Transgender Support Megathread

[BipolarExpress]

I keep going back and forth about wanting to CTB. On the one hand, as @fearofthedark said, I don't want to become yet another statistic who killed themself because of anti-trans oppression in the US and abroad, but on the other hand, I don't want to live through this either.

 

[25jiyuki]

The only time I've felt happy, comfortable and proud of myself is when I put the effort to present feminine.

But after this depressive episode I'm in started, I haven't bothered to do that at all. Only once this year.. it doesn't help when I'm contemplating suicide and look at the mirror, just to see a stranger.

I love fashion, I'm very passionate about dressing cute, but it feels like there's no point when I'm probably headed for death..

 

[iamjustapebble]

i had top surgery and it messed up my chest. it looks bad, it hurts, i get dysesthesia. not only that but everybody hates me, every single person ive befriended grw to hate me.

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

The biggest pain I have is dreams. Often I'll dream of being cis. It hurts so much. Once I dreamt I was pregnant and gave birth. Waking up traumatized me. My mom wasn't calling me her daughter anymore. My daughter never existed. I can't ever give birth. On Wednessday I dreamt about my grandmother, one of the few accepting ppl that was still in my life. She was cudling my dog. I wanted to go visit her after but couldn't. She passed away about a month ago. Last night I dreamt about her again. She was in bed and she said I could come visit her whenever I wanted. I'm not religious but damn do I wish heaven was real. She would be so deserving of it. I wanna ctb so bad. I think I will next Friday. Tbh I didn't even notice it was new year. Just been lying in bed phasing in and out of sleep or distracting myself with EU3 or yt. I dystroyed all my friendships and my family for the most part is transphobic. I'm just tired. I dont think I even care to transition. To me personally it would just feel fake. I dont make the hormones so i have to take them to immitate the effects of a womens body. I had to have x surgery to look like a womens body etc. (Please dont misunderstand this as me dissing anyone who takes or provides these procedures, Im very happy if someone feels better as a consequence of these things and im glad they exist. Im just describing what my thoughts are on my body and experience). im also tired of the talking point: "you have it lucky bc you dont get period pains" thing cis women say. If they really didn't want their uterus they could remove it. I could never get one. They got the choice. I never did. I have to do a thousand surgeries to look like a woman. They just are one. Im just tired. Thanks for letting me vent/rant.
This has been my ted talk

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

If they really didn't want their uterus they could remove it.

Slight nitpick from a trans man. It is extremely hard to get a hysterectomy in most places. For cis women and non-woman AFABs alike.

But I totally understand how someone saying "well at least you don't have periods" would be invalidating as fuck. You're already suffering enough as a trans woman, do they really think periods would put you off of being a woman? If anything, you'd probably at least have the gender euphoria to accompany the cramps, and that would be a silver lining.

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

Slight nitpick from a trans man. It is extremely hard to get a hysterectomy in most places. For cis women and non-woman AFABs alike.

But I totally understand how someone saying "well at least you don't have periods" would be invalidating as fuck. You're already suffering enough as a trans woman, do they really think periods would put you off of being a woman? If anything, you'd probably at least have the gender euphoria to accompany the cramps, and that would be a silver lining.

Sorry for my oversimplification, I didn't mean to imply trans men or AFAB enbies have it any easier. Thank you for the kind words <3 The worst part was they were trying to be supportive. They were more trying to say well at least you're not cis. That just angered me a lil.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

Sorry for my oversimplification, I didn't mean to imply trans men or AFAB enbies have it any easier. Thank you for the kind words <3 The worst part was they were trying to be supportive. They were more trying to say well at least you're not cis. That just angered me a lil.

I get it. I think some cis people are truly blind to the suffering trans people go through. They think "oh, this trans woman presents as a woman but doesn't have a period, best of both worlds!"

Ironically it's a result of the rampant medical neglect AFABs get for severe period pains and bleeding. I honestly think that reality has jaded many cis women and caused them to think that having no period must be a net positive—so they ignore all of the other stuff that comes along with being transfem.

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

I get it. I think some cis people are truly blind to the suffering trans people go through. They think "oh, this trans woman presents as a woman but doesn't have a period, best of both worlds!"

Ironically it's a result of the rampant medical neglect AFABs get for severe period pains and bleeding. I honestly think that reality has jaded many cis women and caused them to think that having no period must be a net positive—so they ignore all of the other stuff that comes along with being transfem.

Yeah that makes sence. It does still suck tho

 

[Reishi]

My family will never accept Mr for who I am , the system is overly complicated where I live to be able to legally change my name or anything like that. The trans community in my area has mainly pushed me away because of my mental illnesses.... I feel so isolated ... and I hate it