was vomit, my bad for miswording. I meant she didn't take any anti nausea or anything like that, that we know of and I absolutely went over that room every inch.

There was a bloodied napkin but could've been from cutting as she did that or from the blood test SN

I could literally think that the blood test is more reliable than acquarium test strips itself because the first have to do with chemical authentic stuff and genes/DNA aswell.. so we should do that too xD.

wait I'm sorry, the only evidence was vomit, my bad for miswording. I meant she didn't take any anti nausea or anything like that, that we know of and I absolutely went over that room every inch.

There was a bloodied napkin but could've been from cutting as she did that or from the blood test SN

Anyway that could be why she vomited like hell, she needed to take anti nausea/anti emetic medication.

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

I could literally think that the blood test is more reliable than acquarium test strips itself because the first have to do with chemical authentic stuff and genes/DNA aswell.. so we should do that too xD.

Anyway that could be why she vomited like hell, she needed to take anti nausea/anti emetic medication.

I don't plan to take any either so maybe I'm screwing myself over but it won't matter regardless after, vomit is better than being in intense pain from a gsw or something, or at least it sounds like it.

 

[far from glory]

wait I'm sorry, the only evidence was vomit, my bad for miswording. I meant she didn't take any anti nausea or anything like that, that we know of and I absolutely went over that room every inch.

There was a bloodied napkin but could've been from cutting as she did that or from the blood test SN

Is it easy to get SN in your country?

 

[ZeroRedz02]

I don't plan to take any either so maybe I'm screwing myself over but it won't matter regardless after, vomit is better than being in intense pain from a gsw or something, or at least it sounds like it.

Yes absolutely, Pain was not supposed to exist, yet it is a fundamental signal for the survival of the human body.

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

Is it easy to get SN in your country?

decently easy, my sister wasn't an adult and still got it but usa is easy regardless it seems?

Yes absolutely, Pain was not supposed to exist, yet it is a fundamental signal for the survival of the human body.

It sucks starving right now other than eating a bite but idek at this point. It's either I do it tonight or idk when I would get a chance again without letting family find me and that, I will absolutely not do.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

decently easy, my sister wasn't an adult and still got it but usa is easy regardless it seems?

It sucks starving right now other than eating a bite but idek at this point. It's either I do it tonight or idk when I would get a chance again without letting family find me and that, I will absolutely not do.

Ok, this is clearly something very serious and bad as well as pure indifference. With a kid this is weird otherwise she did a trick, but that is really sad to hear i am so sorry girl.

About you it's surely better on moving to your family or just tell them that you will be away from home for a while, it's better even to not CTB right now because you can do it only one last time, and the variation of the pain depends on your smart move.

Also from how much time you have your SN with you anddd... You did move it in a sealed bag or not? (Btw you opened it or not yet?)

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

Ok, this is clearly something very serious and bad as well as pure indifference. With a kid this is weird otherwise she did a trick, but that is really sad to hear i am so sorry girl.

About you it's surely better on moving to your family or just tell them that you will be away from home for a while, it's better even to not CTB right now because you can do it only one last time, and the variation of the pain depends on your smart move.

Also from how much time you have your SN with you anddd... You did move it in a sealed bag or not? (Btw you opened it or not yet?)

yeah it was heartbreaking but I know she had to be dealing with so much to do it, I'm just sad she's not here.

I got my SN yesterday and it's 98%. I have opened it once to verify with aquarium strips and it was correct. I didn't leave it open long or let anything inside it.

 

[jaysthreecents]

Ok, this is clearly something very serious and bad as well as pure indifference. With a kid this is weird otherwise she did a trick, but that is really sad to hear i am so sorry girl.

About you it's surely better on moving to your family or just tell them that you will be away from home for a while, it's better even to not CTB right now because you can do it only one last time, and the variation of the pain depends on your smart move.

Also from how much time you have your SN with you anddd... You did move it in a sealed bag or not? (Btw you opened it or not yet?)

I'm having a stroke trying to read this lol

 

[ZeroRedz02]

I'm having a stroke trying to read this lol

I know lmao i never learned really English lol

Btw that is weird cause that comment was translated with Google Translate

yeah it was heartbreaking but I know she had to be dealing with so much to do it, I'm just sad she's not here.

I got my SN yesterday and it's 98%. I have opened it once to verify with aquarium strips and it was correct. I didn't leave it open long or let anything inside it.

I would damn envy u but i am sure it wouldn't ship anyway in Europe..

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

I know lmao i never learned really English lol

Btw that is weird cause that comment was translated with Google Translate

I would damn envy u but i am sure it wouldn't ship anyway in Europe..

A lot of people are right, it's hidden in plain sight but finding it isn't easy imo.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

A lot of people are right, it's hidden in plain sight but finding it isn't easy imo.

Check DM

 

[fadedghost]

It will be unfortunate to leave my family with another death but I'm so tired of everything and always have been. People always say it gets better but the cons outweigh any highlights. I can at least say I'm happy my sister didn't suffer and I'm glad she is no longer suffering by living. I miss the hell out of her, but you can't be selfish and hold someone here against their will when they are so obviously sad.

I don't know if anyone wonders but yes, I found out about SN through her suicide and I feel guilty in a way about it. I have always wanted to leave since middle school, but never knew a way that wouldn't leave me in a possible vegetable state. SN seems to be pretty good way out and I most likely will find out tonight. I already have everything I need and a hotel room for tonight.

I am scared of family viewing it as she led to it in a way and I don't want that to be the case, but someone would probably try to connect the two regardless of how I go.

i'm so sorry for your loss

please don't do this

committing suicide when in a sudden state of grief is not something that is clear thinking, please at least give this 6 months, if you still want to do it then, consider it then, but this is too sudden...

i'm so sorry this has happened to you...

 

[CuriosityKilledTheK]

i'm so sorry for your loss

please don't do this

committing suicide when in a sudden state of grief is not something that is clear thinking, please at least give this 6 months, if you still want to do it then, consider it then, but this is too sudden...

i'm so sorry this has happened to you...

well it's not like it's sudden, it's more so I just found a way finally. A lot of other life factors impacted this more so than my sister even though to most, losing a sister would lead to suicidal thoughts. I appreciate your concern though, everyone here seems so kind and genuine.

 

[jaysthreecents]

i'm so sorry for your loss

please don't do this

committing suicide when in a sudden state of grief is not something that is clear thinking, please at least give this 6 months, if you still want to do it then, consider it then, but this is too sudden...

i'm so sorry this has happened to you...

One thing I always keep in mind is that the current situation someone is going through can definitely influence their desire, but that doesn't disregard the fact they probably were suicidal before, but lacked the necessary resources and opted for survival instead of a traumatic suicide attempt. The biggest thing is that suicide attempts are not guaranteed. 1 bird in the hand is worth 2 in the bush. Gambling to cripple yourself is a huge reason why people avoid attempts. If it was easily accessible and acceptable, we would truly see how many people want to die.