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4Das

flying past the stars
Oct 31, 2025
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I'm located in Germany, I also can't get sn or any drugs, I don't have access to firearm, Id be too terrified of trains and I don't have any high buildings near me, I also wouldn't want to hang myself because knowing myself I'm gonna fuck something up because I'm just fucking dumb but I could stop my girlfriend from killing herself for now, I understand that you guys are really pro choice and I am too, I really am but I just can't lose my girlfriend she's my entire life
I will try to keep living if she does end up doing it but I need I desperately NEED some type of back up, a way to go if I can't take it anymore I'm deeply terrified of everything is there any method that I can have as a safe and consistent backup that I can use at any time?? I really have no idea anymore I'm just scared because I'm even too fucking dumb to kill myself but I just can barely deal with this shit, my life rn, if I lose my girlfriend to suicide I really don't think I can take it anymore

I know it's a stupid and repetitive question but I know it sounds like I'm just a dumb asshole but even for long research I'm just too tired and drained, if there's something specific I'm willing to do research don't get me wrong, I know it all doesn't make sense and it's fucked up and lazy to ask you guys to search a good method for me, I'm sorry for that and I'm sorry for all the confused writing idk how to deal with my feelings rn and yeah, if someone has a good idea I'd appreciate it so much, thank you guys
 
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Aug 15, 2025
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Charcoal starter inside a tent is probably your only option then. There's a also jumping, but if you're terrified of trains, it's not likely that you'll be brave enough to jump.
 
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4Das

flying past the stars
Oct 31, 2025
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Charcoal starter inside a tent is probably your only option then. There's a also jumping, but if you're terrified of trains, it's not likely that you'll be brave enough to jump.
jumping would be easier for me, tho I don't have access to high buildings and the bridges aren't high enough either
 
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Carbon monoxide is probably your only feasible choice then. With a lot of alcohol and diphenhydramine.
 
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