Time grows near to be free

[lifeisbutadream]

I almost forgot to show the mercury votives I have. Four different colors, oh so pretty to sit around the room. Sixty of those and 150 votives total to give ambiance to the space.

The other picture is of another altar I have, this one is to the Celtic Goddess Danu.

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I wish i could have visited your wondrous house.

 

[SiArc]

So very beautiful. Godspeed! You will awaken in beauty beyond the ability of earthly words to describe!

Thank you oh so much! I hope that does come true. May peace be with you on your travels.

 

[JustAboutDone]

@SiArc , I know this will sound odd but I feel part of your beloved Magnus's purpose is to see you safely across the divide. He will be fine and he will join you when his time is ready. Sending you my love

Edit: I know that sounds strange and I can't explain, it's something about the vibes I get in one of the photos you posted :-) Good vibes, he is your protector, right to the end.

 

[Lonely_soul_lisburn]

Beautiful - very personable, creative and spiritual. Thank you for sharing. I hope you have a peaceful journey. Sending lots of love x

 

[Xerxes]

Beautiful set-up you have. I hope it brings you peace before you sleep. I know your day is coming soon, I haven't known you long at all, but I feel a bit of melancholy when people get to CTB before I do. Take care SiArc.

 

[Hopeless_soul]

I like the fact that you seem at peace with your decision. Hope you find all the tranquillity you deserve.

 

[TheCrow]

I believe there comes a time - and that's when we know it's the right time - when the divide between here and there becomes so translucent it's easy to slip through xx

Well said.

 

[Thewhowithin69]

I have agonized over this and how to wrap it around him so he suffers the least but my health, what is going on both physically and psychologically will not allow it. Not to mention financially. He is always my first thought and the decider in what I do, where I go, what things I do or don't take on. He gets better food than I do and he has more toys and treats than I have clothes. I cannot express exactly how much I absolutely love him. He is my heart and soul. He is so gentle and loving but I cannot go another week, let alone years living.

This hasn't been a rash decision, it has been thought of for years, pushed off for years for just one more day. For him I have been relentless, to see maybe it will get better. But my body just keeps getting worse. My spine is deteriorating, my brain condition is coming back. I will have no quality of life. 10 years ago I had "never give in, never give up" tattooed on my full forearm to remind myself that I have to keep going. I have had to look at it every day. Every day the darkness threatened to consume me I have cuddled with him and looked at that tattoo. I know this is the right decision and I know now is the time. I feel it deep in my core.

You have not offended me in the least, nor do I feel judged. I love that you care enough to ask after the pup-a-lup. I will give him a huge hug from you. By the way you write in English just fine. :)

Aww I relate to all this!! I'm so sorry for your pain and for having the burden of making such an intense decision....I love your tattoo and have some similar to encourage me to fight! I can tell you have really thought it all through and I just want you to know I'm glad you are able to be peaceful about the timing. I'm sure your baby will miss you how could he not?? But I think he ran back and was so crazy when you were hospitalized cuz he knew you were still alive and needed him!! At least that's what I think....
I am a do sitter and my favorite old guy was euthenized this past Monday. It was a good death but still so hard.
That's what I wish for you...a good death. You fought hard I can tell and it's ok to be done. I'm inspired by you and how your approaching this and it DOES help cuz I'm following your steps soon!
Warm hugs for you (if your ok with them!)

 

[SiArc]

Aww I relate to all this!! I'm so sorry for your pain and for having the burden of making such an intense decision....I love your tattoo and have some similar to encourage me to fight! I can tell you have really thought it all through and I just want you to know I'm glad you are able to be peaceful about the timing. I'm sure your baby will miss you how could he not?? But I think he ran back and was so crazy when you were hospitalized cuz he knew you were still alive and needed him!! At least that's what I think....
I am a do sitter and my favorite old guy was euthenized this past Monday. It was a good death but still so hard.
That's what I wish for you...a good death. You fought hard I can tell and it's ok to be done. I'm inspired by you and how your approaching this and it DOES help cuz I'm following your steps soon!
Warm hugs for you (if your ok with them!)

He never wants to be be where I am not. The greatest companion one could ever ask for.
Oh I am so so sorry you lost your favorite pup, I am glad it was a good death.
Hopefully me being an inspiration to you is a good thing. May your path be free of ill intent and full of ease. I wish the best for you wherever you may go.

 

[SiArc]

I like the fact that you seem at peace with your decision. Hope you find all the tranquillity you deserve.

I am at peace with it, that is true. It is not a rash or quick decision. It is thought of on multiple levels and I know it is the right thing.
Thank you so much for that hope of tranquility may you find it as well.

 

[SiArc]

Beautiful set-up you have. I hope it brings you peace before you sleep. I know your day is coming soon, I haven't known you long at all, but I feel a bit of melancholy when people get to CTB before I do. Take care SiArc.

Thank you very much Xerxes. It is a kind of sad when someone departs and I hope there is joy there too. You take care as well.

 

[SiArc]

Beautiful - very personable, creative and spiritual. Thank you for sharing. I hope you have a peaceful journey. Sending lots of love x

Thank you, I feel that love. I hope you have peaceful travels as well wherever they may go. :)

 

[SiArc]

@SiArc , I know this will sound odd but I feel part of your beloved Magnus's purpose is to see you safely across the divide. He will be fine and he will join you when his time is ready. Sending you my love

Edit: I know that sounds strange and I can't explain, it's something about the vibes I get in one of the photos you posted :-) Good vibes, he is your protector, right to the end.

It does not sound strange at all to me. I believe he and I have been together for a very long time beyond this life so what you said it right up my alley as it were. I feel that love and thank you for it. <3 as well.

 

[JustAboutDone]

It does not sound strange at all to me. I believe he and I have been together for a very long time beyond this life so what you said it right up my alley as it were. I feel that love and thank you for it. <3 as well.

I'm so glad you understand :-)
You and he are kindred spirits and will not be separated by something this trivial. He has some work to do providing solace but will join you when he has finished.

 

[SiArc]

Hello,
I just wanted to let those who may post after this that I have left the site but I appreciate the well wishes, luck, and love. Truely. I have a person who will watch for a story or obituary in my area but I won't fail. No one will check on me for days and my failsafes will do me in if my main plan does not. I do not have family who can post my obituary so maybe the city will or something or my bestie. If my plan works there might even be a news story or something. ha, deadly famous.

The below picture is how I spent my evening tonight cuddled up on my back porch watching the rain that was supposed to be snow. Tomorrow will be filled with distracting my best friend for her surprise birthday party. Her daughter who lives in Cali is flying in, they haven't seen each other in a year and my bestie is adamant we can't surprise her. She thinks we are going to Tulsa, no no no. Surprise!!!

Sunday will be final preperations, reflection, and ritual. I will finish the book I am reading and prepare myself. I am at peace with my decision. When the eclipse happens in my time zone I shall take my final act and pass from this realm. I will leave no notes, they cannot encompass enough of what I wish to say to the very few people I care for. I had quality over quantity.



Safe travels to all who read this. May you find the path you wish to travel and it be a good journey.

Si

 

[Smashingairwaves]

That looks amazing. Good luck, I hope you find the peace we are all looking for.

 

[ctrl_alt_delete]

Friðr (Peace) @SiArc Friggasdottir (Daughter to Frigga)

 

[TheCrow]

Last night was the eclipse, and I hope that you had a peaceful transition from your magical forest to the other side. Love and light, @SiArc. We will miss you.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Thank you @Kdawg2018 for the potential update. Sending her loving thoughts and peace.

X

 

[Deleted member 4993]

Peace always and may the universe bless her.

 

[Redt2go]

Okay guyz, so, we think that SiArc passed last night, it is not confirmed with her name yet, here is the link but I want to again say that it is not confirmed, so please just be sending her peaceful R.I.P. thoughts while we wait for more info. She was in my thoughts when I saw the blood moon last night.


https://www.ky3.com/content/news/Deadly-house-fire-in-Springfield-504654231.html

Was that the name? Also I'm really hoping the dog didn't die in the house fire ? :(

 

[WayOut]

Something may have gone wrong. She was found outside her house. Plan A didn't work, or she changed her mind and tried to get out when the fire started. I hope her dog was rehomed.

 

[TheCrow]

Okay guys, the article has been updated, her name confirmed, R.I.P. SiArc, your plan did not go the way you wanted, but you got your peace in the end.

Do you have any idea why it might have gone that way? I can't remember her method. Candles? It doesn't really matter as she had already passed in her magical forest (as long as her dog got out), but it does leave a lingering picture in the mind...

Edit: Nevermind, found the thread. Wow. Glad she pulled off her plan. RIP.

 

[Deleted member 4993]

It was a shock to me when her location was first posted.
I said goodbye to a dear friend from there in March 2015 I wonder if they new each other.
Bless them both

 

[Deleted member 4993]

The love for her dog was evident in her posts bless her, her dogs safety and future would have been a priority I have no doubt about that.

 

[WayOut]

The love for her dog was evident in her posts bless her, her dogs safety and future would have been a priority I have no doubt about that.

I think she took her dog with her. If you read her posts about her dog, the evidence for this is strong.

SA is not a good death at all. PN agreed with a press statement put out by a medically qualified person in The Netherlands that it was "a horrible death". Later, PN suggested that it was quick, but with no evidence for that. I suggest the evidence at her house suggests it wasn't quick at all.

That circular thing in the yard that was burned. It was the chair she used. See the last pic she posted. Nothing outside was burned, except the chair and its base.

Nothing about this incredibly sad event was good or peaceful, looking at the evidence. Peacefulness was the highest priority for SiArc, and she went to great effort to create the gentle, beautiful meditative space where she would have a smooth passage to the "next realm", as she believed. She timed it with the eclipse.

There was nothing ok about all this. It was not what she wanted. Personally, I find it distressing. Yes, she's gone now, and she wanted that, but she wanted it to be the opposite of what seems obvious ended up happening. You get one death only. SiArc's death was not the gentle transition that was so very important to her. It looks like it was the death of her worst nightmare.

 

[Chinaski]

This is absolutely horrible.

 

[JustAboutDone]

We really don't know. Yes, the first person on the scene says he broke a window to get her out but for all we know she could have been waving him back and telling him to leave her alone. You just never know when you hear one side of a story and she will never be able to tell us hers. If she did take Magnus with her, who are we to judge? she knew exactly what she was doing, she explained he would never settle with anyone else and German Shepherds are notoriously one owner dogs.
She went on the day and time she wanted and she is at peace now. Love and blessings to her wherever she may be, always 20/01/2019

 

[WayOut]

Yes, the first person on the scene says he broke a window to get her out but for all we know she could have been waving him back and telling him to leave her alone.

From a burning house?

Yes, I don't like her death, but I support her choice

I don't think burning in a house was her choice.

 

[JustAboutDone]

She said in one of her previous threads it was her "failsafe" to set fire to her house. I am not going to second guess anything, I just wish her peace and love x