Thank you all<3 leaving soon

[Desperate_Soul]

I literally called someone out for that And they gave me a hard time and reported me.. He made several "attempts", several "goodbye forever" posts and this guy would disappear for days and come back " I couldn't do it.".. Like what the fuck? Meanwhile he's handing out suicide advice and methods to ensure attempts to be fatal. People get on my damn nerves. Well said though , Done has the right idea of how you say a final goodbye.

This. Right. Here.

 

[Ben]

I literally called someone out for that And they gave me a hard time and reported me.. He made several "attempts", several "goodbye forever" posts and this guy would disappear for days and come back " I couldn't do it.".. Like what the fuck? Meanwhile he's handing out suicide advice and methods to ensure attempts to be fatal. People get on my damn nerves. Well said though , Done has the right idea of how you say a final goodbye.

Well, i would not judge somebodys return to this site after a failed attempt, even if it was 100 times. I would still reply to their posts and like their messages. I understand it can be hard. I won't think they are any less serious about wanting to die then I am.

But... I would have stop saying goodbye and good luck on their CTB posts a long time ago. It's not fair to expect people to jump in the cycle with you every time. I do not think it's rude of me to feel that way.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I literally called someone out for that And they gave me a hard time and reported me.. He made several "attempts", several "goodbye forever" posts and this guy would disappear for days and come back " I couldn't do it.".. Like what the fuck? Meanwhile he's handing out suicide advice and methods to ensure attempts to be fatal. People get on my damn nerves. Well said though , Done has the right idea of how you say a final goodbye.

Yup, I think I know who you're talking about and at this point I think he's just trolling.

 

[IDontWantToBreathe]

Yup, I think I know who you're talking about and at this point I think he's just trolling.

Hundo he's full of shit

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Hundo he's full of shit

But he seems well liked by the mods and admins, soooooo.

 

[IDontWantToBreathe]

But he seems well liked by the mods and admins, soooooo.

Doesn't matter to me. I didn't join this site to be liked and kiss ass. And if they want to ban me for calling someone out on their harmful behaviour I'll just make another account. It's absurd to me.

 

[windingdown]

I disagree with this. If you change your mind and decide to come back, you are more than welcome here. No one should ever be pressured to kill themselves.

Totally. Welcome back, welcome back.

I have so much compassion for people by this point, no judgment. I think humans are incredible just for existing. Life can be so hard.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

May you find peace. :) I hope everything works out for you. :)

 

[MissLisa]

Good luck in whatever is right for you, I wish you peace. You sound like you are in a good place

 

[N-IsMyHope]

You made me thinking of trying gamble before I ctb. It must be fun, but I have to figure out how to use slot machine :)
Wish you have a peaceful journey...

 

[Desperate_Soul]

You made me thinking of trying gamble before I ctb. It must be fun, but I have to figure out how to use slot machine :)
Wish you have a peaceful journey...

What happens if you hit the jackpot? :o

 

[Regisphilbin_savant]

What happens if you hit the jackpot? :o

You look around ,make sure there are no lurking jackpot vultures, and quietly get a check issued out in ur name

 

[Desperate_Soul]

You look around ,make sure there are no lurking jackpot vultures, and quietly get a check issued out in ur name

and then no more ctb? :o

 

[N-IsMyHope]

What happens if you hit the jackpot? :o

I born with a bad luck..... But If I hit a small jackpot, I will just spend it or big one I will give it to my dad. I still want to rest for ever.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Good luck to you ..your final few days sound nice ☺

 

[Ashpac]

You seem like a really good person.
This was very well thought out and planned.
A good way to spend your last few days thats for sure.
What a peaceful way to go.
Enjoy your transition.

 

[Ktmnny]

I am glad that you had the opportunity to eat fantastic food, watch your favourite movies, and have some fun during your last few days.
Good luck to you.

 

[Ktmnny]

for me it was cease to breath at first lol

This actually made me laugh out loud.... 'cease to breath'

 

[Hunter]

Good luck!

 

[tearsinrain]

I wonder how Done is doing right now? I hope everything is peaceful and according to plan.........<3

 

[Done]

Hi everyone,

I just returned to my room, just took my final dose of meto. I may take another two pills in 30 minutes because I'm terrified of throwing up and becoming a vegetable. I'm trembling with fear because I don't want to fail, I don't want to throw up, I don't want to get discovered. I just finished writing my note. I'm trying to listen to music to calm down. One song I love if anyone is interested is R. Mullen by Yppah. I feel if I were a song, that would be it lol. I've been listening to it for years.

I'm going to read the rest of your comments to calm down and finally go through with it. If I can, I will try to explain what the taste is like. Not sure if in that moment though I will want to type, but if I feel I can I will. I'm just so terrified of throwing up and with my nerves I feel it's possible, despite taking meto.

 

[Charlie]

I'm sorry for arguing on your page. I hope you get peace

 

[Ben]

Done, in my short time being here, I've been witness to the impact you've made on some users. Myself included! If you look, ever since this post, I've been saying KTB instead of CTB in your honour.

You seem so acceptive of your journey, i feel special just being a part of your final moments here. You're an inspiration to us all, I'll always remember you, and you can take that to the bank.

There is no shame if you fail tonight. Please update us if you were unsuccessful tonight, otherwise, I will use your story as a source of inspiration to other users here.

KICK. THAT. BUCKET.

 

[Done]

You made me thinking of trying gamble before I ctb. It must be fun, but I have to figure out how to use slot machine :)
Wish you have a peaceful journey...

It's ok. I just came back from it and I could barely put money in the machine because my hands were trembling. Also because I was by myself I had guys hitting on me and i was thinking, "If only you knew". lol.

 

[Done]

Done, in my short time being here, I've been witness to the impact you've made on some users. Myself included! If you look, ever since this post, I've been saying KTB instead of CTB in your honour.

You seem so acceptive of your journey, i feel special just being a part of your final moments here. You're an inspiration to us all, I'll always remember you, and you can take that to the bank.

There is no shame if you fail tonight. Please update us if you were unsuccessful tonight, otherwise, I will use your story as a source of inspiration to other users here.

KICK. THAT. BUCKET.

You are so kind<3 I wish I could meet you and everyone else here in real life.

 

[Ben]

You are so kind<3 I wish I could meet you and everyone else here in real life.

Thank you Done. I can honestly say me and you would of had more relatable conversations if I found this forum earlier, but I only have you here, for right now.

So all I can say is, I respect you, and you can die knowing that at least one user will
Keep your memory alive with KTB. No more CTB. It's KTB now, because of you, for me anyway.

Rest well <3

 

[tearsinrain]

Done, thank you so much for updating us, I really appreciate it because I was worried about how you're doing. You're very strong and considerate to post for us, even with all the anxiety you're going through.

I truly hope the very best outcome for you. And if you feel that the anxiety is too strong/fear of vomiting, there is absolutely no shame in postponing everything until you feel better. (Everything you're describing is how I imagine I'll feel at my time-----strong fear of vomiting/failure)


Keep us posted if you can, (don't stress about posting or not though!).

Peace, <3 and hugs to you ~~~~

 

[Done]

Can I ask you guys for one last piece of advice?

 

[Charlie]

Can I ask you guys for one last piece of advice?

Anything

 

[Charlie]

Fuck I'm crying. I don't have the stomach for this. Holy fuck, such a poor soul. I wish I could hold you and squeeze all the pain away