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BipolarExpress

BipolarExpress

he/him · tired/exhausted
Nov 11, 2022
266
I keep going back and forth about wanting to CTB. On the one hand, as @fearofthedark said, I don't want to become yet another statistic who killed themself because of anti-trans oppression in the US and abroad, but on the other hand, I don't want to live through this either.
 
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25jiyuki

25jiyuki

Lost
Feb 25, 2025
36
The only time I've felt happy, comfortable and proud of myself is when I put the effort to present feminine.

But after this depressive episode I'm in started, I haven't bothered to do that at all. Only once this year.. it doesn't help when I'm contemplating suicide and look at the mirror, just to see a stranger.

I love fashion, I'm very passionate about dressing cute, but it feels like there's no point when I'm probably headed for death..
 
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