For a few weeks it seemed like it was possible. I was a bit ambivalent at first running through options of what life might look like and/or if it might be an "easy" see probably still crappy way to go.
What i was told at the biopsy was it's "probably" not cancer.
In that instance i was actually disappointed. I thought for a long time I would get N "eventually" but oddly this site kind of talked me out of it.
One dealer and i still need to find anti emetics and well now its a crapshoot or maybe not who knows...
I will know for sure in yet another few weeks but still it was odd because in that instance I truly felt like what a "healthy" person might have felt like if they were told they did have cancer. It was an odd moment and even after reflecting on it most of the day I realize I am also mad at myself for how I felt in that moment.
I have known people who wanted to live be taken by cancer and i'm what looking for an easy way out... I would make the trade if i could.
I had no point here just wanted to share at least in part the odd moment i'm having
What i was told at the biopsy was it's "probably" not cancer.
In that instance i was actually disappointed. I thought for a long time I would get N "eventually" but oddly this site kind of talked me out of it.
One dealer and i still need to find anti emetics and well now its a crapshoot or maybe not who knows...
I will know for sure in yet another few weeks but still it was odd because in that instance I truly felt like what a "healthy" person might have felt like if they were told they did have cancer. It was an odd moment and even after reflecting on it most of the day I realize I am also mad at myself for how I felt in that moment.
I have known people who wanted to live be taken by cancer and i'm what looking for an easy way out... I would make the trade if i could.
I had no point here just wanted to share at least in part the odd moment i'm having
