Omg did you search "teamwork" in the gif thing lol. I considered those as well haha.
...perfect
...perfect
DocNo
whatever
- Oct 30, 2020
- 1,750
BitterlyAlive_
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- Dec 8, 2020
- 2,394
YeahOmg did you search "teamwork" in the gif thing lol. I considered those as well haha.
Also that one is sweet, awww.I'm literally so lonely that this GIF made me tear up. But I teared up watching Gattaca seeing Jude Law and Uma Thurman kiss.....aghhhhh :(
DocNo
whatever
- Oct 30, 2020
- 1,750
feel you. i am also starving for human touch and this feeling of intimacy.
Yeah
I'm literally so lonely that this GIF made me tear up. But I teared up watching Gattaca seeing Jude Law and Uma Thurman kiss.....aghhhhh :(
xBrialesana
Become Dust With Me, My Love.
- Dec 17, 2019
- 552
Had to be offline for safety/privacy. Miss you all... I'm hurting so bad
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
That's understandable, I wondered where you've been. I'm sorry you're hurting but we're here for ya what we can be.
DocNo
whatever
- Oct 30, 2020
- 1,750
stumbled over a site where you can listen to radio stations all over the world.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
That's pretty cool man. I'll have to give it a spin a little later, thanks for sharing!stumbled over a site where you can listen to radio stations all over the world.
Sockeye Salmon
Student
- Mar 28, 2018
- 118
I am so fucked in the head right now. Nothing is going right for me and I have no friends or place to vent to, no alcohol, no drugs, nothing. Everything is on a downward spiral and I just can't do it anymore. I wish I'd just drop dead now because I don't see any way out of this.
Vent here friend
. I think a lot of us can relate to your feelings on this site. Or make your own thread, there are a lot of supportive ppl here, don't be shy to express yourself.
Sockeye Salmon
Student
- Mar 28, 2018
- 118
I don't think my vents warrant it's own thread. I would just be spamming if I create a thread for every minor vent I have. I'm still pissed that the discord servers for this site always get taken down. It was an easy and convenient way to vent and chat with others alike on my PC and my phone.
I'm just so fucking scared. I can't see anything realistically happening in the future that is good in any way.
I'm just so fucking scared. I can't see anything realistically happening in the future that is good in any way.
Don't be scared to vent on here in here on your own threads. I can't promise everyone will always be supportive but I feel a majority will. Do what you are comfortable with
painoflife
Arcanist
- Jul 27, 2019
- 491
Really struggling more and more each day now, it is so hard to keep up the act of "I'm ok" that everyone just expects. It feels so physically and mentally tiring being like this (combined with getting 4-5 hours of broken sleep a night means I am constantly exhausted). I feel like I constantly have arguments with myself in my head and of course I am never satisfied with the outcome.
I hate that "professionals" keep throwing different diagnosis at me, but never say I don't have previous ones. It is like an ever growing list of contradictions and is just more fuel for my mind to convince myself enough is enough. Why do I put myself through this? Because I am too weak to even end it properly. I had the means but messed it up and now I am stuck and scared it will go wrong again and I will have to face the fallout afterwards.
I've got to the point where I even considered whether being admitted to inpatient would be best right now, that is how desperate and messed up I am! Of course that is stupid to consider because it wont help at all (probably feel even worse/trapped while there) and also they literally told me that wont admit me and removed me from the waiting list last time crisis team put me on it. So do I take that to mean I can just do attempt after attempt and even if it fails or I get caught they will just send me on my merry way? Or do I take it to mean that I shouldn't bother to ask for help because they wont give me any? (Not that I think they can do anything to actually help, I just dont like this feeling of not being safe with myself). Or does it simply mean they dont care? Probably all 3 of them really.
Sorry for the ramble, things are just a real struggle for me at the moment and I dont even know how to express what is going on in my head.
I hate that "professionals" keep throwing different diagnosis at me, but never say I don't have previous ones. It is like an ever growing list of contradictions and is just more fuel for my mind to convince myself enough is enough. Why do I put myself through this? Because I am too weak to even end it properly. I had the means but messed it up and now I am stuck and scared it will go wrong again and I will have to face the fallout afterwards.
I've got to the point where I even considered whether being admitted to inpatient would be best right now, that is how desperate and messed up I am! Of course that is stupid to consider because it wont help at all (probably feel even worse/trapped while there) and also they literally told me that wont admit me and removed me from the waiting list last time crisis team put me on it. So do I take that to mean I can just do attempt after attempt and even if it fails or I get caught they will just send me on my merry way? Or do I take it to mean that I shouldn't bother to ask for help because they wont give me any? (Not that I think they can do anything to actually help, I just dont like this feeling of not being safe with myself). Or does it simply mean they dont care? Probably all 3 of them really.
Sorry for the ramble, things are just a real struggle for me at the moment and I dont even know how to express what is going on in my head.
moonchild
Student
- May 8, 2020
- 125
I've watched this like 50 times and it still gets funnier every time.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
BeansOfRequirement
Behind the guilt was compassion
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,745
A glass of Nembutal, please. Shaken, not stirred.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
BitterlyAlive_
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- Dec 8, 2020
- 2,394
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
Slightly sleep deprived lol. My mania and the fake earthquakes I've been feeling have been mostly keeping me up. I did get 4 hours of sleep though and woke up an hour ago.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Fake earthquakes? Also, atleast you got some sleep.
BeansOfRequirement
Behind the guilt was compassion
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,745
Damn, dat sux
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
Yeah, I've been hallucinating the ground shaking. I mainly feel it in bed when doing anything, but I've also felt it on the couch and when I was in my car at the store. So far since waking up, I haven't felt it though :)
Yeah :( I'm hoping I can get more sleep tonight
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
That sounds a bit concerning. Do you have any idea why that's happening?
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
I'm pretty sure it's because of my bipolar, but my nurse practitioner said he thinks I have Schizoaffective disorder. He's the 3rd person to say he thinks I have that instead.
BitterlyAlive_
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- Dec 8, 2020
- 2,394
Fuck, Squiddy. Third person, huh? Do you feel any kinda way towards this supposed diagnosis?
