CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
I'm lying on the couch. Put a gummy bear on my upper lip and enjoying it's scent
Besides, I can't afford another hospitalizationCurrently on a short 5 minute break. I wrote down suicidal thoughts on a paper and my nurse was like "do we need to hospitalize you" and I said no
Good thing it's not a problem for me 'cause I never get invited anywhere.Huh. I guess I should stop isolating and check Facebook from time to time. I forget that I'm actually part of a social group outside of here and I get invited to things (I have to work, but still). Whoops.
I told you when I went, they have medical care, therapy and anything else you may need. ;)It seems like it's mostly for support. I have support already, though
Good thing it's not a problem for me 'cause I never get invited anywhere.
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Thanks. I got used to being a loner, to a degree where it doesn't actively hurt most of the timeI'm sorry. :x You have us, though! And we love you so much!
Let's take this piece by piece.Hello everyone. How are you doing?
I'm not doing so well tbh. I said yesterday about the toilet being clogged because of my diaries. Well. My roommate took a shower and it caused a flood in the room. We needed to move to another room. I'm scared that the water caused some damage in the room. I'm angry at the doctor. She told a week ago that they could give me ect treatment but today she said they won't. It feels like a slap in the face. They gave me false hope and now they're watching me so I can't kill myself. I said I don't have any suicidal thoughts but they still won't let me out from the hospital. On Monday there will be next meeting. I hope I'll get out so I can die. I have a new plan. I'm paranoid of my close ones finding this forum and my account and these messages after I die. Sorry about always opening up in this thread.
I hope you guys are feeling ok. :)
Excuse me? And who are we? Chopped liver? We love seeing you here!!!!! If we didn't want you here, I would cook for you!!!Good thing it's not a problem for me 'cause I never get invited anywhere.
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Well technically I never got invited there. I just forced myself onto you and keeping it like this for nowExcuse me? And who are we? Chopped liver? We love seeing you here!!!!! If we didn't want you here, I would cook for you!
Excuse me? And who are we? Chopped liver? We love seeing you here!!!!! If we didn't want you here, I would cook for you!!!
Well technically I never got invited there. I just forced myself onto you and keeping it like this for now
Wish I could do this in real life though somehow. And I do miss physical touch sometimesI mean..there's nothing wrong with that. Kinda cool, actually.
I've forgotten what physical touch feels like. And I know that even touching my own hand doesn't feel the same because I know where it is or will be, unlike if it was someone else where the sensation of their breathing, warmth, skin, movements, is something that can't be reproduced.Wish I could do this in real life though somehow. And I do miss physical touch sometimes
I apologize for not inviting you. I thought you were just so cool... it was already known and assumed. ;)Wish I could do this in real life though somehow. And I do miss physical touch sometimes
Wish I could do this in real life though somehow. And I do miss physical touch sometimes
I wish I could (with your permission) give you the biggest hug ever ever ever. *Gives you a huge hug*I've forgotten what physical touch feels like. And I know that even touching my own hand doesn't feel the same because I know where it is or will be, unlike if it was someone else where the sensation of their breathing, warmth, skin, movements, is something that can't be reproduced.
@Brick In The Wall go for it please. You are good at this. ;)Folks. As we know, Jean is very unstable today. Please go to The Who is Stan thread and help me out. Thanks.
Please lol I am running on fumes so that's all I could spout.@Brick In The Wall go for it please. You are good at this. ;)
And I was doing so well. I don't want to take an edible this early because someone pushed my buttons and knocked me off kilter. Not suicidal which is good.Please lol I am running on fumes so that's all I could spout.
Breadstick was kinda hard, but the v. lasagna was goodHow do you even approach such a food properly!?
Well the good thing is that you are not suicidal. You can do this, Jean. Try to regulate your breathing if you've got yourself a little worked up. Maybe listen to some music if that doesn't help. It's going to be okay. Someone will take care of it. Pet your babies if nothing else helps. ❤And I was doing so well. I don't want to take an edible this early because someone pushed my buttons and knocked me off kilter. Not suicidal which is good.
I agree :)Non-suicidal @Jean4 is good :D