The ending

[Crow_88]

Last night I realized that CTB has always been my plan. Since an early age I would hit these walls as my ideas of how to live life failed. Every time before I'd find a reason to go on. That isn't so this time. It's over and I know it. It's so messed up to realize you've been living on borrowed time, sure that it is all coming down eventually. Even when I was at my best, I knew leaving this world was the only rational way this ends.

 

[LunarEc]

I feel the same way, I wish you the best <3

 

[Crow_88]

I feel the same way, I wish you the best <3

You too

 

[2minutes2ctb]

I understand totally how you feel, I'm in a similar situation. 2024 was the final nail in the coffin, I just don't want anything from this life anymore. May you find peace

 

[Crow_88]

I understand totally how you feel, I'm in a similar situation. 2024 was the final nail in the coffin, I just don't want anything from this life anymore. May you find peace

That's exactly it. There just isn't anything left to be alive for and the anxiety is torture.

 

[2minutes2ctb]

I've been taking benzos for anxiety, but at the end of the day... what for ? A better sleep and a few more days, weeks at best of existence ?
Tried a change of scenery, antidepressants, different therapies, and nothing has worked.
Sometimes it's better to just pull the plug, when you don't see any future anymore.

 

[Crow_88]

I've been taking benzos for anxiety, but at the end of the day... what for ? A better sleep and a few more days, weeks at best of existence ?
Tried a change of scenery, antidepressants, different therapies, and nothing has worked.
Sometimes it's better to just pull the plug, when you don't see any future anymore.

Yeah. I hear it. Same in same out day to day. And I know it's just going get worse as time goes by. No good to know one. What's the point of staying alive