TL;DR- at the last paragraph if you just want to see the questions and not my background
I'm glad I saw this, but regret that I haven't learned my birth-language. I wanted to, but things are so bad here in life.
I was born in Russia and, unfortunately, adopted. i've wanted to go back, see if I could find my birth-mother, my birth-sibling(all they said was I had an older sibling).
I had a couple questions if anyone knows where I could ask/refer to. I read I'm still a Russian citizen, I believe, I was born between the years it said I have automatic citizenship, I believe. Does the same apply for where I'm buried? Would I be able to be buried in Russia? I want to be cremated and buried in Russia, at least some way, be back in my birth-country. I've never related to any americans, only Europeans, even before I knew I was adopted, I was and am an alien among american culture. Whereas I click with Europeans. Even my crazy adoptive woman who was supposed to be a mother, but I can't call her that in earnest. Part of the reason I'm planning to ctb. She's a raging narcissist, just picture Mother Gothel and Mommie Dearest, that's the whole picture. In terms of her controlling, manipulation, holding me emotionally hostage, beyond controlling, and the dumb united states mental health not being able to o crap or help at all. She's determined to keep me here because she's decided everything for me, that I will behappy herre, I don't belong in Europe, i'll like it here, which i've never liked it here my entire life. I've been wanting to ctb ever since kindergarten, i was never happy with the people here. Only the Europeans i meet online, in games, in NY. I would really want to be buried in Russia, definitely NOT the united states, it's bad enough I was robbed of a life around Europeans, and she still continues to ensure to rob me of a life where I belong.
Would i be able to email the Russian Embassy and ask whether I'd be able to be buried in Russia without raising alarm bells or them calling the police/getting me hospitalised? I obviously won't tell them my intention to ctb, but I wanted to ask people here if they would, if I were to email/contact the embassy about those questions.
Also, would anyone know how i'd go about planning my burial there if I'm allowed to? I have no idea how to go about that, especially international, but it's important I'm not buried in the united states.
I wish I was able to be thankful, but it's hard to be thankful when your self-proclaimed "saint" of a mother is a covert narcissist with severe mental health problems, most likely psychosis, at least from what a few therapists have suggested to me. A lifetime of emotional, mental, psychological abuse, someone who dragged me from Russia/Europe just to be dysfunctional, hurtful. I know mental/psychological abuse isn't the worst that can happen, and I've read about ALOT worse happening to Russian adoptees at the hands of americans. It was still severely stunting in its own way though and has made life unlivable. I heard it described as death by a thousand paper cuts. Meaning, there's way worse abuse out there than what I went/go through, but that doesn't change the fact how it's affected me and stunted my life.
I regreat that i'm probably never going to see Russia, which i've wanted to since as early as i can remember, in kindergarten, i'm over 30 now. I really wanted to learn about my sibling(s) and birthmother, and my country, as safely as possible.
TL;DR- how can I find out if it's possible for me to be buried in Russia as an adoptee who possibly has citizenship. also, would i be able to contact the embassy without them reportingme to be hospitalised or figuring out i might be planning ctb? or would that be an ok question that they wouldn't get suspicious of? obviosuly, i won't say i'm planning to ctb, but just want to ask them if, as an adoptee, would i be able to be buried in Russia.
Thank you