Time for me to go, goodbye SS

[errorsinmypast]

I feel ever so emotional reading this. Rest in peace lovely stranger, rest in peace

 

[hopeless08]

Dear SS community,

Unfortunately it's time for my bus. I've completed all my preparations and I'm finally ready to ctb today.

It's been a pleasant stay for me here. I've enjoyed reading and partaking in the discussions. Thank you for being a good community and place where discussing suicide isn't taboo.

For those curious as to why: It's a complicated bag of existential and personal problems. My desire to live has been non-existent for way too long. And I refuse to live for the sake of others. Furthermore I've already been through the mental healthcare system and take medications. But even that can only do so much by itself.

My method of choice is SN and I'll probably just take some ibuprofen beforehand. I'll tolerate whatever discomfort comes though I'm hoping it will knock me out before that. I've chosen to do this at a nearby forest to avoid leaving a mess for the public eye.

Anyways, good bye

I hope you find the peace you're searching for and if you back out,
We're all still here for you.

I was under the impression that once you make a good bye thread your account gets locked as soon as a mod sees it. For any mods that are reading I request you leave my account open until tommorow morning, thanks.


Anyway 2nd update for you guys:

Put up a sign for the hotel staff on the bathroom door, I hope they're not scarred for life by this:View attachment 48209

Removed the stickers off the SN so it can't be identified and the distributor doesn't get in trouble:
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It's very considerate of you to be thinking of the hotel staff and giving them a warning and you're also trying to protect the distributors. It shows you're a kind person and I wish you the best

 

[Onelegman]

I'm glad you achieved your goal. Now he is at peace.

 

[thedevilwithin]

heartbreaking to read honestly. i hope you've found the peace you were looking for my friend. sleep well

 

[miyabi]

• Jellyfish42:
  If someone could please post my next few updates in my good bye thread, I'm about to drink the SN, I'm not sure how long I will have conciousness
• Jellyfish42: Sipping, it's really salty
• Jellyfish42(2 minutes after beginning ingestion): Nothing so far just salty, a slight burn on the back of the throat but not painful at all. Can feel heart starting to pound a little bit
• Jellyfish42(5 minutes after): Heart pounding faster, no pain or discomfort so far
• Jellyfish42(7 minutes after): Finished first glass of SN, nothing but a really salty after taste and heart beating faster
• Jellyfish42(8 minutes after): Yup I want to go for the second glass but damn it's so salty it's off putting. I'm getting slight urge to vomit also
• Jellyfish42(11 minutes): Chewing a little bit of gum to help with the digestion, no pain or discomfort so far. Body feels weak though and heart still pounding. Stomach feels a little weird.
• Jellyfish42(14 minutes): Vomited no pain or discomfort heart is beating
• Jellyfish42(17 minutes): Attempting 2nd glass. Slight twitches in my legs, legs starting to sleep, not painful
• Jellyfish42(21 minutes): 2nd glass downed, feeling weaker, heart pounding, no pain or discomfort really just a bad after taste
• Jellyfish42(25 minutes): Mind feels weird l, can't deeal think I think it my timr not painful or doesn't

The last message breaks my heart. I've never been able to forget it after seeing it years ago. I can only hope it was as painless as getting blackout drunk.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Years ago?

 

[miyabi]

Years ago?

It's one of the first logs I read when I was researching SN before making an account. I bought my SN a couple years ago thanks to SS before media attention caused increased restrictions. I just don't bother making an account on a lot of sites I lurk on.

 

[safeoption]

Have a peaceful journey.