I haven't been on this forum for quite awhile now because I assumed I didn't know what I was doing with regards to partial suspension hanging, I wasn't having any success in losing consciousness. My problems haven't improved but I tried to put death out of my mind. Reality came rushing at me lately and the realisation of just how hopeless my situation is hit me. A month ago I had been using a bedpost with bedsheets and a slipknot, I wasn't losing consciousness so I assumed I wasn't blocking the carotid artery, thinking maybe my neck was abnormal or some such nonsense.
Anyways fast forward to today I decided I should try again, instead of the bedpost I tied the bedsheets to some pipes high up in my closet I hadn't noticed before. My knees are on the ground when I hang this way but the angle that the ligature goes into the neck is different. All I can say is the speed of unconsciousness is astonishing, obviously I'm typing this so I didn't foresee all possible issues or execute very well. Both tries I hyperventilated for about a minute before pushing down hard with my neck in the ligature.
First time I must have gone out within 10 seconds and became conscious some time later in a sort of dream state, tongue was numb and I was so fucked up I had forgotten I had tried to hang myself, didn't know what was going on. It wasn't until I became lucid after like 30 seconds that I was aware of what I had done and where I was, evidently the poorly tied noose came undone. It freaked me out this experience but within 10 minutes the malaise had passed and I remembered why I wanted to hang myself in the first place. I retied the knot making it much tighter this time, did the hyperventilating for a minute and leaned down just as before. This time I remember pain in the neck for maybe 5 seconds and then as with before I came to in a dream like state, blurred vision, having weird muscle spasms all over my body. I was standing up on my right leg up to the knee. This time when I became lucid I can only phrase it as my life flashed before me, I remembered how happy I once was and simultaneously how fucked up I've become and just burst into tears.
I've tried jumping off a bridge and done some frightening things in my past but the sensation of waking up convulsing in the state I just described was by far more troubling to me. Fucking hell, this method is nothing to take lightly, it works unbelievably fast.
Anyways fast forward to today I decided I should try again, instead of the bedpost I tied the bedsheets to some pipes high up in my closet I hadn't noticed before. My knees are on the ground when I hang this way but the angle that the ligature goes into the neck is different. All I can say is the speed of unconsciousness is astonishing, obviously I'm typing this so I didn't foresee all possible issues or execute very well. Both tries I hyperventilated for about a minute before pushing down hard with my neck in the ligature.
First time I must have gone out within 10 seconds and became conscious some time later in a sort of dream state, tongue was numb and I was so fucked up I had forgotten I had tried to hang myself, didn't know what was going on. It wasn't until I became lucid after like 30 seconds that I was aware of what I had done and where I was, evidently the poorly tied noose came undone. It freaked me out this experience but within 10 minutes the malaise had passed and I remembered why I wanted to hang myself in the first place. I retied the knot making it much tighter this time, did the hyperventilating for a minute and leaned down just as before. This time I remember pain in the neck for maybe 5 seconds and then as with before I came to in a dream like state, blurred vision, having weird muscle spasms all over my body. I was standing up on my right leg up to the knee. This time when I became lucid I can only phrase it as my life flashed before me, I remembered how happy I once was and simultaneously how fucked up I've become and just burst into tears.
I've tried jumping off a bridge and done some frightening things in my past but the sensation of waking up convulsing in the state I just described was by far more troubling to me. Fucking hell, this method is nothing to take lightly, it works unbelievably fast.
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