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crashinout
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- Aug 7, 2026
- 22
something, "soothing"
something that doesnt cause me pain, is not messy. private. i was thinking if i can get MAID pills. i just want something that feels painless.
i think that, over the span of my life ive taken too much. ive kinda wasted it. i told a friend im suicidal and he got me a charger. but i think, its the end. truly i dont think theres anywhere to go back to. im so empty. i hope that, people can forgive me once it happens. im in so much pain. i messed up big time.
i get made fun of for being hooked on drugs, i know, its my cope but its from people who will never understand.
this is unrelated but moreso rambling..
i havent had contact w my family in years, i was their black sheep. i was discarded like nothing. but very likely i know im going to be buried by my brother. im sorry that i coudlnt outlive my grandma. im really sorry. theres a very nice patch of grass that faces the river, i hope, its so beautiful. i messed up so many things. i have so much notoriety because i cant get my health together - ive been called so many names.
im so sorry to anyone who i have left, im just "desperate". im so sorry, i just gave up on life.
something that doesnt cause me pain, is not messy. private. i was thinking if i can get MAID pills. i just want something that feels painless.
i think that, over the span of my life ive taken too much. ive kinda wasted it. i told a friend im suicidal and he got me a charger. but i think, its the end. truly i dont think theres anywhere to go back to. im so empty. i hope that, people can forgive me once it happens. im in so much pain. i messed up big time.
i get made fun of for being hooked on drugs, i know, its my cope but its from people who will never understand.
this is unrelated but moreso rambling..
i havent had contact w my family in years, i was their black sheep. i was discarded like nothing. but very likely i know im going to be buried by my brother. im sorry that i coudlnt outlive my grandma. im really sorry. theres a very nice patch of grass that faces the river, i hope, its so beautiful. i messed up so many things. i have so much notoriety because i cant get my health together - ive been called so many names.
im so sorry to anyone who i have left, im just "desperate". im so sorry, i just gave up on life.
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