the loneliest thing you've done

[Talokin]

I live in the US and am so disconnected from society, that it was almost a year after the 2016 election before I knew what MAGA meant.

(The only thing I knew about Trump that he was in reality tv and built gold buildings. My family was disgusted that I didn't think he should be assassinated...and have since been accusing me of turning into a White Supremacist. I'm a Jewish liberal....so....it is basically their way of saying "You are a worthless, evil human and I don't give a shit what happens to you.)

If you are going to respond and call me a racist Nazi....fine. But the whole point of this message is that I have zero friends, and never talked about the elections with anyone. And I had stopped watching the news. What I think about him now is clouded by the fact that my entire family got on board to call me a genoicdal monster...when I was already alone and suicidal.

 

[Mr2005]

I live in the US and am so disconnected from society, that it was almost a year after the 2016 election before I knew what MAGA meant.

(The only thing I knew about Trump that he was in reality tv and built gold buildings. My family was disgusted that I didn't think he should be assassinated...and have since been accusing me of turning into a White Supremacist. I'm a Jewish liberal....so....it is basically their way of saying "You are a worthless, evil human and I don't give a shit what happens to you.)

If you are going to respond and call me a racist Nazi....fine. But the whole point of this message is that I have zero friends, and never talked about the elections with anyone. And I had stopped watching the news. What I think about him now is clouded by the fact that my entire family got on board to call me a genoicdal monster...when I was already alone and suicidal.

You're not a monster he is. Anyway loneliest thing I've done is to play Mario Party by myself

 

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

I think that ctb is the loneliest thing that i Will do, here a song

 

[whitetea]

I used to spend lunch hour at school alone. Just sat eating my lunch in a corner of the school and would listen to music or draw.

 

[Talokin]

These are all such incredibly sad stories....
I'm sorry for us.

 

[merpmerp]

Once I was so lonely the world went on lockdown and my life wasn't any different

 

[terry_a_davis]

I spent a few school lunches with on my own, felt terrible. Ive spent odd nights away from home on my own too. Gone for drives on my own. Mainly had company though i've been lucky.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Taken myself out for dinner. Eating in a restaurant on your own just sucks.

 

[peacefully31425]

Except for the couple years I spent living my ex, I've always been alone. Most of the posts in this thread seem entirely normal to me.

 

[darkhorse256]

Lay on my dog's chest and pretended he was a human.

 

[porfin1234]

Ive gone out to eat alone and gone to the movies alone. Weird thing is most of the time it didn't bother me. Strangely enough even though I often hate being alone to the point of extreme anxiety, at the same time I am naturally inclined to just be in my head and do my own thing to where other people around me almost don't exist. It's really affected my relationships badly. I want desperately to connect but yet don't know how.. even once my friend pointed out when we went to an arts and crafts festival and her friend showed up I left them alone and just went off and did my own thing. To me it just felt like they were there together and I explored alone. Apparently that was very very weird. I thought nothing of it at the time.
I feel so out of place and like I don't belong that sometimes it feels safer just doing something alone and not have to worry about whether or not I "fit in".

 

[Neurodoom]

Went for a walk in the wooded park with beers and food and had a picnic. It began raining so I found shelter under a small tree and drank my beers.

 

[nerve]

I made a group chat that's just me so whenever I find a neat video or article or something, I can at least pretend I have people to share and talk about it with.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Ctb is definitely the loneliest thing I will ever do.

 

[MichaelNomad123]

I drink alone, walk alone in the early hours of the morning, travel alone and I made a subreddit for myself to vent to myself about myself. I used to have a diary but I've since lost the login details

 

[NightmareTour]

I made myself one of those full European breakfast tables like we would have when I stay with my dad (different bread, pastries, cheese, fruit, meat, etc), ate mine, and put the rest away.

 

[MrBlue]

When I was 17/18 I taught myself A levels on my own in a room at my shool. It was a clockhouse that would chime every so often to really make me feel like quasimodo! Then at Uni I never managed to make friends or sucessfully join any clubs so I wouldn't speak to people outside of getting asked for my work for months at a time.

 

[Lilacmoon]

i listen to streamers on twitch to fall asleep so i can pretend someone is reading me a bedtime story.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

This was pretty lonely...

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...ie-despite-suicide-attempts.33680/post-622091

 

[Wayfaerer]

Play a game of poker with myself.

 

[Puppy]

Spending New Years in a homeless shelter. I mean yeah there were folk around me but I just stayed on my bed it was super sad. Also waking up Christmas morning in the shelter was very lonely

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i talk to myself a lot. (actual full conversations)

 

[woxihuanni]

I was lonely even when he was using my body. I was lonely at every graduation, birthday, etc. But the loneliest is to die by my own hand because I am trashed.

 

[ElPaso]

Conducted a research study for my final grad school project in Dallas. Flew back in Chicago at 9pm and slept outside a gas station in my car for an hour before going to work at 6am at my job 300 miles away.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

Very lonely most of the time. I "talk" to people here and to my dog. He's a good listener!


Yes, he has only one eye and thinks I'm gorgeous!

 

[bov]

When I was a little girl I wasn't receiving any physical contact at home so at school I invented a game called "anaconda" where I was the anaconda and had to hug the nearest mammal to death for points (obv no one wanted to play this with me)

 

[WritingLove]

I suppose hug the structural beam in my room because I really needed a hug

 

[Panna]

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I love your dog, doggos are just such good friends. I have one as well and he's essentially the same, just a wonderful fella. Sleeps with me, and follows me everywhere.

 

[greebo6]

I remember some very lonely new years eves in my apartment watching tv.

I still have them......
I knew of one person some years ago who sent themselves a Christmas card. That's lonely....

As for myself there's a lot of loneliness on an all too regular basis. But spending particularly poignant times like Christmas Eve , New Years Eve ,Valentines Day ,etc....are the loneliest experiences to go through.

 

[WaitingWesting]

I spend every lunch and break at work hiding in the personell room eating alone facing a corner. I come home from work and drink alone. Sometimes i talk to random ppl on random chat sites or i have full on drunk conversations with my dogs lol...i have no social media either.