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Apr 24, 2025
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my ctb partner (that i met off of this website) and i are meeting this wednesday, we have a hotel for two nights and the hotel is 9 minutes away from the bus station, where i will pick my partner up. we are trying to ctb by firearm, and i plan to acquire one from a private seller that doesn't do a background check, or ask someone for help who can pass the background check.

(i might not pass the background check because i have been to a psych ward twice). if we are not able to get a gun, i plan to hang myself when i get home after our hotel stay is up. i have already prepared everything, this week is perfect to ctb and it's at the point where i have nothing to lose, i don't want to stall or hold off anymore. i know that i was destined to die by ctb, and to be honest i am very ready and excited. i do not feel fear, i just want to be gone forever.

extra question / need help: how do i test my ceiling fan to see if it's a good anchor point?

thank you :)
 
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Sleeper System

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Ha. Wish I could join yall. Jealous beyond words.
 
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Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
Ha. Wish I could join yall. Jealous beyond words.
why can't you? :> are you eligible to buy a firearm/have access to firearms? do you live in the usa? we are trying to find a third partner that is willing to travel to texas, who can ideally pass a background check to purchase a firearm, or already have firearms….

If you're interested then just dm me!!^_^
 
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SunriseParabellum

Member
Jan 24, 2025
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I'd be very careful about asking someone to help acquire, they can either call the cops and get you arrested, or if they do they're going to prison when the scene is found. Just my two cents on that, I don't want you to end up locked up over it. However things go though I wish you the best and hope you find peace, in this life or the next
 
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LunarLynx

LunarLynx

Just a lost spirit searching freedom
Dec 18, 2023
118
I'd be very careful about asking someone to help acquire, they can either call the cops and get you arrested, or if they do they're going to prison when the scene is found. Just my two cents on that, I don't want you to end up locked up over it. However things go though I wish you the best and hope you find peace, in this life or the next
I mean you can't go to prison if you're not there anymore :P
Jokes aside, stay safe, meeting people from the internet can always be dangerous !! (good luck on your attemps <3)
 
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Jul 28, 2018
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Partnering up to ctb is a great way for one of you to end up with a criminal charge for participating in the other person's death -- if one of you doesn't succeed -- or have your family sued by their family for damages.
 
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Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
Partnering up to ctb is a great way for one of you to end up with a criminal charge for participating in the other person's death -- if one of you doesn't succeed -- or have your family sued by their family for damages.
Naw we will both succeed
 
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May 5, 2022
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my ctb partner (that i met off of this website) and i are meeting this wednesday, we have a hotel for two nights and the hotel is 9 minutes away from the bus station, where i will pick my partner up. we are trying to ctb by firearm, and i plan to acquire one from a private seller that doesn't do a background check, or ask someone for help who can pass the background check.

(i might not pass the background check because i have been to a psych ward twice). if we are not able to get a gun, i plan to hang myself when i get home after our hotel stay is up. i have already prepared everything, this week is perfect to ctb and it's at the point where i have nothing to lose, i don't want to stall or hold off anymore. i know that i was destined to die by ctb, and to be honest i am very ready and excited. i do not feel fear, i just want to be gone forever.

extra question / need help: how do i test my ceiling fan to see if it's a good anchor point?

thank you :)
How are things going so far? Update please.
 
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slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
126
why can't you? :> are you eligible to buy a firearm/have access to firearms? do you live in the usa? we are trying to find a third partner that is willing to travel to texas, who can ideally pass a background check to purchase a firearm, or already have firearms….

If you're interested then just dm me!!^_^
Your in Texas and have a hard time finding a firearm? Ngl, I find that very hard to believe.
 
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reb

Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
Your in Texas and have a hard time finding a firearm? Ngl, I find that very hard to believe.
I lowk dgaf what YOU think, plus yes it is hard for SOME people to illegally find/purchase a gun. Just cuz its easier for you or you know more connections and resources doesn't mean its easy for everyone so stfu

Also i find it hard to believe that you don't know the difference between "you're" and "your"
 
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Hollowman

Empty
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The ceiling fan would have to hold your weight for a half an hour. I wouldn't trust it.
 
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slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
126
I lowk dgaf what YOU think, plus yes it is hard for SOME people to illegally find/purchase a gun. Just cuz its easier for you or you know more connections and resources doesn't mean its easy for everyone so stfu

Also i find it hard to believe that you don't know the difference between "you're" and "your"
You don't have to low key gaf when if you didn't, you wouldn't have replied. A 10 year old Mexican illegal can acquire a firearm in Texas because that's how lax the gun laws are.

You can find one on Craigslist and say you need it for protection from a private buyer.

If you were in California, fair answer because gun control laws are extremely prohibititive.

Sounds like Wednesday plans didn't work either. Don't get a murder charge over bad mistake online. :/
You don't have to low key gaf when if you didn't, you wouldn't have replied. A 10 year old Mexican illegal can acquire a firearm in Texas because that's how lax the gun laws are.

You can find one on Craigslist and say you need it for protection from a private buyer.

If you were in California, fair answer because gun control laws are extremely prohibititive.

Sounds like Wednesday plans didn't work either. Don't get a murder charge over bad mistake online. :/
I genuinely believe I don't care to edit every word for your grammatical OCD, because apparently, I have to be A.I. to proof read how you are not very bright about asking about guns and practically confessing to an attempted murder charge guised as group ctb.

I find it hard to believe you care so much about my grammar abilities over the value of life and death.

I highly find it hard to believe that two strangers who met each other would go out in front of each other, using the tool on themselves for ctb.

Hell, if I was a cop, this would be definitely a precursor to a murder charge.
 
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Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
You don't have to low key gaf when if you didn't, you wouldn't have replied. A 10 year old Mexican illegal can acquire a firearm in Texas because that's how lax the gun laws are.

You can find one on Craigslist and say you need it for protection from a private buyer.

If you were in California, fair answer because gun control laws are extremely prohibititive.

Sounds like Wednesday plans didn't work either. Don't get a murder charge over bad mistake online. :/

I genuinely believe I don't care to edit every word for your grammatical OCD, because apparently, I have to be A.I. to proof read how you are not very bright about asking about guns and practically confessing to an attempted murder charge guised as group ctb.

I find it hard to believe you care so much about my grammar abilities over the value of life and death.

I highly find it hard to believe that two strangers who met each other would go out in front of each other, using the tool on themselves for ctb.

Hell, if I was a cop, this would be definitely a precursor to a murder charge.
Ask my ctb partner themselves lmao bc what are you talking abt 😭 @marksofdespair
 
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MourningFlower

existed.
Jan 8, 2025
77
I hope you (both!) find peace.
 
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reb

Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
I highly find it hard to believe that two strangers who met each other would go out in front of each other, using the tool on themselves for ctb.
You do know there's an entire megathread just for that reason right? 😭 (The literal partner megathread lmfao)
 
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slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
126
Partnering up to ctb is a great way for one of you to end up with a criminal charge for participating in the other person's death -- if one of you doesn't succeed -- or have your family sued by their family for damages.

You do know there's an entire megathread just for that reason right? 😭 (The literal partner megathread lmfao)
Yes, but let's just say that two people who meet as strangers with a gun, aren't likely to shoot themselves in front of each other without risking a murder charge if they were set up. But hey, what do I know? I can't tell the difference of what your. :/
Partnering up to ctb is a great way for one of you to end up with a criminal charge for participating in the other person's death -- if one of you doesn't succeed -- or have your family sued by their family for damages.

You do know there's an entire megathread just for that reason right? 😭 (The literal partner megathread lmfao)
Yes, but let's just say that two people who meet as strangers with a gun, aren't likely to shoot themselves in front of each other without risking a murder charge if they were set up. But hey, what do I know? I can't tell the difference of what your.
You do know there's an entire megathread just for that reason right? 😭 (The literal partner megathread lmfao)
There's also a thread of some guy in the US being accused of assisting in partner suicide in the UK. It wasn't true and he was cleared of wrong doing, but hey, who's to say you guys aren't special enough to avoid NBC or CBS. :/
 
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Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
Yes, but let's just say that two people who meet as strangers with a gun, aren't likely to shoot themselves in front of each other without risking a murder charge if they were set up. But hey, what do I know? I can't tell the difference of what your. :/
You literally tried to say im planning a murder (and you have no evidence or reasoning to do so) bc i asked a SUICIDE forum about firearm advice.
, plus you don't know the complete details of me and my partner, like how long we've known each other, our reasons for wanting to ctb, the other methods we discussed, etc.. And we did plan on getting a second one so we can do it at the same time. Besides, she isn't a stranger to me. and we were also considering other methods.

If u think im suspicious for asking where to go to have a private seller for a firearm then why dont u go comment that on all of the other posts just like this?

also if you think i'm suspicious because im meeting with a "stranger" to ctb, then go tell everyone else that posted in the partners thread 👍🏻 I just want to ctb before my bday lmfao im not doing anything wrong
 
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woofwag

Bad dog
Sep 17, 2025
462
I hope you can both find the peace you're looking for <3
 
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slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
126
You literally tried to say im planning a murder (and you have no evidence or reasoning to do so) bc i asked a SUICIDE forum about firearm advice.
, plus you don't know the complete details of me and my partner, like how long we've known each other, our reasons for wanting to ctb, the other methods we discussed, etc.. And we did plan on getting a second one so we can do it at the same time. Besides, she isn't a stranger to me. and we were also considering other methods.

If u think im suspicious for asking where to go to have a private seller for a firearm then why dont u go comment that on all of the other posts just like this?

also if you think i'm suspicious because im meeting with a "stranger" to ctb, then go tell everyone else that posted in the partners thread 👍🏻 I just want to ctb before my bday lmfao im not doing anything wrong
It's suspicious because you pretty much told your plan to the world. In the eyes of a jury based on them reading your paper trail, if anything went wrong in real life, then yes, one of you could get a murder charge. I don't think I'm the first to imply it. Several others have said it.

You can't compare the partner thread to this because there are clear rules to that and risk disclaimer. Technically this post would violate that threads post. That thread doesn't encourage people to meet, just gives space and freedom. You get banned on that thread for trying to hook up, lol.

Based on this narrative, if one of you survived, it would be a murder. That's just facts, not even a blatant accusation.
 
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Tarantula

I regret nothing.
Dec 5, 2025
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I hope you guys find peace. I wish you both the best 🫂
 
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slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
126
And asking for a third is highly suspicious for murder. If you can't wrap your head around why, then you are too young and naive to understand the repercussions of having a third to be in this party. I smell a set up to be honest, and if I was a cop, I'd definitely would be looking at this as a possible kidnapping and murder charge.
 

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Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
And asking for a third is highly suspicious for murder. If you can't wrap your head around why, then you are too young and naive to understand the repercussions of having a third to be in this party. I smell a set up to be honest, and if I was a cop, I'd definitely would be looking at this as a possible kidnapping and murder charge.
HOLY REACH they literally commented first expressing interest to join and thats why i commented that 😭 😭 And the reason why we were looking for a partner is cuz we were trying to LEGALLY get a firearm through a possible partner that was 21+ (Im 19 so even if i was eligible to buy a gun it would be a long gun and we didnt want that one) and the reason why im not eligible is bc ive been involuntarily admitted before. Oh also most of the people that we were wanting to ctb with us reached out to US first. they also said they can help financially because me and my ctb partner want an airbnb cuz more anchor points there

like i said bro me and my ctb partner just want to ctb like u can look at my profile and read through my posts and see that im real 😭

anyways, i am disabled. im limited on where i can go because i need to take steroid shots constantly for my nerves. at the time we thought having a 3rd partner would help us out, as like i said, i'm very limited .

the only thing i've murdered is this brownie im eating rn holy shit its so goodf
 
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marksofdespair

eidolon
Sep 28, 2025
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Your in Texas and have a hard time finding a firearm? Ngl, I find that very hard to believe.
If you were capable of comprehension... you would know we haven't had a hard time finding a gun. The issue has been with purchasing one.
You don't have to low key gaf when if you didn't, you wouldn't have replied. A 10 year old Mexican illegal can acquire a firearm in Texas because that's how lax the gun laws are.

You can find one on Craigslist and say you need it for protection from a private buyer.

If you were in California, fair answer because gun control laws are extremely prohibititive.

Sounds like Wednesday plans didn't work either. Don't get a murder charge over bad mistake online. :/

I genuinely believe I don't care to edit every word for your grammatical OCD, because apparently, I have to be A.I. to proof read how you are not very bright about asking about guns and practically confessing to an attempted murder charge guised as group ctb.

I find it hard to believe you care so much about my grammar abilities over the value of life and death.

I highly find it hard to believe that two strangers who met each other would go out in front of each other, using the tool on themselves for ctb.

Hell, if I was a cop, this would be definitely a precursor to a murder charge.
You're a fool. First off, you can't even buy a gun on Craigslist.

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I'm not sure why you are on this thread being a total prick. I'm not even sure why you care so goddamn much. It is NOT murder; we are both committing together. Why is it so hard or you to believe 2 suicidal people on sanctioned suicide actually want to... I don't know... die?!! People on here post their ctb threads all the time. Nothing we have done has violated the rules, or else the mods would have taken action.

The only reason we were even in SEARCH for a third was in hopes of finding someone to join us that could purchase the firearm, since we could not. I don't get how that's "suspicious" when nobody was forced into joining. If anyone felt off about it, they could easily say no. MULTIPLE people reached out to us first. The screenshot you provided was of a person legit saying, "I wish I could join you guys". You've made yourself look silly by jumping to accusations & arguing with @nihilisticmystics for no reason at all.
 
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nintendo64

mr. kill myself
Dec 19, 2025
82
good luck, may you both finally find some relief from this cruel world.
 
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slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
126
If you were capable of comprehension... you would know we haven't had a hard time finding a gun. The issue has been with purchasing one.

You're a fool. First off, you can't even buy a gun on Craigslist.

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I'm not sure why you are on this thread being a total prick. I'm not even sure why you care so goddamn much. It is NOT murder; we are both committing together. Why is it so hard or you to believe 2 suicidal people on sanctioned suicide actually want to... I don't know... die?!! People on here post their ctb threads all the time. Nothing we have done has violated the rules, or else the mods would have taken action.

The only reason we were even in SEARCH for a third was in hopes of finding someone to join us that could purchase the firearm, since we could not. I don't get how that's "suspicious" when nobody was forced into joining. If anyone felt off about it, they could easily say no. MULTIPLE people reached out to us first. The screenshot you provided was of a person legit saying, "I wish I could join you guys". You've made yourself look silly by jumping to accusations & arguing with @nihilisticmystics for no reason at all.
I've been done with this thread for a long time because reasoning people angry at life is why I have a hard time convincing myself to live.

Dissecting that dribble, I might as well just end myself....

I'll leave you with this.... If you young adults, living in Texas where it's easier to find/obtain a gun than candy, or anywhere else in the world, are still struggling with achieving the necessary tools for your personal mission, then that is a "you" problem.

If Mexicans in Arizona or new Mexico can do the same without making excuses, I don't understand how 2 white people from the land of the privileged, can't.

But not my problem. Just don't drag others and make it look like a murder. If you guys can't see how this thread looks suspicious for luring vulnerable in for murder..... Go to reddit..... Good bye
 
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zdeweilx

It's over
Dec 15, 2025
190
Ha. Wish I could join yall. Jealous beyond words.
Ikr I'm so jealous as well lol, wish I could find someone near me to CTB with as well. But I'll just die alone I guess
 
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SASU-KE

Mage
Nov 26, 2025
597
Good luck to both of you. I hope you enjoy the holidays till that time and eat more brownies and good food.
 
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Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
I've been done with this thread for a long time because reasoning people angry at life is why I have a hard time convincing myself to live.
nobody asked for you to do that and you're not a hero, you just end up making yourself look like a fucking retard 😭
, I don't understand how 2 white people from the land of the privileged, can't.
😭😭 @marksofdespair isn't even white you're so fucking retarded bro im ctfu maybe stop picking fights with people and assuming things and maybe people would like you more and you could leave this website
 
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eidolon
Sep 28, 2025
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I've been done with this thread for a long time because reasoning people angry at life is why I have a hard time convincing myself to live.

Dissecting that dribble, I might as well just end myself....

I'll leave you with this.... If you young adults, living in Texas where it's easier to find/obtain a gun than candy, or anywhere else in the world, are still struggling with achieving the necessary tools for your personal mission, then that is a "you" problem.

If Mexicans in Arizona or new Mexico can do the same without making excuses, I don't understand how 2 white people from the land of the privileged, can't.

But not my problem. Just don't drag others and make it look like a murder. If you guys can't see how this thread looks suspicious for luring vulnerable in for murder..... Go to reddit..... Good bye
First of all, I am NOT white, nor do I live in Texas. I don't know where the fuck you got that from.

You're a moron. You say you've been done with this thread for a long time, but the last reply you posted was as recent as Friday. Why are you even expecting to people able to "reason" with people on this site that are obviously suicidal and hurt? That was your first mistake. It is not your job to do that, and most don't want to hear it. None of us are in our right minds.

We already explained why it was difficult for us to obtain a gun at a store.... we have since considered other options. Of COURSE this is our problem. All we simply did was post about it. You made it your problem by going back and forth with us for no fucking reason and involving yourself. Nobody asked you to do that. You seem to care more than we do.
 
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