etherealdeath
New Member
- Dec 16, 2025
- 1
To summarize: i'm transgender and bc of how quickly the US is going downhill when it comes to support and recognition of transgender people (+ personal circumstances that I don't wanna get into), I think it's best that I CTB and see myself out
I'm thinking of either doing full suspension or partial suspension. Right now I'm focused on full suspension; I have a tree in my front yard with a branch that is tall enough to where I need a step-ladder to reach it. It should also be thick enough because I've hanged from it using my arms and I still have about 1-2 feet of space under me.
I want to wait until about 3 in the morning so nobody will see me, and then I can hopefully hang myself successfully. I don't really care about the aftermath when it comes to my parents and other strangers seeing me when morning comes. I'm trans and live in a rural area with barely any support, so quite frankly it's their fault and I could care less about how it affects them.
When it comes to logistics, I'm concerned about a few things. I have sturdy rope, and know how to tie a slipknot for my neck but I'm a little confused on how I should tie the rope around the tree. I'm also concerned about survival instincts, as I'm scared that I may somehow grab the branch with my arms once I'm suspended in the air and stop the strangulation from working. (Maybe I could tie my hands together and somehow do it? idk..)
If anyone has experience with this sort of thing then I would really appreciate your feedback and advice. I don't know whether full suspension or partial is better, but to me full suspension seems more reliable and 'un-doable' once the stepladder is unreachable. If anyone thinks partial hanging is better though, feel free to give me some advice on that and comment your overall opinions.
I'm really done with this society and world. I believe humanity should simply go extinct, and it probably will in the next 30 years due to our nature. We're destructive, violent, and morality in and of itself barely even exists fleeting in and out of people at random. We're destroying the entire world for the sole purpose of our tiny iota of progress that amounts to nothing in this grand universe.
I'm thinking of either doing full suspension or partial suspension. Right now I'm focused on full suspension; I have a tree in my front yard with a branch that is tall enough to where I need a step-ladder to reach it. It should also be thick enough because I've hanged from it using my arms and I still have about 1-2 feet of space under me.
I want to wait until about 3 in the morning so nobody will see me, and then I can hopefully hang myself successfully. I don't really care about the aftermath when it comes to my parents and other strangers seeing me when morning comes. I'm trans and live in a rural area with barely any support, so quite frankly it's their fault and I could care less about how it affects them.
When it comes to logistics, I'm concerned about a few things. I have sturdy rope, and know how to tie a slipknot for my neck but I'm a little confused on how I should tie the rope around the tree. I'm also concerned about survival instincts, as I'm scared that I may somehow grab the branch with my arms once I'm suspended in the air and stop the strangulation from working. (Maybe I could tie my hands together and somehow do it? idk..)
If anyone has experience with this sort of thing then I would really appreciate your feedback and advice. I don't know whether full suspension or partial is better, but to me full suspension seems more reliable and 'un-doable' once the stepladder is unreachable. If anyone thinks partial hanging is better though, feel free to give me some advice on that and comment your overall opinions.
I'm really done with this society and world. I believe humanity should simply go extinct, and it probably will in the next 30 years due to our nature. We're destructive, violent, and morality in and of itself barely even exists fleeting in and out of people at random. We're destroying the entire world for the sole purpose of our tiny iota of progress that amounts to nothing in this grand universe.
