I'm just so fucking tired, I don't want to write anything.
I have nothing to say, I'm just a miserable outcast, an autistic freak that was wrong on this planet to begin with.
I have nothing in mind to say, not even the persons that I really love.
it may seem selfish but my girlfriend is sure about killing herself and I really want to kill myself before she does, we planned to do double suicide before but now she feels guilty for taking me with her, I can't live without her it's not possible and I want to kill myself before I have to suffer the loss of my everything, all I want to do is tell her how much I love her, how much our time together meant to me and how I hope we will see eachother again, idk what I'm supposed to tell my mom and my sister, i will tell them I loved them and that I'm thankful they have been there for me, I really want to write more but it's such a hard task for me, it's so complicated and I can't bring Myself to write anything anymore, if I knew what to say that would make it better.
I will leave my mom behind in extreme pain but what am I supposed to do?? I have endured for years, for years I'm so fucking tired I can't take all of that anymore especially knowing I will lose my everything (my girlfriend) in a few months, if not earlier because this time I can't hold her back, I'm sorry mom I just can't keep living, everything about my existence is just wrong here idk what to do anymore
I have nothing to say, I'm just a miserable outcast, an autistic freak that was wrong on this planet to begin with.
I have nothing in mind to say, not even the persons that I really love.
it may seem selfish but my girlfriend is sure about killing herself and I really want to kill myself before she does, we planned to do double suicide before but now she feels guilty for taking me with her, I can't live without her it's not possible and I want to kill myself before I have to suffer the loss of my everything, all I want to do is tell her how much I love her, how much our time together meant to me and how I hope we will see eachother again, idk what I'm supposed to tell my mom and my sister, i will tell them I loved them and that I'm thankful they have been there for me, I really want to write more but it's such a hard task for me, it's so complicated and I can't bring Myself to write anything anymore, if I knew what to say that would make it better.
I will leave my mom behind in extreme pain but what am I supposed to do?? I have endured for years, for years I'm so fucking tired I can't take all of that anymore especially knowing I will lose my everything (my girlfriend) in a few months, if not earlier because this time I can't hold her back, I'm sorry mom I just can't keep living, everything about my existence is just wrong here idk what to do anymore
