Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Hey there @Squiddy. How are things going in your life?
They're going ok. I recently got back from this treatment center in Pennsylvania and I've been doing ok. Some days, I still want to ctb, but other times, I don't so there's a little improvement. Right now, I kinda feel like ctb only because I feel hopeless about my bad short term memory, processing issues and articulation issues.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
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They're going ok. I recently got back from this treatment center in Pennsylvania and I've been doing ok. Some days, I still want to ctb, but other times, I don't so there's a little improvement. Right now, I kinda feel like ctb only because I feel hopeless about my bad short term memory, processing issues and articulation issues.
Glad to know you're feeling better. If you don't mind me asking, what's wrong with your short-term memory?
 
CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
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I just can't remember conversations and things discussed in therapy
Maybe there wasn't anything worth remembering? I can barely remember some months of my life recently because of how gray it is. Also, being on meds can do really wacky things with normal brain functions.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Maybe there wasn't anything worth remembering? I can barely remember some months of my life recently because of how gray it is. Also, being on meds can do really wacky things with normal brain functions.
I thought it was my meds at first, but being off them for a week and my short term memory was still bad. The stuff I want to remember is important, but I just can't remember it
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

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Jan 9, 2020
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I thought it was my meds at first, but being off them for a week and my short term memory was still bad
It might still not be enough - e.g. it took me about a month of SSRIs until I stopped feeling like shit, and my sex drive only returned in 3 months being off them. We don't really have studies for long term effects of most psychoactive meds except that they usually aren't good.

May I suggest getting a paper notepad? :) It's a nice little something to write down important things, as well as your thoughts and plans. Helps me a lot these days
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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It might still not be enough - e.g. it took me about a month of SSRIs until I stopped feeling like shit, and my sex drive only returned in 3 months being off them. We don't really have studies for long term effects of most psychoactive meds except that they usually aren't good.

May I suggest getting a paper notepad? :) It's a nice little something to write down important things, as well as your thoughts and plans. Helps me a lot these days
I try to write down stuff on my phone which helps me quite a bit. When I was at the program in Pennsylvania, I tried reading what I wrote to the nurse practitioner there, but she discouraged it because she said it was making me remember stuff I didn't want to remember :notsure:
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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The year is coming to an end and this isn't how I saw the sink finishing out.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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The year is coming to an end and this isn't how I saw the sink finishing out.
I agree, but hey we made it to 16k posts (sorry for not being here, I was in the hospital for 7 days)
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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I agree, but hey we made it to 16k posts (sorry for not being here, I was in the hospital for 7 days)
You don't have anything to be sorry about! I hope you're doing okay :hug:
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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RIP to this thread :(
 
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Morphinekiss

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Everything, including the kitchen sink, must die in the end.

:heart:
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Let's revive this >:) at least until December 31st lol
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Let's revive this >:) at least until December 31st lol
Someone told me that it could go tell 2029 technically. Maybe I go with that.
I lurk more than people realize, but with the sink dead I have no home.
We're your home, we never left. I can get you into contact with anyone.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Someone told me that it could go tell 2029 technically. Maybe I go with that.

We're your home, we never left. I can get you into contact with anyone.
That'd be cool to go til then
 
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Good4Nothing

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Hi, guys.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

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The sink might have sunk, but the ghost crew still roams its deck!
 
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Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
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The sink might have sunk, but the ghost crew still roams its deck!
Some of us are still around. I think chat threads aren't as popular as they used to be in general. Even the SS Lounge is pretty slow going now.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Some of us are still around. I think chat threads aren't as popular as they used to be in general. Even the SS Lounge is pretty slow going now.
Yeah I remember when they were active and we'd create 100+ posts a day
 
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