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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
846
damn

hope she will have a safe journey
 
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N-methylamphetamine

N-methylamphetamine

Specialist
Jul 6, 2022
334
this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last post here. goodbye.
hope your at peace now.
 
ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Experienced
May 5, 2026
244
Safe and beautiful travels in the Great Beyond! 🕊️
 
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limenlux

limenlux

Impermanent
Jul 12, 2026
271
Rest in peace.
 
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anonymoususer278387

Member
Jul 7, 2026
28
peace be with you
 
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DignifiedGrave

DignifiedGrave

GrinderofSouls
Jul 5, 2026
137
Memory- I dont know we talked much but I remember you and ive seen you around the forum a lot. Though we haven't connected personally I feel that we would connect well if we so tried. I believe there is proximity. I wish you well Memory I hope you find peace and have a peaceful ctb!
 
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CrawlingInMySkin

CrawlingInMySkin

Blood is Red, and Sweet as Cherry Wine
Jun 14, 2026
250
Happy for you, mate :) I hope wherever you're going is better than here.♥️
 
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DignifiedGrave

DignifiedGrave

GrinderofSouls
Jul 5, 2026
137
As of now she has passed.. She didn't vomit or feel too much discomfort beyond some sickness and tachycardia and she passed while chatting with me, from what I know it was peaceful relief 💜
Thank you for this update. I happy to know she passed likely peacefully. I feel a sort of grief for a person I could have also befriended. I hope she rests well😞
 
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sacrilegeofsouls

sacrilegeofsouls

Come undone
Jun 14, 2026
76
this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last post here. goodbye.
I know it's a suicide forum but it's still shocking to see someone go. I hope you find what you're looking for on the other side. I'll pray for ya
 
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goodbad&ugly777

goodbad&ugly777

never enough
Jul 10, 2026
25
Hope you found peace. Hopefully I do too someday.
 
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pk@2001

pk@2001

Student
Apr 27, 2026
110
Peace and love to you friend 🕊️.
Will meet you on the other side
 
roxaine

roxaine

I am Quinny
Jul 26, 2026
4
rest easy, i remember seeing your name during my birthday around a month-ish back and i always felt empathetic towards your situation.
 
lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Слёзы на щеках
Jun 11, 2026
597
I know it's a suicide forum but it's still shocking to see someone go. I hope you find what you're looking for on the other side. I'll pray for ya
It really is, even though it's expected ofc, but still shocking nonetheless
 
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MementoMori333

MementoMori333

You're gonna go far, kid
Aug 18, 2025
16
Rest in peace, I hope you're feeling better now if the afterlife exists
 
Mourning_Dove

Mourning_Dove

Member
Nov 23, 2025
21
Rest well, be at peace 🌹
 
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FrostNova

FrostNova

Winter's Scar
Apr 2, 2026
7
I have read your posts over the last few weeks and you have inspired me to start writing here. I'm sorry for any misconceptions I may have had. I just want nothing but the best.
 
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greatfalls

greatfalls

Member
Aug 1, 2026
18
rest easy. I saw a lot of your posts here (was a longtime lurker) and it's surreal that you're no longer here. I hope it was gentle
 
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AgathaChristieLover

AgathaChristieLover

Student
Jul 16, 2026
125
I've seen a lot of your posts, are you good?
 
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bloodmoonhypothesis

Member
Jun 1, 2026
15
Rest in Peace, May you find solace in whatever that lied beyond.
 
bloodonmyhands4ever

bloodonmyhands4ever

Will you draw hearts in my yearbook memorial?
Aug 6, 2026
21
Rest in peace. Hopefully it was fully painless.
 
letsnotmakeittoo22

letsnotmakeittoo22

I Have No Long Term Plans For This Body
Nov 24, 2024
55
I hope you're at ease and at rest. Rest in peace.
 
lostinthecha0s

lostinthecha0s

Borrowed time.
Jul 29, 2026
24
I didn't speak to her personally but her story resonated with me so much. I hope she found peace in the end and is now weight less. Thank you for your story to the world. Rest peacefully now.
 
imnotcreative

imnotcreative

Member
Nov 13, 2025
54
I read many of her threads, I hope she's found peace
 

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