omoidarui
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- Apr 30, 2019
- 993
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
This is the original spot though. Mad love and props to this gem of a thread.
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
It's going ok. Still in Pennsylvania trying to recover. Dumped one of my toxic friends today and I feel pretty good about it, though sad
First of the mini Macy's fireworks here in Coney tonight! I love (professional) fireworks!
...but I hate this, because we would normally have fireworks every week in summer here in Coney, and this pale substitute just underlines that the cancer will kill me or I will kill myself soon, and this malformation of a summer will be the last thing I'm aware of. I should have killed myself the night my father died. I remember telling his nurse, "Excuse me, I have to go walk into traffic now." I should have just done it.
...but I hate this, because we would normally have fireworks every week in summer here in Coney, and this pale substitute just underlines that the cancer will kill me or I will kill myself soon, and this malformation of a summer will be the last thing I'm aware of. I should have killed myself the night my father died. I remember telling his nurse, "Excuse me, I have to go walk into traffic now." I should have just done it.
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,965
So sorry you had to lose a friend.
If it was toxic then I think it was for the best. I was terrified of fireworks when I was a kid. I used to watch them with friends but it has been a long time. I can enjoy them better from a distance where they aren't as loud.
This summer is so messed up. I'm afraid things will shut down again. Even though I don't really like to go anywhere anymore. I hate wearing face masks but I do to protect others.
I'm sorry for the loss of your father. I know hug emojis don't help.
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Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
non stop issues at work all from an outside person that did updates.... seriously the stress is horrible.
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
Thinking about my toxic friend now and I feel like cutting and I hate itSo sorry you had to lose a friend.
I was terrified of fireworks when I was a kid. I used to watch them with friends but it has been a long time. I can enjoy them better from a distance where they aren't as loud.
This summer is so messed up. I'm afraid things will shut down again. Even though I don't really like to go anywhere anymore. I hate wearing face masks but I do to protect others.
I'm sorry for the loss of your father. I know hug emojis don't help.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Glad to see you back to posting again Squiddy! Sorry about your friend troubles though.
I dont know what to do. Chat buddy from ss caught the bus.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
You can always chat with us here or in the lounge. Sorry for your loss but you'll find someone else to connect with as well.
Thanks and im trying. Atleast hes no longer in pain.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
I'm almost always around if you ever wana chat.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Okay, so first, hello there again.
Secondly, here's a thing. Yesterday a man from the house literally next to mine burned the stuff of his ex (who was getting married to another man on that day) then took his dog and his 1.5 year daughter to 24th floor and threw the dog, the daughter, then jumped.
I feel really bad for the dog, but I envy the girl so much lol. She didn't get to develop much of intelligence before facing her life ending. Am I turning insane?
Secondly, here's a thing. Yesterday a man from the house literally next to mine burned the stuff of his ex (who was getting married to another man on that day) then took his dog and his 1.5 year daughter to 24th floor and threw the dog, the daughter, then jumped.
I feel really bad for the dog, but I envy the girl so much lol. She didn't get to develop much of intelligence before facing her life ending. Am I turning insane?
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Welcome back, its been a while. I think we're all slowly going insane to some degree.
That's an incredibly tragic story about your neighbor. Dude should've just ended himself, he didn't have to take the dog and his daughter too.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Well it isn't, according to people. News sites I've seen it reported had comments blocked because of how insensitive and uncaring people are. The man is believed to have no drug or alcohol problems and has a business in Poland, and his motives were something like "to be together forever in death" since his ex-wife would be taking the child and it was one of the few days he'd get to see her.
For me it's just another indication of how shitty, small and fragile our social networks - not the internet type - have become. Few links break down, and a person might easily follow. Even if said person is conventionally successful.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
I'm almost shocked your posting here from Pennsylvania lol
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
I'm not shocked that they blocked comments on that one. I've seen how fragile social networks can be from first hand experience. Divorce or separation can be especially devastating for many people, it was one of the things that brought me here.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Yeah. I am here for loneliness reasons mostly - I find it nigh-impossible to not relapse while lacking human contact, and I have not experienced a meaningful connection to a human being for I've lost track for how long.
I have a hypothesis that romantic love for a partner s a fairly recent emotional aggregate and didn't exist, say, 1000 years ago. Wonder if the shift for more affection has actually made people less resilient wrt. mental health.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
I'd say that monogamous relationships are fairly new and probably a factor. We're animals and very few animals have life partners. That could be part of the shift you're referring to.
I know that elephants can literally die of loneliness. I think humans have become similar in our pursuit for affection.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Are you saying these lucky bastards not only need to overcome the biological programming, but it works for them?!
Well, I guess it would be hard for an elephant to hang himself, or buy SN
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
We can have our phones in the PHP program here lol
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Which reminds me, I should probably start a C# program. My glasses' lenses are getting annoyingly damaged.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Oh i figured you were on a public computer under their eyes, or otherwise where they'll see the site name lol
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
So I saw the coolest fucking thing today. This bad boy spits out cooked pancakes by the plate full within seconds. This is a stock image of the machine but it was the same damn machine.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
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Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,965
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
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