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[Brick In The Wall]

Gota love when you snap from happy to suicidal in an instant. Sometimes with no real rhyme or reason.

 

[one4all]

Gotta love when you have been suicidal for a while (happy or not).. and just finally accept it.

A warm fuzzy feeling

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Gotta love when you have been suicidal for a while (happy or not).. and just finally accept it.

A warm fuzzy feeling

I've accepted depression and ideation as my lord and saviour a long time ago as well. If you have a few maybe we can stumble door to door and spread the good word!

 

[one4all]

I've accepted depression and ideation as my lord and saviour a long time ago as well. If you have a few maybe we can stumble door to door and spread the good word!

Kind sir.. i have already had a few. And i hope to stop soon so i don't fuck shit up any more then i already have.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I've accepted depression and ideation as my lord and saviour a long time ago as well. If you have a few maybe we can stumble door to door and spread the good word!

I'm torn between so called mental health or I'm just generally in a permanent bad mood!
I've accepted active suicidal ideation is a strong part of my life, though I am able to calm it with Self harm at the moment

I am also eyeing up rum... but must be good, must be good

 

[RainAndSadness]

I like my new color. I never thought I would survive 1000 posts somehow. I'm not even that active in this forum. But it happened. Let's see how far I'll come. Of course, I hope I'll be able to leave before ai hit another 1000 posts.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I like my new color.

I miss that color!

 

[Epsilon0]

Anyone heard from One4all?
He's been on my mind today after I read the So long and thanks for all the fish thread.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Anyone heard from One4all?
He's been on my mind today after I read the So long and thanks for all the fish thread.

I think he may have self-banned as it's not longer available how long since he was last active. I haven't seen him on the list of active users (edit: members online). We'll know tomorrow night (the next morning for you) if he self-banned.

 

[Epsilon0]

I think he may have self-banned as it's not longer available how long since he was last active. I haven't seen him on the list of active users (edit: members online). We'll know tomorrow night (the next morning for you) if he self-banned.

Thanks Good!

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I Respect when people want to leave or feel the need to leave, for what ever reason and in what ever means, but when you build communication with someone, damn their potential leaving sucks

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Yeah. It sucks. I hope things are such that he makes it back. And wants to be back. If that makes any sense.

I like my new color. I never thought I would survive 1000 posts somehow. I'm not even that active in this forum. But it happened. Let's see how far I'll come. Of course, I hope I'll be able to leave before ai hit another 1000 posts.

And congrats.

 

[Living sucks]

I think he may have self-banned as it's not longer available how long since he was last active. I haven't seen him on the list of active users (edit: members online). We'll know tomorrow night (the next morning for you) if he self-banned.

I don't think you could ever see on his profile when he was on line last.. some people's profiles don't show this, if their profile is restricted it doesn't show this. I also dont think he is going to self ban bcuz he knows it will put a line through his name.
I know that you never know what someone is going through or been through but when I see someone joking and laughing and seemingly highly functioning, i falsely assume they will or have overcome and will keep going. This site has provided resources im grateful for but it doesn't make it any better or easier.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I don't think you could ever see on his profile when he was on line last.

His profile showed when he was last online up until yesterday evening. I kept checking after he posted that thread, and it showed for at least an hour, then stopped showing. He could have updated his settings to hide it, or he could have self-banned, which takes 48 hours for a line to go through the name. I don't fully know what happens when someone self-bans though.

 

[Living sucks]

got it. He was prepared

 

[Epsilon0]

Cooking with @Underscore is a show I'd like to watch.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Cooking with @Underscore is a show I'd like to watch.

It would be a potato and mushroom based repertoire garnished with wild garlic and seasoned with everybody's favorite salt.

 

[Epsilon0]

Thank you @faust for the funny comment on the Hope thread. I needed a good laugh.

It would be a potato and mushroom based repertoire garnished with wild garlic and seasoned with everybody's favorite salt.

What is wild garlic anyway? Is it more like spring onion? Less spicy?

 

[faust]

@Epsilon0 Thanks, inspired by statistics of a few Eastern European countries ;)

 

[Epsilon0]

@Epsilon0 Thanks, inspired by statistics of a few Eastern European countries ;)

I really enjoy sarcasm especially when the distance between the topic and that of the joke is very big.

I find it that the bigger the distance, the funnier the joke.

 

[faust]

@Epsilon0 Today I met one girl on the street, she asked how is my mental health. I told her that it is very bad. She asked me if I am going to commit a suicide in the nearest future? I replied not now, probably in summer. I suspect she did not expect such an answer lol

 

[Epsilon0]

@Epsilon0 Today I met one girl on the street, she asked how is my mental health. I told her that it is very bad. She asked me if I am going to commit a suicide in the nearest future? I replied not now, probably in summer. I suspect she did not expect such an answer lol

What was her reaction?

 

[RM5998]

My psychologist's office contacted me today, and asked me if I'm fine. As if they don't know already that my meds have run out and that I'm with my family, who cannot know anything about my condition.

To make it worse, moving any muscle in my neck or my back back has been unbearably painful today. For no good reason.

I wonder if I actually died back when I first attempted, and the last year and a half is some awful pre-death nightmare.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

What was her reaction?

She joined SS.

 

[faust]

What was her reaction?

Honestly, I don't know because my attention was somewhere in the parallel universe, so I did not recognize her final words. That happens to me very often.

She joined SS.

Possible. I saw cuts on her wrist once.

 

[Epsilon0]

The girl's last words

I am Death, I have come to you in disguise to end your suffering.


Faust (inner monologue, far-off in a parallel universe)

Do I still have toilet papper at home, or should I buy some. Man, did I turn off the iron? I wonder how many likes I got on SS.

 

[faust]

The girl's last words

I am Death, I have come to you in disguise to end your suffering.


Faust (inner monologue, far-off in a parallel universe)

Do I still have toilet papper at home, or should I buy some. Man, did I turn off the iron? I wonder how many likes I got on SS.

I often freeze and have to ask again what the person was talking about. But not this time, she left me, maybe was in a hurry.

 

[Sockeye Salmon]

I'm still stuck in my family's house, dreading to go back to my own place. The thought of being stuck in this fucking place for months fucking scare and irritate me. Stuck with abusive siblings and parents who doesn't respect boundaries. I can't keep my hygiene because the bathrooms are fucking dirty here, can't keep my diet because I'm forced to eat the same goddamn shit everyday, can't play games here because there's no equipment. (bought Doom Eternal and I've only played it for 30 minutes and haven't played it since a month ago), can't talk to my friends because I have to keep my voice down, can't play online games, stream or download well because the internet is slow, can't do anything in private because I have no private place, can't express any emotion because I have no place for it, can't do anything much, really. Every time I try to do something productive, I get interrupted and annoyed by family, or just get put off by how uncomfortable this place in so I try to sleep the day away as much as I can.

This fucking virus has infected not my physical health, but my mental health, I'm losing my sanity here. I can only hope a vaccine develops as soon as possible, but if it does take months or even years, I'd probably already end up in a mental asylum then, because I cannot stand being in this place. Home never felt more like a prison until now. You may be seeing a psychopath in the making here.

I want to cry, and I would, but I have no place to do so here.

 

[faust]

I'm still stuck in my family's house, dreading to go back to my own place. The thought of being stuck in this fucking place for months fucking scare and irritate me. Stuck with abusive siblings and parents who doesn't respect boundaries. I can't keep my hygiene because the bathrooms are fucking dirty here, can't keep my diet because I'm forced to eat the same goddamn shit everyday, can't play games here because there's no equipment. (bought Doom Eternal and I've only played it for 30 minutes and haven't played it since a month ago), can't talk to my friends because I have to keep my voice down, can't play online games, stream or download well because the internet is slow, can't do anything in private because I have no private place, can't express any emotion because I have no place for it, can't do anything much, really. Every time I try to do something productive, I get interrupted and annoyed by family, or just get put off by how uncomfortable this place in so I try to sleep the day away as much as I can.

This fucking virus has infected not my physical health, but my mental health, I'm losing my sanity here. I can only hope a vaccine develops as soon as possible, but if it does take months or even years, I'd probably already end up in a mental asylum then, because I cannot stand being in this place. Home never felt more like a prison until now. You may be seeing a psychopath in the making here.

I want to cry, and I would, but I have no place to do so here.

The whole situation is very sad. If I didn't go out for a walk, I would become mad. You need some solitude, can you go out for an hour or so?

 

[Epsilon0]

I can't stop thinking about One4All.