Personally, I don't think there's a difference. Everyone is different, but I know for some, their past trauma manifests in ways that indirectly affects their present and future which could lead to wanting to ctb just as strongly as if their trauma was still ongoing, if that makes any sense
I think past traumas are more likely to shape a person and awaken them at a early age to the truths of this cruel world, for most suicide is a result of the combination of past trauma and ongoing, it's a vicious cycle that never ends
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Both. I still live with the progenitor who caused me the childhood trauma, and every other day presents some sort of new iteration of the same bullshit.
Not only that, dealing with the guilt and self-loathing from the trauma I've caused others as a result of all the psychological fuckery.
Past, technically, but I've only been free of it for 3 years.
Really I have no particular reason to complain about my life ongoing other than being irreparably poor like 98% of people my age. Nothing I have or can ever have has made what I've gone through feel like it was worth it. I'm extremely apathetic as a whole to what living has to offer.
I don't know about trauma, I suppose there's some in the past and the present, but it's more about the future and having no worthwhile way forward. and my inherent flaws as a person, knowing that I'm not going to be able to deal with things as well as others can
The worst (so far) of my life was definitely in my childhood. That said, life may be less intensely traumatic now but it's certainly stressful and just plain too difficult- for very little point or reward. I have my method prepared but I'm waiting for my Dad to pass first. I really don't know if I'll have the guts to go after that but I hope so.
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