nihilisticmystics
you’ve been riding two wheelers all your life
- Apr 24, 2025
- 118
my ctb partner (that i met off of this website) and i are meeting this wednesday, we have a hotel for two nights and the hotel is 9 minutes away from the bus station, where i will pick my partner up. we are trying to ctb by firearm, and i plan to acquire one from a private seller that doesn't do a background check, or ask someone for help who can pass the background check.
(i might not pass the background check because i have been to a psych ward twice). if we are not able to get a gun, i plan to hang myself when i get home after our hotel stay is up. i have already prepared everything, this week is perfect to ctb and it's at the point where i have nothing to lose, i don't want to stall or hold off anymore. i know that i was destined to die by ctb, and to be honest i am very ready and excited. i do not feel fear, i just want to be gone forever.
extra question / need help: how do i test my ceiling fan to see if it's a good anchor point?
thank you :)
(i might not pass the background check because i have been to a psych ward twice). if we are not able to get a gun, i plan to hang myself when i get home after our hotel stay is up. i have already prepared everything, this week is perfect to ctb and it's at the point where i have nothing to lose, i don't want to stall or hold off anymore. i know that i was destined to die by ctb, and to be honest i am very ready and excited. i do not feel fear, i just want to be gone forever.
extra question / need help: how do i test my ceiling fan to see if it's a good anchor point?
thank you :)