I'm currently living in a homeless shelter. I have been for about 7 weeks. There's no privacy, constant gossip and bickering, a stabbing has occurred while I've been here, and I'm getting desperate for the pain to stop.
There are train tracks nearby. Two blocks away. I've thought a lot about ending it that way. (I'm not sure I could keep my head on the tracks til the very end but I'd probably get close.) I worry profoundly about the impact my method will have on survivors, particularly my kids. Decapitation by train seems like it would haunt them in a very grisly way.
Less traumatizing I'm thinking is bleeding out or hanging or strangulation. I think I could achieve those methods, somewhere on or off campus.
Those seem less traumatizing, right? Or am I overblowing the train-trauma thing? Maybe it's so exotic that it might not even be processed until they are older?
There are train tracks nearby. Two blocks away. I've thought a lot about ending it that way. (I'm not sure I could keep my head on the tracks til the very end but I'd probably get close.) I worry profoundly about the impact my method will have on survivors, particularly my kids. Decapitation by train seems like it would haunt them in a very grisly way.
Less traumatizing I'm thinking is bleeding out or hanging or strangulation. I think I could achieve those methods, somewhere on or off campus.
Those seem less traumatizing, right? Or am I overblowing the train-trauma thing? Maybe it's so exotic that it might not even be processed until they are older?
