Trying suicide again, I know another goodbye thread

[PrettyKitty]

I'm to paniced to write who i am about my life. Ive been told by people on the form im attention seeking im not i never called the police on myself i was forced into a hospital i tried to hang myself not once twice and failed due to police and not choking long enough. I know why am I not dead yet? I wish I knew Ive tried 10 times to commit suicide since I was 11. Just kill me already.
This time Im taking antidepressants painkillers and slitting my wrists.
Are you happy now does my death give you peace knowing im not faking it im really fucking ill.
Somebody notice pleas
Can somebody talk to me or support me well I do it. I don't wanna die alone please. Advice also cool.

I am struggling with BPD and aniexty and a bunch of other shit.
I'm so lost
picture of me in the er hospital bed from trying to kill myself for people who think im faking I left today and now want to try again wish me luck. would love some people to talk too also prepareing I already toke some pills to calm me down so i can do it.

 

[whywere]

Everyone does as they please, and if needed I am here to talk to.

Walter

 

[depressedcooc]

hey i'm here for you

if you're 100% set on doing it, i would do something that would cause you less pain than what you're planning because you don't deserve more pain than you already have

if you want to chat my DMs are open

 

[Pluto]

I just want to say that I feel that comment about you seeking attention was out of line. It's a very harsh accusation, especially when someone is in distress. Most people here are far more empathic than that, and no decent person actually wants to see someone die.

Please consider taking some time and thinking this through. It's not worth dying over a bad post on a forum.

 

[ManchildLoser]

I dont want to be that guy but...you did try to ctb 10 times already...i mean at this point you should really try to make it work so it doesnt fail again, are you sure you want to do it?

 

[PrettyKitty]

I dont want to be that guy but...you did try to ctb 10 times already...i mean at this point you should really try to make it work so it doesnt fail again, are you sure you want to do it?

i dont know how i managed to fail this many times im gonna try i hope it works out this time

 

[thouxan]

i dont know how i managed to fail this many times im gonna try i hope it works out this time

Please don't try to slit your wrists, it is a horrible method with a lot of pain and a very low success rate. If you really want to ctb, do more research on methods. Make sure you don't fail again

 

[qwerty1969]

Please don't try to slit your wrists, it is a horrible method with a lot of pain and a very low success rate. If you really want to ctb, do more research on methods. Make sure you don't fail again

Yes slitting your wrist is pointless I know because I did it.

 

[HerculePoirot]

As I already said before, wrist slitting is only suitable for desperate ladies in old black&white movies. Won't work in other circumstances.

 

[that smell]

Ignore the people who are writing that you're just seeking attention. People are cruel, especially online, and they don't know your situation. I can tell you are desperate for relief from your suffering, which I can completely understand. It's hard to ctb spontaneously, as you know since you've attempted 10 times before. As others are mentioning this method is probably not the best either. I hope you're able to find peace with whatever decision you make.

 

[DarknessAndDespair]

Hello.

I am so sorry you are going through this much suffering. I am still preparing to take the attempt step and I am somewhat scared.
I am here to talk if you would like to. Feel free to send a PM.

 

[FuneralCry]

The slitting wrists method has a less than 2% success rate so I don't really think it's recommended if one wishes to succeed in ctb. But anyway I hate how we exist in this hellish world where those who want to die cannot just die in peace without struggle, I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[PrettyKitty]

I understand all of your concern I'm doing slitting wrists method anymore im going to look into method. I'm giving my acouple day to firgure itout. ipassed out last night due to it the drug im taking

 

[oneeyed]

Good that you're thinking about it more. I failed my attempts as they were rushed and spur of the moment. Whatever you decide, hopefully you find peace.

 

[trist]

even if you were 'attention-seeking', it's not necessarily a bad thing. how are we supposed to get help without getting peoples attention? it might be good for you to clear your mind now that you're in the hospital and ask yourself if you're 100% ready to ctb. it's completely ok if you're not, even if some people here make you feel otherwise. but if you are, i hope you're able to find reliable a peaceful method. i hope you find peace, whichever option you choose.

 

[downndone2]

Please reconsider your method, it has very very very very high failure rate.

 

[dimstar]

Here to talk if you need. I think itd be good to give yourself some time to think before trying to ctb again. But I wont tell you what to do.

 

[Gaga786]

It is such a hellish world, and im sorry that life has brought you to this point. I don't recommend the slitting wrists method, because I did try it, too, years ago. Nothing happened as I just inflicted some gnarly scars on both of my wrists. Please think about it deeply. I hope you find the inner peace that you yearn. Here for you if you need to talk

 

[hellispink]

I know that feeling of desperation and agony that eats us every second. Try to cool your head first with cold freezing shower. Things if done must be done accordingly to avoid any issues. I also have bpd, and I have little time left.

 

[paranoidschizo42578]

If you're absolutely set on cbt via cutting your wrist you'll need to cut extremely deep and multiple times it's unrealistic
I would recommend either using blood thinners before hand (rat poison should work) or slicing your neck or stomach open as you'll lose consciousness very fast if done correct
Always liked the idea of seppuku bit of a mess but it shows a certain dedication

 

[Aleksandra]

being a bpd myself, i can understand the pain you're facing. impulsive ctb attempts unfortunately are mostly bound to fail. :( trust me, ive done my fair share, if it is what you want, you need to plan and follow through with the plan rather than act impulsively. last thing you want is to be sectioned - which if you haven't already been, can be traumatising. but it can also help

 

[PrettyKitty]

being a bpd myself, i can understand the pain you're facing. impulsive ctb attempts unfortunately are mostly bound to fail. :( trust me, ive done my fair share, if it is what you want, you need to plan and follow through with the plan rather than act impulsively. last thing you want is to be sectioned - which if you haven't already been, can be traumatising. but it can also help

Thank you I recently had made a 3 day plan on ctb with hanging. It was super tramatising and failed and was stopped by police sent to mental hoisptal/er for acouple days. I lied alot about what happened to be released early

 

[sana703]

please try to calm down, whatever people say doesn't matter anyways, I wouldn't recommend you slithing your wrists it's very painful and takes time before you actually bleed out, just try to catch some sleep while you're in the hospital

 

[YourAverageLurker]

This situation is unfortunate to hear about, although to agree with the others your method choice is.. not the best.
People who doubt your mental state are only hoping for a ruse out of you, and they don't matter as much as you finding peace.
To agree with the commenter above, relax for a little if you can.

 

[Blahhh]

If you are still here, I am up for a chat. Or group chat is also possible for you can add people in the conversations feature.
All the best for you!

 

[goblinperson]

What's so bad about seeking attention anyway? There is nothing wrong with wanting attention especially when everyone else does and you're living in a world that does not care for you

 

[Dizzylady80]

I'm glad you're not slitting your wrists hon. Sorry people have been shitty to you, if you ever wanna talk my dms are open

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I can understand why that post upset you but I think the person just misunderstood and thought you called the police on yourself, they weren't trying to be mean I'm sure. No one wants you to die.

Slitting your wrists won't work and you'll most likely end up in the hospital again so please don't do that. Didn't they offer you any help or support? Or you managed to convince them you wouldn't attempt again? I'm sorry you're going through this

 

[CompleteControl]

If you're absolutely set on cbt via cutting your wrist you'll need to cut extremely deep and multiple times it's unrealistic
I would recommend either using blood thinners before hand (rat poison should work) or slicing your neck or stomach open as you'll lose consciousness very fast if done correct
Always liked the idea of seppuku bit of a mess but it shows a certain dedication

I made a comment that made me feel pretty idiotic I hope you telling someone to eat rat poison makes you feel the same.

 

[grimoutlook]

Sorry to hear what you're going through my DMs are always open if you wanna talk about it!