The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Anyone have any weekend plans?

Does spending it on S.S. count ???

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Does spending it on S.S. count ???

Of course it counts! I'll probably end up doing the same.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Of course it counts! I'll probably end up doing the same.

I will pull out a barstool.
If you don't have anything nice to say... come sit by me.

 

[faraway_beach]

Unsure, my favorite pizza place is reopening but it's on the boardwalk and we may well have some stupid amateurs trying (and losing!) their hands at fireworks.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Unsure, my favorite pizza place is reopening but it's on the boardwalk and we may well have some stupid amateurs trying (and losing!) their hands at fireworks.

I'm sure you'll have an interesting 4th of July

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I am actually going to check one of the places where I consider ctbing.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I am actually going to check one of the places where I consider ctbing.

What kinda things are you looking for in a spot? I've been eyeballing my kit alot lately myself.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I want to pass away among trees, so at least a patch of intact forest. Obviously shouldn't be found fast enough, too.
A spot I'm considering is about on 3/4 from center to the edge of the city, it's fairly undeveloped and there's a fenced area used seemingly for power lines, I might just sneak into there to not be found quickly.

 

[faraway_beach]

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow with my pain management specialist, and I'm feeling some anxiety about it already. It's not far to travel, I know the way, she doesn't do anything painful or even examine me at all, just talk. I can't find an objective reason for my anxiety.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I can't find an objective reason for my anxiety.

As if there was any. Maybe you got a bit of bad treatment as a child that has grown into anxiety just as your mind has been going down into the spiral of other mental health issues.

I've found myself being anxious about a lot of things that doesn't make sense, and there's even more things which I'm "lazy" to do but if I dig through my feelings for long enough, I typically discover some minor anxiety involved in doing it. Is it similar for you?

 

[faraway_beach]

As if there was any. Maybe you got a bit of bad treatment as a child that has grown into anxiety just as your mind has been going down into the spiral of other mental health issues.

I've found myself being anxious about a lot of things that doesn't make sense, and there's even more things which I'm "lazy" to do but if I dig through my feelings for long enough, I typically discover some minor anxiety involved in doing it. Is it similar for you?

Good insight. Yes, there are things I say are too much trouble, but sometimes there are additional reasons I'm reluctant.

I went to the appointment and my regular doctor was out. I got a guy who seemed rather brusque and hurried, but I think he's the head of the entire medical center, so maybe he did have other things to do. I just worry that I didn't remember all the things I wanted to bring up, despite rehearsing it in my head on the way there.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I went to the appointment and my regular doctor was out. I got a guy who seemed rather brusque and hurried, but I think he's the head of the entire medical center, so maybe he did have other things to do. I just worry that I didn't remember all the things I wanted to bring up, despite rehearsing it in my head on the way there.

How did the appointment go?
I can relate to not remembering stuff and worrying about it - feeling recently like my depression is causing some fog over my brain where I can't remember stuff. I should remember to make a checklist at least for my CTB plan lol

 

[Squiddy]

What is PHP ? Shocked they would allow phones.

Partial hospitalization program (sorry for replying so late, been really busy)

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Partial hospitalization program (sorry for replying so late, been really busy)

No problem I guess I could have googled it. I've just never heard the term.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Not my day already, ugh, I just wana go back to sleep!

 

[Brick In The Wall]

So I get a letter in the mail from child support services saying that I overpaid. They write me a check but the check has my name AND my ex wifes name on it.

So I can't even cash the damn thing! What a bunch of fucking retards. Now I gota spend half the damn day on the phone with them.

 

[faraway_beach]

I hear you. I notified my father's health insurance that he had died and didn't need insurance anymore, and they sent a refund for his last month's premium -- in his name, of course.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

Sigh. Just sold my car for a lot less than I had hoped. On the bright side, it's no longer my problem. I will miss late night drives with music blaring through. Also sucks that paying off the balance has dried me out. Oh well. Was a mistake buying it to begin with.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I hear you. I notified my father's health insurance that he had died and didn't need insurance anymore, and they sent a refund for his last month's premium -- in his name, of course.

What the fuck, it's like they do it on purpose to avoid paying you back.

Sigh. Just sold my car for a lot less than I had hoped. On the bright side, it's no longer my problem. I will miss late night drives with music blaring through. Also sucks that paying off the balance has dried me out. Oh well. Was a mistake buying it to begin with.

You gona buy a new one now?

 

[faraway_beach]

NYC has been on lockdown from before spring started properly. Subconsciously, I've been thinking of the pause as waiting for spring to start. I just realized today for the first time that even if we came off pause tomorrow, I won't be getting springtime -- the lilacs, the peonies, the roses are over. The wonderful scent of green things beginning to wake up is over. This is a year without a spring.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

NYC has been on lockdown from before spring started properly. Subconsciously, I've been thinking of the pause as waiting for spring to start. I just realized today for the first time that even if we came off pause tomorrow, I won't be getting springtime -- the lilacs, the peonies, the roses are over. The wonderful scent of green things beginning to wake up is over. This is a year without a spring.

NYC has had it really bad with this covid shit. I definitely feel for you guys! Hopefully next year won't be as bad as this ones been.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

@Brick In The Wall
Nah, can't afford payments till I get a job. And honestly, I live near public transit so I probably wouldn't use it much even if I was working.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

@Brick In The Wall
Nah, can't afford payments till I get a job. And honestly, I live near public transit so I probably wouldn't use it much even if I was working.

Ah okay, might be best to hold off then as long as you can. It'll make it alot easier to save a bit.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

Ah okay, might be best to hold off then as long as you can. It'll make it alot easier to save a bit.

Yeah. How's the new job going btw?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Yeah. How's the new job going btw?

I've made it about a week and I already know more then my co workers. I've got 3 more weeks of training but that just seems like fluff to me now.

I like the people and environment I work in. So I'd say it's going pretty good. After months of collecting unemployment it was kinda rough going back to work but I'm adjusted now.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

I've made it about a week and I already know more then my co workers. I've got 3 more weeks of training but that just seems like fluff to me now.

I like the people and environment I work in. So I'd say it's going pretty good. After months of collecting unemployment it was kinda rough going back to work but I'm adjusted now.

Boss! Congrats, man, I'm thrilled to hear it's going well. Kudos! Out of curiosity, are you working remote or are you at an actual office now?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Boss! Congrats, man, I'm thrilled to hear it's going well. Kudos! Out of curiosity, are you working remote or are you at an actual office now?

Thanks alot man!

I've been doing hotel management for a few years now. I'm still doing that just at another property now. So it's rather high risk covid wise but I'm not afraid of the virus.

I know the owner of this property and he's building a new hotel right now. If I stick this out and continue to do good then he's going to promote me and have me running the new hotel.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

Thanks alot man!

I've been doing hotel management for a few years now. I'm still doing that just at another property now. So it's rather high risk covid wise but I'm not afraid of the virus.

I know the owner of this property and he's building a new hotel right now. If I stick this out and continue to do good then he's going to promote me and have me running the new hotel.

Okay maybe I'm confusing you with someone else but I could have sworn you were a game dev

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Okay maybe I'm confusing you with someone else but I could have sworn you were a game dev

I am a game dev. I've been working on my current project for over a year now.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

I am a game dev. I've been working on my current project for over a year now.

Oh okay lmao good I thought I was nuts for a moment