Trying suicide again, I know another goodbye thread

[Time&Regret]

Sorry you're going through such a hard time

 

[Zegers]

People are disgusting, that's just the way it is, maybe 1/100? people might be interesting to meet but fuck the others, i was just thinking the other day how nice I've been for years to people who treated me like shit.

 

[PrettyKitty]

People are disgusting, that's just the way it is, maybe 1/100? people might be interesting to meet but fuck the others, i was just thinking the other day how nice I've been for years to people who treated me like shit.

Agreed, glad to hear somebody gets how cold and cruel people can be

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish you the best. Just don't rush whatever method you decide. You may have to fake it for awhile until you are totally prepared.
I wish you peace and love.

 

[Challu]

You must have a strong SI

 

[Shadowlord900]

o___O That's bizarre, don't think I've ever seen anyone here complaining about attention seeking before. Heck even if we don't always reply back, most people here seem pretty chill about letting others vent about whatever stuff, regardless if it leads to them even attempting to CTB or not.

Anyways I'm very sorry that your previous attempts did not go well and going through 10 failed attempts must have been rough for you.

Please don't take this next part as me discouraging you from trying to CTB, but unless if you're only overdosing on the antidepressants and slitting your wrists as a means of self-harm relief, I can't recommend your next method because it won't work. Also please do not overdose on painkillers, you'll have a nasty time and only do more damage to your organs. It is possible to CTB off of painkillers, but it'll be due to multiple organ failure across multiple weeks and it is incredibly agonizing.

I'm unaware of what other methods you have tried before or what resources you have at your disposal. If you want to share those with me publicly or privately, I'll do my best to help come up with a method for you that is more likely to succeed. Because methods with any actual chance of success needs careful planning out.

 

[PrettyKitty]

o___O That's bizarre, don't think I've ever seen anyone here complaining about attention seeking before. Heck even if we don't always reply back, most people here seem pretty chill about letting others vent about whatever stuff, regardless if it leads to them even attempting to CTB or not.

Anyways I'm very sorry that your previous attempts did not go well and going through 10 failed attempts must have been rough for you.

Please don't take this next part as me discouraging you from trying to CTB, but unless if you're only overdosing on the antidepressants and slitting your wrists as a means of self-harm relief, I can't recommend your next method because it won't work. Also please do not overdose on painkillers, you'll have a nasty time and only do more damage to your organs. It is possible to CTB off of painkillers, but it'll be due to multiple organ failure across multiple weeks and it is incredibly agonizing.

I'm unaware of what other methods you have tried before or what resources you have at your disposal. If you want to share those with me publicly or privately, I'll do my best to help come up with a method for you that is more likely to succeed. Because methods with any actual chance of success needs careful planning out.

Thank you for the advice but I've tried everything but SN and jumping. I'm currently finding a partner for now.

 

[dimstar]

Thank you for the advice but I've tried everything but SN and jumping. I'm currently finding a partner for now.

Just be careful please. Theres alot of support you can find here. After a ctb attempt you might be more vulnerable. Wish you the best what ever you decide.

 

[PrettyKitty]

Just be careful please. Theres alot of support you can find here. After a ctb attempt you might be more vulnerable. Wish you the best what ever you decide.

Thank you! i will be careful no worries.

 

[Shadowlord900]

Thank you for the advice but I've tried everything but SN and jumping. I'm currently finding a partner for now.

Are you trying to find a CTB partner who can help you CTB? Or just a partner in general? I can't recommend the former, that's just asking to being taken advantage of.

How easy are you able to order things online? SN will likely be the easiest method for you, and I can easily get you hooked up with both an SN source as well as an antiemetic source if you're interested.

 

[PrettyKitty]

Are you trying to find a CTB partner who can help you CTB? Or just a partner in general? I can't recommend the former, that's just asking to being taken advantage of.

How easy are you able to order things online? SN will likely be the easiest method for you, and I can easily get you hooked up with both an SN source as well as an antiemetic source if you're interested.

I'm pretty set on having a partner, ofc I would prefer female and around my age and if it does happen do not worry all be very careful I have pepper spray and would meet in a public place of course. I understand your concern though thank you for the advice.

 

[galintra90]

I'm to paniced to write who i am about my life. Ive been told by people on the form im attention seeking im not i never called the police on myself i was forced into a hospital i tried to hang myself not once twice and failed due to police and not choking long enough. I know why am I not dead yet? I wish I knew Ive tried 10 times to commit suicide since I was 11. Just kill me already.
This time Im taking antidepressants painkillers and slitting my wrists.
Are you happy now does my death give you peace knowing im not faking it im really fucking ill.
Somebody notice pleas
Can somebody talk to me or support me well I do it. I don't wanna die alone please. Advice also cool.

I am struggling with BPD and aniexty and a bunch of other shit.
I'm so lostView attachment 107182
picture of me in the er hospital bed from trying to kill myself for people who think im faking I left today and now want to try again wish me luck. would love some people to talk too also prepareing I already toke some pills to calm me down so i can do it.

Good luck

 

[nonialabaster]

I wish you the best. Just don't rush whatever method you decide. You may have to fake it for awhile until you are totally prepared.
I wish you peace and love.

This is so true. Rushing into it almost always leads to failure. You will have to fib a lot to get where you need to be. Preparation is key. The most important part of the preparation is preparing your own mind. I thought I was there three days ago. I was not, even though I have my SN and look at it every day. My mind wasn't ready yet.

I'm sorry, @PrettyKitty, that you're going through this. I also suffer from BPB, anxiety, depression, etc. It truly sucks. One of the hallmarks of BPD is impulsivity, as you know. It hurts us in myriad ways. I am open to PM with you if you are amenable. My heart is with you, sweetheart.

 

[PrettyKitty]

This is so true. Rushing into it almost always leads to failure. You will have to fib a lot to get where you need to be. Preparation is key. The most important part of the preparation is preparing your own mind. I thought I was there three days ago. I was not, even though I have my SN and look at it every day. My mind wasn't ready yet.

I'm sorry, @PrettyKitty, that you're going through this. I also suffer from BPB, anxiety, depression, etc. It truly sucks. One of the hallmarks of BPD is impulsivity, as you know. It hurts us in myriad ways. I am open to PM with you if you are amenable. My heart is with you, sweetheart.

Aww thank you can you pm me? I'd love to talk with somebody who understands

 

[TimetoGo!]

Are the drs trying to section you now?

Sorry you are going through this.

You may have your internet access confiscated soon so id be careful with phone out

 

[PrettyKitty]

Are the drs trying to section you now?

Sorry you are going through this.

You may have your internet access confiscated soon so id be careful with phone out

I'm discharged as of now, I had my phone due to the nurse forgetting to take it and I lied to get out saying i'm fine it was a aaccident I won't do it again etc. The mental health system here is very bad.

 

[TimetoGo!]

I'm discharged as of now, I had my phone due to the nurse forgetting to take it and I lied to get out saying i'm fine it was a aaccident I won't do it again etc. The mental health system here is very bad.

Id get yourself home, think things through and stay calm.

And I wouldn't do wrist slitting as a method.

although im hardly one to talk as I buggered my attempt up last week