Recovery with anhedonia possible?

[3FailedAttemptss]

Hey there ٩( 'ω' )و, it's been a while since I've been on the recovery forum and I'm only really posting this because my contact-person from the youth with psychotic symptoms clinic said that I should to post here, given I'm already on SaSu :P

I'm just wondering, cause I want to kill myself as I can't feel happy, I have been unable to feel happiness for years and years and years and it turns out it's part of my diagnosis— I have schizotypal disorder QwQ. Part of the way it manifests itself is through anhedonia, which is just a confirmation of how I've been feeling anyways :P I've been told by a psychiatrist that all I can ever do is cope and no one can ever really help me. So, I just don't see how recovery is possible >w<

I guess that's kind of my question to begin with— is recovery even possible for someone like me? Im so desperate, I don't see any way out of it other than killing myself ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡

How do I start getting better? owo?

 

[Dot]

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[3FailedAttemptss]

1 thng tht slf hve bn tld mny tmes = hw recvry lks diffrnt fr diffrnt ppl

Th/ only issu wth askng on smewhre lke sasu = tht ur sampl wll b ppl wh/ hve eithr slippd thru th/ crcks or wh/ r stll in a rel8tvly erly plce in thr own recvry bcse mny ppl mve on whn thy hve recovrd

Am wondrng whthr thre r n.e anhdnia or schiztypl cmmuntis whre ppl r furthr in thr recvry s/ thy cn giv u a mre balncd answr

& whle slf am v pro-therpy & recvry etc slf am also qute cynicl of psychtrsts smetmes as thy 100% d/ nt hve all th/ answrs all th/ tme - = ws Y slf bcme intrestd in th/ somatc methds etc whch r on th/ Altern8tve Therpis thred whch slf mde

Even with my ignorance, I think you're absolutely right that recovery looks different for everyone, and maybe this isn't the ideal place to get a balanced perspective on what's possible >w< I'm honestly so fixated on suicide as the solution that I don't even know where to start with recovery .-. I'm just desperate for something to happen, be that recovery or me taking my own life.

I've actually been referred to specialist dialectical behavior therapy with group sessions including a few others who have schizotypal disorder, but the wait time is 6 months to a year - I'm on the list but don't know if I have that kind of time :P I'm writing this from the psych ward after yet another suicide crisis, and honestly it just feels like prevention and buying time rather than actual recovery, which makes me even more desperate for something that might actually help T-T

 

[Dot]

Even with my ignorance, I think you're absolutely right that recovery looks different for everyone, and maybe this isn't the ideal place to get a balanced perspective on what's possible >w< I'm honestly so fixated on suicide as the solution that I don't even know where to start with recovery .-. I'm just desperate for something to happen, be that recovery or me taking my own life.

I've actually been referred to specialist dialectical behavior therapy with group sessions including a few others who have schizotypal disorder, but the wait time is 6 months to a year - I'm on the list but don't know if I have that kind of time :P I'm writing this from the psych ward after yet another suicide crisis, and honestly it just feels like prevention and buying time rather than actual recovery, which makes me even more desperate for something that might actually help T-T

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