Thank you all<3 leaving soon

[DeathBecomesMe]

I have no choice, I've been ready and survival instinct is making me tremble. I don't know why because I was at such peace all the days leading up to this, including yesterday and even this morning. But now I'm trembling. I have to do it though. Does anyone have any suggestions on what I can do to calm my nerves? I will listen to music now, also going to smoke a cigarette outside. Anyone else have any suggestions? With N it's advised not to drink alcohol ahead of time and I don't have benzos in the hotel. ANY Advice to kick this instinct?

Done, I can't think of any suggestions for you. A cigarette should help, iv also read not to drink alcohol before taking the N, but I can't see how a glass of wine beforehand would negatively affect the N's effects. Maybe it's more about being in a 'rational' sober state of mind. I'm not sure.

Remember, you are awesome, only do what YOU want to do. Be 100% sure. There is always another time if it is not right now.

 

[Hunter]

Done, all I can recommend is for you to contemplate and review all your reasons for leaving and what you've been through. Wait until you reach a moment where you feel balanced and calm. It's a bit like cliff jumping into water; of course you'll be scared before but once you're in the air you can let go.

Of course, if you're really still terrified, listen to yourself. No one is going to shame you for stopping now. (Anyone who does I will verbally pinch). This has to come 100% from within you and no one else.

Also I might recommend logging out of here for a bit, this thread is becoming kind of a mess. You need less mental clutter not more.

 

[MachineGunDani]

Ur gonna b ok Done, take deep breaths (of cigarette smoke lol) turn the music up as loud as ur able, close ur eyes and feel the music. Try just focusing on that maybe. Or masturbate lol that usually releases tension (at least for me lol)

 

[MachineGunDani]

Think of all the bastards u want to haunt after it's done! Lol that's kinda exciting!

 

[Done]

Think of all the bastards u want to haunt after it's done! Lol that's kinda exciting!

Even the people that destroyed me I don't want to haunt. I think this is inevitable, the nerves that is. I'm going to just do it when I go upstairs.

 

[MachineGunDani]

Even the people that destroyed me I don't want to haunt. I think this is inevitable, the nerves that is. I'm going to just do it when I go upstairs.

Well will u haunt my ex husband? Lol jk humor relaxes too! But seriously it is inevitable! Ur gonna b ok!!

 

[DeathBecomesMe]

Even the people that destroyed me I don't want to haunt. I think this is inevitable, the nerves that is. I'm going to just do it when I go upstairs.

I like what Hunter said in his first paragraph of his last message to you.

Try to think about it all, focus on your breathing and think why you want to do this, what you've been through and if you are ready, and if it is time, you owe it to yourself to feel some calm. Lots of thought and hugs for you right now!

 

[Charlie]

Suicide is never inevitable. You don't have to do this if you don't want to.

 

[MachineGunDani]

I hope ur ok!

 

[IDontWantToBreathe]

What happens if you hit the jackpot? :o

Then you can die in style hahaha

 

[N-IsMyHope]

Hope you can see those beautiful stars while you smoking the cigarets.
When I feel I need to clear something in my mind, I just go to my balcony and look as far as I can.

 

[Hunter]

Been exactly 8 hrs now. I hope you're at peace, OP.

 

[Ashpac]

I wanted to say more stuff to this person but I have not been on today :(

I hope it worked. Some good posts in here to ''Done''

One post in particular i liked was when someone said ''think of the people who you can haunt when you die'' thats deffo my kind of humour and something Id want to hear before I die.

 

[MachineGunDani]

I wanted to say more stuff to this person but I have not been on today :(

I hope it worked. Some good posts in here to ''Done''

One post in particular i liked was when someone said ''think of the people who you can haunt when you die'' thats deffo my kind of humour and something Id want to hear before I die.

Lol thank u. I was trying to help relax her lol