Discussion "Reckless Behavior" or "Living It Up Before You Die"

[homesoon.]

I'm just curious considering some small things people have said to me:

Is it recklessness/impulsiveness or just "living it up" when you know/have the feeling you're going to die soon?

I know I smoke more, drink a little more, spending a little more, doing things in weekdays compared to my past self-rules, etc. than I used to do. I've noticed it's happened more since I've put active planning into cbt'ing, which I need to be honest with myself about. I still do my necessities in the meantime (like going to work, paying bills, "functioning," etc.).

Thoughts?

 

[another_user]

The things you mentioned sound like "living it up" because the consequences take time to catch up to you (lung cancer/ liver failure/ lack of financial security).

In my mind recklessness would mean things with the potential for immediate consequences like driving too fast/ having a lot of unprotected sex with different partners.

 

[watchdog]

I think that it's just fine as long as you aren't putting anyone's safety at stake. For me personally, I'd want to take like 750 mg (30 pills) of Benadryl before I CTB.

 

[thealteredmind]

I would like to! I'm just a big coward, like always. I'm also tired and have no motivation to "live it up". If I had the motivation in the first place to do that and got any enjoyment... then wouldn't CBT

 

[Abyssal]

Depends. Smoking and drinking? Living it up to me. Actively trying life risking stuff that could leave you or others hurt? Reckless.

 

[never]

Honestly, I just do stupid shit know I might die in the process. If I was offered to sky dive, I'd go knowing that there is a slight chance things might got wrong and I'll take that change knowing that my death would be instant. Maybe even try Russian roulette just to see if I get lucky.