Help Should I text her before I CTB?

[goodbad&ugly777]

Basically me and my ex had like a crazy situationship and she is really messed up like me which is why we probably get along so well. She is better now and we don't talk as much as we used to but I'm planning on trying to attempt soon and I don't think this time I'm gonna fail so I was thinking should I write something to her before I go? She is the only person who has ever made me feel loved/cared for and I don't wanna die without saying at least something. I don't wanna write something to her and have her feeling guilty. She's always been a little pro-suicide and said she wouldn't mind if I was dead but idk if she was serious or not I really don't wanna traumatize her or make her feel super guilty because this is totally not her fault at all. Idk I can probably figure this out myself and I doubt anyone is gonna see this. Anyways if anyone has advice that would be awesome I'll answer any questions anyone has. Thanks.

 

[ToothFairy]

Do you two still have bounds? I would like to know if the reasson you two stopped talking as often is something heavy and serious or it's just something that happened over time

 

[tonicer]

Did you guys separate in friendly terms or was there a fight? If it was in friendly terms i think writing her something would be good.

 

[jilet]

in my very humble opinion if ctb is very likely dont text her in order to not to feel her guilty

 

[delinquentsandwich]

maybe it depends if she would want some form of closure from you

maybe spend a little time with each other before going, might work too
(this is what I plan on doing, personally)

 

[goodbad&ugly777]

maybe spend a little time with each other before going, might work too
(this is what I plan on doing, personally)

I get the feeling sometimes she doesn't really wanna hangout with me though and I don't think she realizes how much she means to me so idk I don't want to be a burden

Do you two still have bounds? I would like to know if the reasson you two stopped talking as often is something heavy and serious or it's just something that happened over time

It kinda just happened over time, we really liked each other but she had a big drug abuse problem and I wanted her to get help or something but she never did so we never got back together like officially. We still talk and we're still on hold terms I think but honestly I don't know what you mean by bounds.

Did you guys separate in friendly terms or was there a fight? If it was in friendly terms i think writing her something would be good.

It was a little bit of fighting but we always came back to eachother. She wasn't doing good at the time so she would start cutting and shit and it always got me panicking that she would hurt herself. I would say thought that we ended our situationship on friendly terms even though she didn't want it to end.