Help She doesn't know I'm leaving .. please please help me

[farawaystara]

I've been with her for 6 years.
I love her. I really really love her. And she loves me too.

She was with me through every part of my treatment.
Now I look at her and she's happy. She thinks I'm better.

I swear I don't know what to do.

I've already made my decision.
Everything is ready. My final letter. A long video. I'll post it here and everywhere.

But this girl.. the one I love with all my heart..
I don't know what will happen to her when I'm gone.

I cry every time I think about her.
I imagine her crying. Depressed. Without me.

She's attached to me. She really loves me.

Please.. please help me

 

[Off_Switch]

Make one last attempt to build something with her. You have nothing to lose.

 

[farawaystara]

Make one last attempt to build something with her. You have nothing to lose.

I want to make sure my decision doesn't destroy her. I want to help her move on after I'm gone

 

[Alumina]

I want to make sure my decision doesn't destroy her. I want to help her move on after I'm gone

i have been through it, at the place she'd stand. I am afraid there is nothing you can do to ease the pain. Not to question your love, but trying to stay with her, start something else somewhere else (i don't know how she feel about islam, if she'd be down to flee with you). If my girlfriend who caught the bus explained the situation to me, i wouldn't have bat an eye and went with her. But i understand that if she tells on you after you explain to her that it's either going away of ctb, you'd end up in big trouble (which wouldn't be so bad if you plan to ctb form the start, ig)

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I want to make sure my decision doesn't destroy her. I want to help her move on after I'm gone

There's not much you can do to try and prevent someone from suffering after you die. It's the natural price you have to pay when deciding to ctb. Just try to spend as much time with her as possible before you take your leave. Or maybe rethink your decision entirely. You will always be able to ctb but you won't always be able to live and experience a love so beautiful and enticing.

 

[eggsausagerice]

There's not much you can do to try and prevent someone from suffering after you die. It's the natural price you have to pay when deciding to ctb. Just try to spend as much time with her as possible before you take your leave. Or maybe rethink your decision entirely. You will always be able to ctb but you won't always be able to live and experience a love so beautiful and enticing.

agree with @bl33ding_heart. there's nothing you can do and no way she can help you if you already feel like you can't do anything. i would recommend writing a note she can read when you're gone so that she can read it for closure and comfort. the kindest thing you can do is appreciate her now.

 

[farawaystara]

I'm really sorry you went through the same painful experience. I wouldn't wish that pain on anyone. Thank you for sharing your perspective with me

i have been through it, at the place she'd stand. I am afraid there is nothing you can do to ease the pain. Not to question your love, but trying to stay with her, start something else somewhere else (i don't know how she feel about islam, if she'd be down to flee with you). If my girlfriend who caught the bus explained the situation to me, i wouldn't have bat an eye and went with her. But i understand that if she tells on you after you explain to her that it's either going away of ctb, you'd end up in big trouble (which wouldn't be so bad if you plan to ctb form the start, ig)

i have been through it, at the place she'd stand. I am afraid there is nothing you can do to ease the pain. Not to question your love, but trying to stay with her, start something else somewhere else (i don't know how she feel about islam, if she'd be down to flee with you). If my girlfriend who caught the bus explained the situation to me, i wouldn't have bat an eye and went with her. But i understand that if she tells on you after you explain to her that it's either going away of ctb, you'd end up in big trouble (which wouldn't be so bad if you plan to ctb form the start, ig)

I understand your point of view, but she's not like you. She won't leave her religion or her family. And I won't drag her into this. I don't want her to die. I just want her to live without me

i have been through it, at the place she'd stand. I am afraid there is nothing you can do to ease the pain. Not to question your love, but trying to stay with her, start something else somewhere else (i don't know how she feel about islam, if she'd be down to flee with you). If my girlfriend who caught the bus explained the situation to me, i wouldn't have bat an eye and went with her. But i understand that if she tells on you after you explain to her that it's either going away of ctb, you'd end up in big trouble (which wouldn't be so bad if you plan to ctb form the start, ig)

I understand your point of view, but she's not like you. She won't leave her religion or her family. And I won't drag her into this. I don't want her to die. I just want her to live without me

 

[Alumina]

if she wouldn't be willing to and you would not want her to, there is nothing much to do i think