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N-methylamphetamine

N-methylamphetamine

Experienced
Jul 6, 2022
299
this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last post here. goodbye.
hope your at peace now.
 
DignifiedGrave

DignifiedGrave

GrinderofSouls
Jul 5, 2026
115
Memory- I dont know we talked much but I remember you and ive seen you around the forum a lot. Though we haven't connected personally I feel that we would connect well if we so tried. I believe there is proximity. I wish you well Memory I hope you find peace and have a peaceful ctb!
 
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CrawlingInMySkin

CrawlingInMySkin

Blood is Red, and Sweet as Cherry Wine
Jun 14, 2026
225
Happy for you, mate :) I hope wherever you're going is better than here.♥️
 
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DignifiedGrave

DignifiedGrave

GrinderofSouls
Jul 5, 2026
115
As of now she has passed.. She didn't vomit or feel too much discomfort beyond some sickness and tachycardia and she passed while chatting with me, from what I know it was peaceful relief 💜
Thank you for this update. I happy to know she passed likely peacefully. I feel a sort of grief for a person I could have also befriended. I hope she rests well😞
 
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sacrilegeofsouls

sacrilegeofsouls

Come undone
Jun 14, 2026
72
this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last post here. goodbye.
I know it's a suicide forum but it's still shocking to see someone go. I hope you find what you're looking for on the other side. I'll pray for ya
 
pk@2001

pk@2001

Member
Apr 27, 2026
73
Peace and love to you friend 🕊️.
Will meet you on the other side
 

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