the only thing stopping me is my family

[GASLIGHTER7000]

i just feel bad for them. now a days the pain is next to unbearable, i cry for hours and ive spent so much time talking and writing to myself. i don't talk to my friends or anyone. i walk outside all day. everytime i walk outside, i want to throw myself in front of a car. i know ctb would destroy my family, so i'll just live like a corpse until i don't care anymore and i can take my life. i know i will eventually at the rate i'm going

 

[nelaB]

i just feel bad for them. now a days the pain is next to unbearable, i cry for hours and ive spent so much time talking and writing to myself. i don't talk to my friends or anyone. i walk outside all day. everytime i walk outside, i want to throw myself in front of a car. i know ctb would destroy my family, so i'll just live like a corpse until i don't care anymore and i can take my life. i know i will eventually at the rate i'm going

I know the feeling friend. Sticking around for my dad, I'm actually lucky as he's the only one I have to wait on. I have sisters but, don't think It'll be the biggest deal for them at all. I know the feeling of "when will I be free to do the only thing I want to" and it is a bad one. It feels like being in prison. I hope things get better for you, because that is a really bad position to be in. Lots of love friend <3 I've been around in this community for such a short time, though I've found it's very helpful to feeling less alone in these thoughts. I hope you find some of the same camaraderie here.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I planned to die not that long ago but I couldn't bring myself to do it knowing my siblings would be the ones to find my body, and I could never put them through that. I'm so sorry you have to suffer so much and feel so stuck, it honestly feels horrible. I hope for your pain to ease and for you to find peace .