cakefluff
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- Oct 12, 2018
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hi. my name is alice. i'm a 22 year old from canada. i've had a failed suicide attempt.
i'm so tired of everything. i have bipolar I with psychotic features, depression, anxiety, and bulimia. i had to drop out of school because my mental health got so shitty and my teacher was sexually abusing me. i lost my job because i cut myself up with a boxcutter in the bathroom during a shift. i've had public meltdowns and breaks, and i feel like too much of a freak to leave my house anymore. i've lived in my room the past four years, at home with my parents who i leech off of. i don't have friends. my parents refuse to believe i actually want to die and blame it on psychosis. they also refuse to believe i'm a lesbian, not that it matters because i've never met anyone who wanted to be involved with me. my psychiatrist said i was cutting because i wanted attention
every day is hell. my head is so loud and i'm so bored of living and everything around me is a reminder of how bad i've fucked everything up. i'll never be able to function like everyone else. even physically, i've ruined my body through self harm and purging. nothing ever gets better and there's nothing here for me. that's why i want to be at peace.
i'm so tired of everything. i have bipolar I with psychotic features, depression, anxiety, and bulimia. i had to drop out of school because my mental health got so shitty and my teacher was sexually abusing me. i lost my job because i cut myself up with a boxcutter in the bathroom during a shift. i've had public meltdowns and breaks, and i feel like too much of a freak to leave my house anymore. i've lived in my room the past four years, at home with my parents who i leech off of. i don't have friends. my parents refuse to believe i actually want to die and blame it on psychosis. they also refuse to believe i'm a lesbian, not that it matters because i've never met anyone who wanted to be involved with me. my psychiatrist said i was cutting because i wanted attention
every day is hell. my head is so loud and i'm so bored of living and everything around me is a reminder of how bad i've fucked everything up. i'll never be able to function like everyone else. even physically, i've ruined my body through self harm and purging. nothing ever gets better and there's nothing here for me. that's why i want to be at peace.
