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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

I'm sorry sweetie, I miss you
Jul 6, 2026
226
this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last post here. goodbye.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

₩○₩ §○ £ãñĉÿ
Apr 10, 2025
2,513
Hi. feel free to share some words to remember u by.

Also, just mentioning that there is no obligation about CTB, regardless of your decision, sending hugs from Australia.
 
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hihi2027

hihi2027

Student
Jul 29, 2026
123
I hope this is the best option for you. Stay safe where ever you end up
 
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tokyoboo

tokyoboo

Member
Jul 24, 2026
71
I hope you have a peaceful ctb, ❤️
 
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dirkw83

Experienced
Mar 4, 2026
263
be safe
 
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YourLocalEdgelord

YourLocalEdgelord

"You take my life, I fail to die"
Feb 3, 2026
226
Safe travels!!! <3
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Stirb nicht vor mir
Jul 19, 2026
705
You've been a great friend, thank you for having existed and I hope I could bring you some ease in your last days.. 💜 we've already said our goodbyes in private but still, I wish you the best and I hope you'll find relief..
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
900
I hope you can find peace. All the best to you and good luck ❤️🌷
 
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SighCry

Member
May 15, 2026
83
this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last post
this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last post here. go

this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last

this is it, my ctb date has come, and I'll be dead in about 2 hours...

I have been fasting for the past 8 hours already and followed the 48-hour protocol with metoclopramide. I have 2 air-tight containers with 25g of SN each that I will measure and mix 50mL of water into.

before heading out to my chosen location in the woods, I'll have 600mg ibuprofen, 500mg gabapentin, and 30 mg metoclopramide. then once I get there I'll take 6 antacid tablets and 250 mg Benadryl, and of course, the SN mixture.

thank you to everyone on this website who listened to me and showed support. i hope all of you find peace, in whichever way you choose. thank you for giving me a place to share my emotions without judgement. this will be my last post here. goodbye.
I can see you're still online. Are you okay?
 
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LRkin

LRkin

Lost in the steppe
Jun 30, 2026
154
Farewell. I hope you'll find the peace you were looking for
 
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ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

Doctor Sleep
Sep 15, 2023
733
Best wishes
 
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lecheflanlvr

lecheflanlvr

Member
Jul 26, 2026
12
I see you on almost every thread, good luck and I hope you find peace.
 
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BloodStainedAntlers

BloodStainedAntlers

sic labitur aetas
Aug 2, 2026
48
be safe & may peace be with you
 
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suncide10

suncide10

Student
Apr 27, 2026
122
Wish you the best, rest in peace.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Angelic
May 10, 2025
4,333
🕊️ peace and love to you, my friend
 
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delinquentsandwich

delinquentsandwich

professional dissociator
Jan 23, 2026
194
rest well
 
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Estrella87

Student
Jul 27, 2026
126
Rip ;-;
 
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angel164

angel164

martyr
Mar 29, 2026
65
i wish you find your peace :heart:
 
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Casoperso

Casoperso

Fighting my mind
Mar 31, 2025
81
May you find peace🕊️
 
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zanshu

zanshu

Experienced
Jul 19, 2023
202
I just saw your comment on my own thread you made a couple hours ago before seeing this. Your comment earlier made me smile.
I hope you're resting easy now ❤️
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,170
may you find peace🫂
 
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Rihan

Rihan

Vanitas vanitatum, et omnia vanitas
Jan 11, 2026
89
Wishing you all the best.
 
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suicidalalcoholic

suicidalalcoholic

Member
Aug 4, 2026
18
I hope you find peace :heart:
 
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hlchoo

hlchoo

Member
Jul 23, 2026
46
May you find peace
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Stirb nicht vor mir
Jul 19, 2026
705
As of now she has passed.. She didn't vomit or feel too much discomfort beyond some sickness and tachycardia and she passed while chatting with me, from what I know it was peaceful relief 💜
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,273
Safe Journey and may the next life be better than the one that you had to suffer in.
Save Me Animation GIF by Queen
 
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PsychedeliaSuicide

PsychedeliaSuicide

Suiciding to get isekai'd to the 60s
Jun 29, 2026
26
May you find peace from your suffering... ❤️
 
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sotomie

sotomie

I’m the problem
Jul 18, 2026
48
Rest in peace beautiful soul 🕊️🩶
 
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Makethemsuffer

Makethemsuffer

I want to be forgotten, not remembered
Jul 30, 2026
17
As of now she has passed.. She didn't vomit or feel too much discomfort beyond some sickness and tachycardia and she passed while chatting with me, from what I know it was peaceful relief 💜
I'm genuinely so glad to hear
 
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