To kill myself or to fight for justice?

[StateOfMind]

Victim of disruption the program here. Even if you don't believe me lets assume its true. Blacklisting, gaslighting, mind-games, harassment, isolation which amounts to psychological torture. Based on the points I have provided do you see any realistic way out of suffering?

I posted this on one of the few subreddits I browse and it even got removed from there..

Having done lots of research on this subject I feel the outlook - especially for low-profile victims is pretty bleak (the most high profile victim of our time seems to be Julian Assange).
Usually I'm not as pessimistic, especially before this bullshit started happening to me, at least four years ago.
But:

• The crazy amount of disinformation out there spread by mainstream media and many other outlets makes it almost impossible to get an accurate more objective perspective on this phenomenon for people not familiar with the true extent of disruption programs.
  
  
• Why haven't whistle-blowers such as Assange (wikileaks) and Snowden leaked anything regarding modern day disruption programs?
  
  
• There are too many useful idiots (informal operatives) that have no problem participating in destroying the lives of innocent civilians.
  
  
• The wall of secrecy around this topic is too strong. I'm surprised how informal operatives including Dr's, family and friends can keep a straight face when telling me I'm "mentally ill" when I know that they know the truth.
  
  
• They have caused irreversible psychological damage over last four years of terror. Even if the program stops I will never be able to trust anyone fully ever again and that's not even including ptsd and depression.
  
  
• I can not take this case to court due to lack of evidence. Everything seems to be plausibly deniable and extremely difficult to prove.
  
  
• Victims seem to be too few and kept apart, so an "uprising" or some form of a resistance appears to be impossible.
  
  
• The best possible outcome (how I see it) is that once targets have been emotionally destroyed over years and they can prove it, we (they) may receive a $1000 in compensation, if at all, and live off a shitty pension while still suffering from the repercussions of the disruption program.
  
  
• [Edit] They used Zersetzung methods on my East-German father. The result isn't pretty. He lives a lonely, miserable existence with constant depression. He was never compensated for being a victim of previous Stasi-terror and lives off a shitty €650 pension with no friends nothing. I'm surprised he hasn't killed himself by now.. poor soul.

Realistically its not looking good and the situation seems to be hopeless. Unless you feel comfortable living a crappy socially isolated existence.

 

[Swabbie]

Was genau wird bei diesen Methoden gemacht? Ich bin in einer ähnlichen Situation wie du bei mir ist es aber Medikamentenschaden den niemand anerkennen will.
Und nein Gerechtigkeit kannst du vergessen bei mir ist es die Pharmaindustrieuund bei dem Thema wird es auch genügend Leute geben die nicht wollen das das an die Öffentlichkeit kommt.

 

[StateOfMind]

What exactly is done with these methods? I'm in a similar situation as you are with me, but it's drug damage that nobody wants to acknowledge.
And no, you can forget about justice, with me it is the pharmaceutical industry and with this topic there will be enough people who do not want it to be made public.

This explains it pretty well. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zersetzung#Against_individuals

"Beginning with intelligence obtained by espionage, the Stasi established "sociograms" and "psychograms" which it applied for the psychological forms of Zersetzung. They exploited personal traits, such as homosexuality, as well as supposed character weaknesses of the targeted individual — for example a professional failure, negligence of parental duties, pornographic interests, divorce, alcoholism, dependence on medications, criminal tendencies, passion for a collection or a game, or contacts with circles of the extreme right — or even the veil of shame from the rumors poured out upon one's circle of acquaintances.[35][36] From the point of view of the Stasi, the measures were the most fruitful when they were applied in connection with a personality; all "schematism" had to be avoided.[35]

Moreover, methods of Zersetzung included espionage, overt, hidden, and feigned; opening letters and listening to telephone calls; encroachments on private property; manipulation of vehicles; and even poisoning food and using false medications.[37] Certain collaborators of the Stasi tacitly took into account the suicide of victims of Zersetzung."

 

[enuff]

you have to pick your battles, mister. if battling the world gives you purpose and keeps you going, fight to the death. you have to kill them all. i doubt you'll win.
me, i'm battling SI. that's a battle i think i can win.

 

[StateOfMind]

you have to pick your battles, mister. if battling the world gives you purpose and keeps you going, fight to the death. you have to kill them all. i doubt you'll win.
me, i'm battling SI. that's a battle i think i can win.

I agree with everything apart from the killing bit. I have no desire to drop my standards to their level.

 

[enuff]

I agree with everything apart from the killing bit. I have no desire to drop my standards to their level.

then the bear - the bear will eat you.