has anyone here ruined their life

[crashinout]

just want someone to talk to,

im still young but i ruined my career atleast. i have some savings left. i ruined my reputation with my mental illness. lost almost everyone got into drugs. ive been told to kill myself, had people walk out on me. a lot of hate. no family, some friends. kinda want to end it but i know theres still people who care about me.

i think my grandma, who is 87 is going to outlive me. im 23. i dont have a lot of people left, i am kinda an utter failure. students at my uni around me know im ill and that i really fucked up big time, badly. i used to get abused, both phys and emotional. the emotional is the one that fucked me up big time and i felt very "subhuman" in high school. if i do, do something, i want the people around me to know i really apologize, my mind is just eating itself inwards.

 

[greatfalls]

damn I'm sorry to hear that. I'm kinda in the same boat, yeah. I've probably forever destroyed my most important relationship, I feel psychologically addicted to all the fucked up drugs I've done, and I'm a failure in all metrics of society (NEET + trans but struggling so hard to come out). I'm 50/50 on wanting to die or giving it one final shot. Wby?

 

[wastedenergy]

I hear you. I'm in the same boat under different circumstances. I want to die too but know I have people who care about me. It sucks.

 

[Agon321]

I'm 23 years old and I've already ruined my life. I'm literally going nowhere. I haven't developed at all. Overall, it's a disaster, and every choice seems wrong.

 

[crashinout]

damn I'm sorry to hear that. I'm kinda in the same boat, yeah. I've probably forever destroyed my most important relationship, I feel psychologically addicted to all the fucked up drugs I've done, and I'm a failure in all metrics of society (NEET + trans but struggling so hard to come out). I'm 50/50 on wanting to die or giving it one final shot. Wby?

im kinda a neet right now, im in the same boat. i havent came out as a les either to a lot of people, its just implied (lmao)


theres a lot of people that know what im strugglin with. so open with the ideation, and ive been rejected because of it. but its strangely fine and peaceful

I'm 23 years old and I've already ruined my life. I'm literally going nowhere. I haven't developed at all. Overall, it's a disaster, and every choice seems wrong.

im the same age, dropped out of uni. could barely pass courses so it felt pointless to stay. so i havent done much. i just want things to end here, but im afraid to do it
idk why im strange about things but i feel like building a peaceful "end of life" minecraft world. whatever that means lmao. just a memorial for fun things and shit. i fucked up big time and it gives me "peace"