Help Help on method?

[absent_nebulae]

im getting pretty close to the date ive picked to ctb which the reasons and other stuff i wont go into here since its pretty unrelated but ive been having such an internal struggle on deciding which method would be best
laying on train tracks is possibly my only good chance at succeeding but i fear police or someone would find me before a train came or i would end up disabled and in the very rare chance i do recover ill hate myself forever as i wouldnt be able to continue my life as a normal person
On the other hand jumping from a height seems like the next best thing but idk how i could possibly get over survival instincts as i have 0 access to alcohol or drugs, but also finding a sufficient spot seems close to impossible. From my knowledge most parking garages and bridges have some sort of safety or simply just isnt high enough to be fatal. And i also have the same worry with the train of becoming a vegetable
Any thoughts or interactions are appreciated and if this goes against any rules here ill take the post down

 

[fluorescentpearl]

If you choose to do the train method you have to be careful to not do it in a place where the train goes slow since that would only cause you agony + complications + to be crippled, plus it traumatizes the train conductor but personally I don't fully care about that since I understand the need to get out of this life regardless everybody else

 

[absent_nebulae]

True true

If you choose to do the train method you have to be careful to not do it in a place where the train goes slow since that would only cause you agony + complications + to be crippled, plus it traumatizes the train conductor but personally I don't fully care about that since I understand the need to get out of this life regardless everybody else