the train is a constant reminder

[violetforever]

i live so close to the train station and the tracks that i can see it go by from my bedroom window. its so tempting that my heart races in anticipation when i hear it and feel it everyday. its the most obvious sign from the universe to ctb with the train due to the accessibility. all i can find when i look up the train schedule arrival/departure times is 2 and 3 am, which is perfect. i dont think i could do it in broad daylight. ive been noting down every time i hear it pass. its usually between 11 am-4 pm. the only time i heard it during the night was 9 pm. thats still early, my family will be awake. it should be as simple as running out there whatever day i want but i feel like i have one chance at this since i live with my family. i never leave my house, i cant even drive. it would be really out of the ordinary for me to leave the house, especially at 2/3 am. if my mom woke up everything could be ruined. any thoughts or advice? id love the train but i still have hanging in mind. my rope is arriving tomorrow.

just realized this and thought i should add it here instead of making a new thread. as close as i live by a train, i live right by a HOSPITAL too. its right up the road, literally within walking distance. it takes a minute at most to drive there. one side of my house is life and the other side is death lol. this is why i really feel that i have one chance at my attempt. it needs to be quick and fatal. thats why i like the option of a train. im so afraid to be found before 30 minutes if i do hanging bc of the hospitals proximity to me.

 

[Bruce]

Well what kind of thoughts or advice are you looking for? On how or when to leave the house or what?

 

[violetforever]

Well what kind of thoughts or advice are you looking for? On how or when to leave the house or what?

i guess if its worth it? if i get caught then its going to fuck my chances up of doing another method i couldve had more success at like hanging. if i do end up going out to the tracks and not being brave enough, then i go home and theres suspicion. maybe if i was more of an adult than a child i wouldnt have to worry about such stupid obstacles like this.

 

[SASU-KE]

i live so close to the train station and the tracks that i can see it go by from my bedroom window. its so tempting that my heart races in anticipation when i hear it and feel it everyday. its the most obvious sign from the universe to ctb with the train due to the accessibility. all i can find when i look up the train schedule arrival/departure times is 2 and 3 am, which is perfect. i dont think i could do it in broad daylight. ive been noting down every time i hear it pass. its usually between 11 am-4 pm. the only time i heard it during the night was 9 pm. thats still early, my family will be awake. it should be as simple as running out there whatever day i want but i feel like i have one chance at this since i live with my family. i never leave my house, i cant even drive. it would be really out of the ordinary for me to leave the house, especially at 2/3 am. if my mom woke up everything could be ruined. any thoughts or advice? id love the train but i still have hanging in mind. my rope is arriving tomorrow.

Hanging is a far better method than the train. It has a success rate of 78%. Only firearms have a higher success rate at 84.

Post in thread 'i can't google "top 5 most successful suicide methods", but i can ask yall'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...ethods-but-i-can-ask-yall.233939/post-3379746

 

[violetforever]

Hanging is a far better method than the train. It has a success rate of 78%. Only firearms have a higher success rate at 84.

Post in thread 'i can't google "top 5 most successful suicide methods", but i can ask yall'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...ethods-but-i-can-ask-yall.233939/post-3379746

thanks for that info but why is train not a good method? i see why if u jump in front of it, but if u lay ur head down like i plan to do, how can that fail? i only see it failing if i make a last second impulse to try to move and get disfigured. maybe i can take some type of medication to calm myself?

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

if you're not in a hurry, you could get into the habit of taking small walks outside. it would reduce suspicion of going out "for a walk" at night, if your family got used to you going for walks often. i would in your stead though attempt hanging first. train seems like a scarier option, more likely to fail, and more painful.

in the end, it's up to you to decide which will suit you better, so i wish you best of luck!

 

[SASU-KE]

thanks for that info but why is train not a good method? i see why if u jump in front of it, but if u lay ur head down like i plan to do, how can that fail? i only see it failing if i make a last second impulse to try to move and get disfigured. maybe i can take some type of medication to calm myself?

I'm not saying train isn't a good method. I just find the train method a bit morose because I've seen a few videos of people turning into pink mist because of them.I also saw a really weird train video posted here. Once second,let me bring it up.It's a bit disturbing....It's the method you speak of. She tries to put her neck directly on the track.It looks like she succeeds. But it's a bit upsetting to me still. Because she gets up in the middle of it,I guess.

Do you think the girl in this clip died instantly?

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[violetforever]

if you're not in a hurry, you could get into the habit of taking small walks outside. it would reduce suspicion of going out "for a walk" at night, if your family got used to you going for walks often. i would in your stead though attempt hanging first. train seems like a scarier option, more likely to fail, and more painful.

in the end, it's up to you to decide which will suit you better, so i wish you best of luck!

the thing is, i live in the shittiest place ever. going for a walk at night, especially as a young girl, is like asking for trouble. no one is going to fall for it. theres nowhere to even go for a walk around here. i dont even think my mom would allow me to. i know im an adult and she cant have control over me, i just mean she would seriously wonder if something is wrong with me if i chose to go outside in these types of situations. even in the daytime, a lot of homeless people on drugs are walking through or around the neighborhood. its just bad. maybe my new method should be trying to score a drug from them that i can overdose on .-.

I'm not saying train isn't a good method. I just find the train method a bit morose because I've seen a few videos of people turning into pink mist because of them.I also saw a really weird train video posted here. Once second,let me bring it up.It's a bit disturbing....It's the method you speak of. She tries to put her neck directly on the track.It looks like she succeeds. But it's a bit upsetting to me still. Because she gets up in the middle of it,I guess.

is it bad that i didnt find that so daunting? id like to imagine i could do that. i wonder if it was less scary bc the train is moving kinda slowly. she was lucky to have gotten up undamaged before succeeding. and she did it while the train was already moving in front of her. i always thought id just lay and wait for the train to come head on and at a fast speed so i wouldnt even have time to think.

 

[mdrwants2go]

i guess if its worth it? if i get caught then its going to fuck my chances up of doing another method i couldve had more success at like hanging. if i do end up going out to the tracks and not being brave enough, then i go home and theres suspicion. maybe if i was more of an adult than a child i wouldnt have to worry about such stupid obstacles like this.

if u r a child, pls don't do this. i normally encourage people to ctb but if u r only 30 and above. enjoy ur young life without any worries. there's a lot of time for CTB in life. no need to hurry up

 

[violetforever]

if u r a child, pls don't do this. i normally encourage people to ctb but if u r only 30 and above. enjoy ur young life without any worries. there's a lot of time for CTB in life. no need to hurry up

im 24 so im not a child in a literal sense. i just feel childish for the way im treated and perceived. im trying to enjoy being young but its not very fun when you know it will all be over soon. a lot has been ruined already too. im not even getting much out of being young. all of the older people in my life are unhappy. i just want to die before i become like them. i am worse off than i was 6 years ago so i imagine myself dead in the upcoming 6 years.

 

[meddle]

thanks for that info but why is train not a good method? i see why if u jump in front of it, but if u lay ur head down like i plan to do, how can that fail? i only see it failing if i make a last second impulse to try to move and get disfigured. maybe i can take some type of medication to calm myself?

you might instinctively twich. its not always possible to control your body, especially in a life and death situation. so you twich and so the train might not run over your head or neck, but over something else, which will bring extreme pain and trauma, but might not kill you